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tarysande · 5 years

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A few people have reached out to me in the past few days (thank you, my loves)—and when I looked back over July, I realized I had made only a couple of posts, reblogged almost nothing, and generally just vanished off the face of the internet (and other parts of my life, too, for that matter).

The bad news is that I had a minor nervous breakdown.

The good news is, having realized this, all signs point to rapid improvement.

I’m going to throw this down rough and quick. I’ve always been the person people go to for advice or commiseration or to ask for help; usually, I am totally okay with this and enjoy being that person. I genuinely love helping people. I also have a remarkably high pain threshold (like, I had a wisdom tooth removed after the freezing had started to wear off and just grit my teeth when I had to have a broken sewing needle removed from my foot and the surgeon cut into an unanesthetized part of my foot). Physically and mentally. So, sometimes, I don’t notice when I start to get overwhelmed. In fact, I pretty much never notice when I start to get overwhelmed. By the time I notice, I’m already ... whelmed.

Nothing big happened. Nothing horrible or unmanageable by itself. No one did anything to upset me or hurt me or take advantage of me. But things happened. A lot. One right after another. And then one on top of another. And a lot of it meant adding things to an already overflowing plate (which, of course, I just kept piling on). And then, well, you get it. Whelmed. Finally, I reached a point where I was clinging by my fingernails and was pretty sure if someone so much as asked me to pass the butter at dinner I was going to lose it.

Luckily, before I lost it, I (finally) talked to my husband (if you’re picking up that I dislike talking about stuff that’s bothering me, you’re right! I just want it to be over!). He said, “Uh, have you noticed X, Y, Z?” and “You know you’ve been doing a lot of emotional heavy lifting for other people lately, right? Maybe that’s having an effect?” and “So, why are you *lists a bunch of my stress/overwhelm coping mechanisms* if you don’t, as you claim, ‘really have anything to stress about’?”

Well. When you put it that way ... duh, Tara. I just ... hadn’t really noticed. Or, rather, I hadn’t put those puzzle pieces together in the way I needed them to be to see the big picture. Because mostly? Things have been pretty great lately. Except the things that haven’t been.

My brain had been, I see now, trying to tell me there was a problem—for weeks if not months. So were my emotions. And I just kept on gritting my teeth and thinking, “If I can just get through this bit, everything will be fine.” That’s how I got through the wisdom tooth and foot surgery ordeals, after all. But, as you can probably guess from my abrupt disappearance, everything was not fine, and I coped in my usual (sigh) way: compartmentalizing everything, ordering a full-scale retreat into solitude, and denying myself anything fun while I had “work” to do (spoiler alert: I always had work to do, and if I didn’t? I manufactured some. I’ll take Self Sabotage for $1000, Alex).

So. Anyway. Crisis mostly averted. I need to dig myself out of some stuff on my plate (without adding any more!). Yesterday, I opened Scrivener for the first time in, oh, almost three weeks and I, wonder of wonders, wrote some words. For fun!

I apologize to anyone waiting on a Taking the Fall update; my brain legit was not working for most of July. I’ll be back soon; the chapter’s plotted out entirely and just needs fleshing out. <3 Thanks for being patient. I also apologize to everyone who has sent asks in the last month, or tagged me in stuff, or whose work I’ve missed seeing. <3 I really missed you all.

#tara talks personal stuff #tara talks health #tara talks mental health

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echodrops · 4 years

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The Promises I Made (2019 Edition)

For the past thirteen years, I’ve spent every New Year’s Eve compiling a list of fifty promises I intend to keep or fulfill over the next twelve months. The results have been truly amazing, and I have kept some promises I never thought I could. 2019 was… a nightmare that I can barely believe I survived, but I still kept some promises that I honestly did not expect I ever could.

This year, for New Year’s, there will be a new set of promises for to me keep, but here are the old ones, for review!

The Promises I Made (2019 Edition)

1) Be more proactive about tracking and following up with struggling students to decrease the number of students who drop from my class when they realize they cannot pass. Status: Somewhat broken? I tried really hard to be proactive with my students; however, there were some massive issues outside the classroom this year that made it extremely difficult to keep the focus on the students. When administration drags your attention away from the class, there is not a lot you can do…

2) Find a place to put in volunteer hours because uhhhh like this is actually important to my work evaluation and I definitely need something to write in that section… Yikes, this spring is my last chance to do this!! @_@ Status: Kept. I volunteered with the Utah Shakespeare Festival and it was super fun!

3) Install the fire escape window in the Utah house, no matter how much it might cost, because I can’t get a totally unrelated tenant in that basement without said window… Status: Somewhat kept. Okay. This one is a LONG story, but to be fair to me, I worked my ASS off to try and make this happen; just every single thing in the world prevented me from completing this promise, up to and including the city telling me I needed a permit AFTER I had already dug a massive hole in the ground for the window…

4) Buy sod to add grass to the front portion of the lawn so that it no longer looks like garbage. Status: Broken, but I did buy grass seed and put that out there. Unfortunately only some of it sprouted, but there is indeed SOME grass now growing there…

5) Fix the bricks near the windowsills on the Utah house to prevent long-term damage. Status: Broken. After dealing with the stupid window disaster, I had no time for this at all.

6) Get a watering system for my roses at the Utah house because I think my bro is probably killing them and that’s just not cool. Status: Broken, see above.

7) Work on the patio at the Utah house before it just flat out falls down. Status: Somewhat broken. Again, I tried to make progress on this—I called a patio guy to come out and assess how much it would cost to fix the patio—but the price I was quoted was so high that there was nothing I could do at the time.

8) Paint the stairwell so that there’s no chance of anything like lead paint or asbestos being exposed. Status: Broken. The leftover wallpaper glue continues to confound me…

9) Trim the backyard bushes so the neighbors don’t hate us anymore… Status: Broken. We trimmed a few bushes and at least got to the trees out front, but definitely a majority were left uncared for.

10) Move into a new house in Texas where I can get real internet, please for the love of god… Status: Kept. I moved into a very nice house with no scorpions!

11) Save money for my upcoming trip to Japan! 2020 baby! Status: Uhhh, broken. I’m not sure how I thought I’d be able to move into a new house AND save money for an international trip at the same time…

12) Get my wisdom tooth removed because it’s still there and still killing me, yikessss. Status: Broken. AUGH. I’m an idiot.

13) Make an appointment with an eye doctor for like the first time in years. Good job, Yehn, good job. Status: Kept. I got my glasses fixed and even got a new pair of glasses too!

14) Get my prescriptions refilled because I’m dwindling on asthma medicine and like… I could die from this… I should never have been left to care for myself; I’m not mature enough for this responsibility… Status: Kept, surprisingly. But I still need a new doctor because the last one I was going to wouldn’t give me any refills…

15) FINISH THE GIVEAWAY PRIZES I PROMISED LAST YEAR because holy shit I am incompetent and the worst and everyone has permission to hate me for starting things and never finishing them, fuck. Status: Broken. So broken. I am the worst.

16) Go dolphin watching in the Gulf for real this time. Seriously, it’s $10 Yehn, you can do this. Status: Kept, amazingly. It wasn’t as impressed as hoped; however, there was a lovely sunset.

17) Return to the Channel Islands to take better pictures. D; Status: Broken. T_T

18) Level all my classes to 70 in FFXIV before next expansion, please. Status: Somewhat broken. I didn’t have everything to 70 before the expansion, but I kind of feel like I should get credit for this one, because HEY, look at me now:

19) Organize and properly label all the photos on my computer so that I’m no longer desperately combing through folder and folder in blank confusion, looking for a single picture in a sea of thousands… Status: Kept. It took me like eight hours of work, but I actually did this.

20) Update Home and a Half more than once? PLEASE??? The guilt I feel over this currently is crushing. Status: Broken. And the guilt grows…

21) Complete the online American Literature class I am designing on time and with no corrections needed. Status: Kept. I’m counting this as kept even though TECHNICALLY there was one thing I forgot to finish and it came back and bit me in the ass; however, I was approved with no corrections needed.

22) Earn 100% completion for Kingdom Hearts III. So excited! Status: Broken. Um… This just didn’t happen.

23) Update my calendar with important dates—holidays, birthdays, etc.—and be productive about sending cards and well-wishes. Status: Somewhat kept. I wasn’t any better about sending cards really, but I did at least save all the birthdays in my phone so I remember them.

24) Get the garbage disposal in the Texas house fixed ASAP so I don’t have to wash the dishes by hand anymore because I absolutely hate that particular chore. Status: Kept. Then I moved, so it didn’t even matter.

25) Finish all the books my coworkers and friends bought for me recently so I can thank them for their recommendations! Status: Broken. So broken.

26) Actually move into my new place instead of leaving it completely undecorated and lifeless. Status: Remarkably, kept. Nothing has plastic on it, unlike at my old house where the nightstand didn’t get unwrapped even after two years of living there lol.

27) Try hard to get Creative Writing into a different area of the general ed. core so that more people will enroll in it. Status: Kept. I’m counting this because I did my darn best, but we are still waiting on the state to tell us whether or not the class will be accepted.

28) Get caught up on my Ebird reports, even the old, old, old ones I never put in because I was slacking. Status: Kept, actually. Whoo.

29) Throw away/return/sort all the stacks of old mail in the house (OMGGGG they’ve made me look like paper hoarder and I’m nootttt). Status: Broken. There’s just… a lot of papers to go through…

30) Clean up the garage before moving so that I don’t have to fight spiders to move when the time comes. Status: Broken, in that I did not clean up the garage in advance and did, in fact, have to fight spiders when it came time to move.

31) Find a way to boost grading productivity so that each class takes only two days to grade, maximum. Status: Somewhat kept. I was definitely better this year than last year; however, I really think the “two days per class” thing was too optimistic, so for the future semester, I allotted myself three days per class and I think it will work better.

32) Go to a totally new restaurant and try their food. Status: Kept. We went to a Mexican restaurant and I had trompo tacos (al pastor) which is probably not anything special to anyone else but it was my first time so lol.

33) Cancel old credit cards to make sure my credit is good before trying to buy a house (although I just checked my credit score and I’m in the great range already, so this is mostly for posterity’s sake). Status: Broken. But it didn’t affect my loan, so I guess it was okay. And it ended up being good I didn’t cancel my Best Buy card because I was able to get good financing on the new appliances I needed for my house.

34) Get official contracts from my tenants so I can use my rental income in my next loan calculation. Status: Broken, but I ended up not using that as part of the loan calculation anyway >_> so…

35) Talk to an HR rep about my retirement savings so that I can consolidate all my retirement accounts into one. (Man, look at all these ADULTING promises.) Status: Broken. Look at me failing all these adulting promises.

36) Really finish decorating my office so it looks super cute and all my students want to visit me. Status: Broken, but I think it sucks that I have to write this because it was really not my fault I couldn’t finish decorating my office. Our offices were all moved and disrupted by building remodels so I spent the entire year basically working out of a couple cardboard boxes.

37) Not sign up for ANY more new responsibilities at work in the spring semester. This is the biggest challenge. D; Status: Kept, by technicality. I was able to avoid signing up for anything new in SPRING… But fall… was a whole other story. XD

38) Migrate all the rest of my books to the new Texas house instead of leaving them in Utah… SOMEHOW. Status: Kept. I’m going to count this as kept. The only books left at the Utah house are my manga—I managed to bring literally every other book, which is very impressive considering I had only my small Camaro with its tiny truck space.

39) Use my twitter account more often to make it worth following. I will try!! Status: Kept… sorta? I mean, since I didn’t use the account AT ALL before, making even one Twitter post kind of counts as using it more, right? >_>

40) Keep my hair cut nicely so I look less like a mess (than I really am). Status: Somewhat broken. Although I think I got my hair cut more often this year than before, I don’t think I looked any less like a mess. XD

41) Successfully find a bridesmaid dress for my friend’s wedding that matches the rest of the wedding party. Status: Actually kept! It was incredible. The wedding I was in was even featured in a magazine because of how pretty it was!

42) Make sure my skin is in good condition for the wedding so I don’t look like a disturbing ghost… Status: Kept? I mean, in the end, looking like a ghost ended up being the whole point since it was a Halloween themed wedding so I kind of won either way.

43) Complete my BNHA manga collection. Since my bro bought me a bunch of the volumes for Christmas, I might as well. Status: Broken… I bought like… one volume. XD

44) See a groove-billed ani. (It’s another type of bird.) Status: Broken. Very illusive bird. T_T

45) Respond to messages, asks, and comments more quickly. I promise I’m not ignoring people… D; Status: Um, broken. I left many people on read this year, sorry.

46) Lose ten pounds so that I feel more fit and comfy. Status: Broken. I didn’t exercise at all this year, uff.

47) Pay down credit card debt by at least 1/3. Yikesssss, I really need to do this quick. Status: Broken. It’s hard to pay down a credit card when you pour all your money into buying a new house…

48) I will finally fucking finish that chapter 73 analysis of Noragami… I swear to god… Status: Broken. Uh yeah. This didn’t happen. V_V

49) Reach 1700 followers on Tumblr. You should follow me—I’m only marginally a waste of time and space! Status: Kept. Over 2500 followers now!

50) I will keep these promises. LOLLLLL. Status: Somewhat kept/somewhat broken. One year I really will keep them all…

Totals Kept promises: 18 Broken promises: 24 Somewhat kept/broken promises: 8

Well, there are more kept promises than last year at least… It was another really hard year, what with moving in the middle of the year, over-working, dealing with so much drama with the reaccreditation on our campus, and just EVERYTHING all at once this last year… I keep thinking things are going to calm down and then they never do. Please 2020… just let me rest…

My new set of promises will be up on the 1st!

#50 promises #new year's resolutions #IRL stuff #please 2020 #I need a break #it's not the roaring 20s #it's the snoring 20s #PLEASE

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schmergo · 5 years

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PSA: Wear a retainer

I’ve posted before about getting my wisdom teeth out in January, but I haven’t talked much about my weird recovery period afterward. Now that I’m all better, I thought I’d share my experience.

The actual procedure went startlingly well, given that I was almost 27 years old (most dentists recommend patients get their wisdom teeth out under age 25 so the teeth aren’t as deeply rooted into the bone) and had four impacted wisdom teeth (one very severe) and a minor connective tissue disorder that could complicate things. Props to my amazing oral surgeon. The procedure was only 15 minutes total, they had me on laughing gas and local anaesthetic rather than completely putting me under and it was totally painless, I wasn’t even prescribed pain pills and had next to no pain in my incisions after the third day. I healed quickly, barely had any swelling, only took two days off work, didn’t suffer from any post-surgical complications like dry socket or infections. Everything was going perfectly and I was healing ahead of schedule— until I wasn’t.

The only minor problem I experienced was a common complication called “trismus” or lockjaw. I could barely open my mouth after the procedure. I could barely even eat a spoonful of yogurt. I have a very small mouth and dodgy joints, so it was no surprise. This usually goes away after about a week. Mine took several weeks to totally clear up, and after that, my jaw was super weak from being out of practice- which makes total sense. Eating chewy or crunchy food felt like eating concrete.

Then, I began experiencing a dull, pulsating feeling of pressure above my upper right teeth. Exactly where, I couldn’t say. It was worse when lying down. I chalked it up to post-surgical nerve weirdness or trying to eat food that was too hard to chew and tried to stick to soft, easy to eat food. It didn’t get better. Instead, the pressure turned onto a dull, throbbing ache. I stopped chewing on my right side altogether. My gums became tender and inflamed. I became so preoccupied by the constant pain that I kept obsessively sucking at and poking at my teeth with my tongue, trying to find the source of the pain. A crack? A broken filling? Poking at it made it worse, yet I couldn’t seem to stop.

I went back to my dentist three times in two months, fearing an abscesses tooth (I once had an abscesses baby tooth and this felt similar) but he couldn’t find anything wrong except my swollen gums. He prescribed me a prescription mouthwash. I went to a periodontist to see if I had a gum infection or something. He said my mouth looked healthy. I ran out of my dental insurance for 2019 when I got my wisdom teeth out, so I was paying for all of these visits out of pocket.

I began to lose sleep, and the pain spread to the whole right side of my face. I could no longer lie down on my right side, be kissed on the cheek, eat or drink anything hot or cold, even smile while a breeze was blowing. My face was insanely sensitive. I couldn’t sleep at all without slathering my teeth and gums in Oragel to dull the pain. I was taking two ibuprofen every 4 hours. It was worse than the immediate first few days after getting my wisdom teeth out. It was May, over three months after getting my wisdom teeth out, and it was getting worse, not better. I could still barely chew and not at all on my right side. I was getting despondent and crying all the time.

Finally, I went back to my oral surgeon to make sure I didn’t have a dislocated or fractured jaw or something. He said I looked healthy and my mouth had healed perfectly but noted that I showed signs of clenching my teeth at night, which my dentist had also seen. I knew I clenched my teeth because I’d worn holes into my old retainers but didn’t think it was a big deal.

I used to wear retainers at night religiously after getting braces off because I didn’t want my wisdom teeth to push my teeth out of line when they grew in. After the procedure to remove them, my mouth was too swollen and tender to wear them, and after it had begun to heal, my teeth had shifted too much to wear them comfortably. Plus, the holes I’d worn into it were pretty gross and I figured it was time to retire my retainer after almost ten years.

My oral surgeon went wide eyed and told me to NEVER stop wearing a retainer, not just for aesthetic purposes but for my bite. He told me that my tooth-clenching/grinding had been so bad because I’d stopped wearing my retainer and that my jaw was always feeling tired and weak because I was clenching it so much every night. He urged me to get a new retainer from my dentist ASAP and told me to come back in a month if I still wasn’t better.

I was skeptical, especially because the retainer was $500, but desperate, so I went for it. They even gave it to me half price for $250, only charging me for the top retainer but gave me both!

Within three days, my pain had significantly decreased. Within a month, it was gone. Now that it’s July, my mouth is 100% back to normal. I can eat nuts, apples, bagels, whatever- on both sides of my mouth, without pain.

I know I’ll feel kind of goofy wearing a retainer at night for the rest of my life but it’s a small price to pay. I feel a million percent better. If you’re thinking of ditching your childhood retainer, DON’T, especially after an oral surgery. It can really confuse your poor mouth!

#teeth #dentist #wisdom teeth #surgery cw

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sigmundthesorcerer · 7 years

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SIXTY TRUTHS TAG

tagged by @pallomine !!

1. Nickname(s): tay, tay tay, the vampire queen 2. Bias: i have a pretty serious ghoul & raider bias if that’s what u mean. i love me some ghouls n raiders. 3. Blood type: aaaaaaa idr?? A i think??? i used to know but now... //shrugs 4. Relationship status: nah 5. Birthday: April 2 6. Zodiac sign: aries 7. Pronouns: she/her 8. Hair length: too long. it’s almost touching my shoulders now. i need to get it back up to chin length 9. Height: 5′8 1/4″ according to my last doctor’s visit but shhh let’s just... let me pretend i’m 5′9″ like i thought i was :( 10. A crush: mayor john hancock, if he counts, altho i’d also kinda like to see him get stabbed so 11. What do you like about yourself: ah jeez um... i’m pretty willing to try new things generally?? and i have good music taste 12. Right or left handed: right 13. List of three favourite colours: seafoam green, pink, black! 14. Right now eating: nothing altho i had spaghetti pizza bake a little bit ago 15. Right now drinking: water always 16. I’m about to: wORK ON MY GODDAMN SENIOR PROJECT FOR ONCE ISNTEAD OF SITTING AROUND BEING PATHETIC AND USELESS!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA 17. Listening to: code name: raven - house of heroes 18. Kids: never 19. Get married: hahahaha probably not gonna happen. and if it does happen it’s gonna take someone really special to get past all my commitment issues. the tax benefits and poofy dress sound nice tho.

20. Recent phone call: i was supposed to meet my dad for dinner last night and he called me bc i was running 2 minutes late ‘cause of rush hour traffic

21. Have you ever dated someone twice: nope. the only person i’d consider dating twice.. if they asked me... i’d say no ‘cause i don’t deserve them haha,, 22. Been cheated on: not... that i know of 23. Kissed someone and regretted it: too many times. everyone i’ve ever kissed is no longer in my life which is why i refuse to kiss anyone who’s important to me, even if i want to. i can’t... lose them, :’) 24. Lost someone special: yeah 25. Been depressed: *finger guns* 26. Been drunk and thrown up: i don’t really drink a lot so 27. Had glasses or contacts: i’ve had glasses since second grade. they were readers at first. i think i started wearing ‘em permanently in 4th grade. 28. Had sex on a first date: never had sex at all So 29. Broken someone’s heart: shrugs 30. Turned someone down: way too many times. had to turn the same people down on multiple occasions. some people just can’t take a hint. 31. Cried when someone died: well sure 32. Fallen for a friend: *wrings hands together* hahahahahaa.... yeah... i take a while to sort out my feelings tho so it’s... only ever after they’ve already gotten sick of waiting on me to come around,, they start believing they don’t have a chance with me, and then i end up not having a chance with them. just as well tho. i’d hate to see any of my best friendships ruined or whatever. we’re better off as friends, i’m sure.

In the last year have you…

33. …made a new friend: yes!! i got into fallout within the past year so i’ve made some friends in that fandom including fawkes and morty.

34. …fallen out of love: was i ever in it to begin with?

35. …laughed until you cry: it was 2am and my friend tapped me on the shoulder and i guess it tickled and i sat down and started bawling

36. …met someone who changed you: hmm, i guess so. altho i think she changed me for the worse, haha!

37. …found out who your true friends were: junior project will certainly test u

38. …found out someone was talking about you: i dunno. i’m probably just being paranoid thinkin people are talking about me... or self-absorbed or something lmao! i always think people are talking about me, but in reality, i bet nobody is.

39. Lips or eyes: eyes

40. Hugs or kisses: hugs. we’ve mentioned my hang-ups about kissing already

41. Shorter or taller: i usually like shorter girls and taller guys

42. Romantic or spontaneous: i’d like to be romantically spontaneous. that is, if i ever manage to grasp the “romance” thing, pfft.

43. Sensitive or loud: i’m... both, i think.

44. Hookup or relationship: relationships are the ideal, but...

45. First best friend: her name was dimi and we liked to play doctor with our hello kitty toys

46. Surgery: i had surgery in my ears when i was like 2. and i’ve had a couple of surgeries in my mouth in the past few years. one to get my wisdom teeth removed and another to take care of a cyst in my gum. gotta go back for that pesky cyst again sometime, but i’ve been putting it off. they’re probably gonna have to remove the tooth it’s above at this point.

47. Sports I joined: i was in basketball in kindergarten but i’ve never been real big on sports

48. Do you believe in yourself: do you believe what you’re sayin’? i said, yeah, right now but not that often

49. Miracles: sure, why not!

50. Love at first sight: i hardly believe in love. romantic love itself is probably a myth tbh. never mind love at first sight! are u kidding me??

51. Heaven: if it exists, i ain’t gettin’ there.

52. Do you have any pets: i have a cat named tiger :3c he’s more my mom’s cat but when my mom’s not home he follows me around a lot.

53. Do you want to change your name: i’ve thought about it, but i don’t think i’d be able to stick to one. i’d probably change my name once a year if i could. but it’s just easier to stick with taylor. it’s what everyone already knows me as so.

54. What did you do for your last birthday: i went out for dinner and drinks with my mom since it was my 21st. and she got me the mucha lucha comics.

55. What time did you wake up today: 6:30am and then 9am and then 11:30am

56. What were you doing last night at midnight: booting up fallout 3 and feeling really guilty about not working on senior project

57. Something you can’t wait for: the steam summer sale!!

58. Last time you saw your mom: my mom had already left for work by the time i woke up so i haven’t seen her since last night.

59. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: well, i’d like to have fewer commitment issues and not give up so easily. i’d probably hate myself a lot less if i could just... stick with something... anything... please...

60. What’s getting on your nerves: (((((: the micromanagement at my workplace honestly. just!! trust ur employees, dammit!!

i’m gonna tag @kibbles518, @nomadquail, @enclavedeathclaw, and @aquacura but u don’t gotta do it if u don’t want!

#sigmund speaks #i can't remember my tag for this kinda stuff #anyway!! ty for tagging me!#pallomine

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verytamenow · 7 years

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1:Name - Zoe

2:Age - 24

3:3 Fears - Spiders, Heights, Death (lowkey)

4:3 things I love - The sound of a rain storm, Being able to sleep in, Chocolate

5:4 turns on - Confidence, Cuddling, Kindness, Intelligence

6:4 turns off - Cruelty, Bigotry, Rudeness, Unwillingness to listen

7:My best friend - I don’t think I have one.

8:Sexual orientation - Really really really fucking gay

9:My best first date - Haven’t had one.

10:How tall am I - 5′5″

11:What do I miss - A lot of things when I let myself dwell on them.

12:What time were I born - I honestly have no clue. Is this information people usually have off the top of their head?

13:Favourite color - Blue at the moment

14:Do I have a crush - No.

15:Favourite quote - “It is what it is” / “This too shall pass” / “But the monsters turned out to be just trees”

16:Favourite place - The beach, or by any body of water. Or curled up in bed on a lazy day while it storms.

17:Favourite food - Strawberries.

18:Do I use sarcasm - Who? Me?

19:What am I listening to right now - Road noise

20:First thing I notice in new person - Their smile

21:Shoe size - 8-9

22:Eye color - Blue

23:Hair color - Dark blonde

24:Favourite style of clothing - I kind of live in tshirts and jeans but I really like a sharper look - like suits.

25:Ever done a prank call? - No

27:Meaning behind my URL - There isn’t one? It’s my favourite place, favourite animal, and year of my birth.

28:Favourite movie - Oh this is difficult. The Alien Series, Harry Potter, or Silence of the Lambs

29:Favourite song - Losing My Religion - REM

30:Favourite band - Right now Taylor is my favourite singer, but in terms of bands I’d say the Killers at the moment.

31:How I feel right now - Neutral.

32:Someone I love - My dad.

33:My current relationship status - Single.

34:My relationship with my parents - Good if we haven’t pissed each other off.

35:Favourite holiday - I don’t really have one.

36:Tattoos and piercing i have - None. Not even my ears pierced.

37:Tattoos and piercing i want - Something for my mom, grandfather, and dad. But the monsters turned out to be just trees in Taylor’s handwriting. And maybe something else.

38:The reason I joined Tumblr - Kaylor tbh.

39:Do I and my last ex hate each other? - No, not at all.

40:Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? - I’ll sometimes say goodnight or goodmorning to my friends but usually? No.

41:Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? - No.

42:When did I last hold hands? - In a way that wasn’t platonic? Never.

43:How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? - Technically 30-45 minutes.

44:Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? - No. I’m single and live in jeans so I’d rather not deal with the hassle.

45:Where am I right now? - In my bed.

46:If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? - I don’t drink but if it happened, probably my dad at the moment if anyone.

47:Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? - Reasonable level but sometimes I’ll blast it in the car.

48:Do I live with my Mom and Dad? - Yes, unashamedly.

49:Am I excited for anything? - Not really. Maybe the upcoming Alien movie.

50:Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? - No.

51:How often do I wear a fake smile? - I don’t usually bother to fake it but I will if I have to.

52:When was the last time I hugged someone? - Last night.

53:What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? - Impossible.

54:Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? - No.

55:What is something I disliked about today? - I have work.

56:If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? - If anyone wants to introduce me to my future wife that would be cool. Short of that, meeting Taylor would be cool too.

57:What do I think about most? - Depends on the day.

58:What’s my strangest talent? - I don’t have talent.

59:Do I have any strange phobias? - I think my phobias are pretty typical.

60:Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? - I suck at taking photos but I hate being in photos more. Just keep the camera away from me altogether.

61:What was the last lie I told? - Not sure.

62:Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online? - I tend to be quiet on the phone so video chatting instead I guess.

63:Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? - I don’t not believe in ghosts and I think it’s a bit arrogant to write off the possibility of other intelligent life in space.

64:Do I believe in magic? - I don’t not believe in it. I believe spells are about as real and powerful as the idea of prayer, for whatever that’s worth.

65:Do I believe in luck? - Yes.

66:What's the weather like right now? - Clear skies and 60 out but it’s meant to hit the mid 80s.

67:What was the last book I've read? - No clue.

68:Do I like the smell of gasoline? - I don’t mind it.

69:Do I have any nicknames? - Not really. Most people don’t bother.

70:What was the worst injury I've ever had? - Probably just a scrape or cut. I’ve never broken anything or needed stitches.

71:Do I spend money or save it? - Save it usually.

72:Can I touch my nose with a tounge? - No.

73:Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? - No.

74:Favourite animal? - Wolves

75:What was I doing last night at 12 AM? - Sleeping, thankfully

76:What do I think is Satan’s last name is? - I’ve never thought about it. I believe Morningstar is traditional.

77:What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? - Losing my Religion.

78:How can you win my heart? - Just fucking be there for me. Show up, be patient and kind. Falling for me first may help.

79:What would I want to be written on my tombstone? - I don’t want a tombstone. But probably something snarky or a pun.

80:What is my favorite word? - In terms of use? Fuck.

81:My top 5 blogs on tumblr - This is hard. @princessandsunshine, @gaylorswift, @gay4tay, @shady-kaylor, @gay-romantics

82:If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? -What the fuck? or Impeach the entire republican party.

83:Do I have any relatives in jail? - Not to my knowledge.

84:I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? - Omnilingualism or Probability Manipulation

85:What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? - There’s a fair few to be honest.

86:What is my current desktop picture? - At work it’s a picture of the beach at my home town/

87:Had sex? - No

88:Bought condoms? - Yes

89:Gotten pregnant? - No thank fuck

90:Failed a class? - Yes more than once

91:Kissed a boy? - No

92:Kissed a girl? - No, sadly

93:Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? - Nope

94:Had job? - Yes

95:Left the house without my wallet? - Yes. I’d lose my head if it weren’t attached some days.

96:Bullied someone on the internet? - No.

97:Had sex in public? - No.

98:Played on a sports team? - Briefly but sports aren’t my thing.

99:Smoked weed? - No

100:Did drugs? - No

101:Smoked cigarettes? - No

102:Drank alcohol? - Tried it but don’t care for it

103:Am I a vegetarian/vegan? - No but I have considered Vegetarianism. Or at least Pesco-Vegetarianism.

104:Been overweight? - Yes.

105:Been underweight? - No.

106:Been to a wedding? - Yes.

107:Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? - Yes.

108:Watched TV for 5 hours straight? - Yes.

109:Been outside my home country? - Yes, to England.

110:Gotten my heart broken? - Yes. It sucked.

111:Been to a professional sports game? - Yes.

112:Broken a bone? - No, somehow.

113:Cut myself? - Not intentionally.

114:Been to prom? - No. I skipped mine.

115:Been in airplane? - Yes.

116:Fly by helicopter? - Yes

117:What concerts have I been to? - Rascal Flatts, The Killers, Coldplay at least twice, Snow Patrol, U2, No Doubt, Brooks & Dunn and Reba.

118:Had a crush on someone of the same sex? - Yes.

119:Learned another language? - No, sadly.

120:Wore make up? - Yes but I don’t enjoy it.

121:Lost my virginity before I was 18? - No.

122:Had oral sex? - No.

123:Dyed my hair? - Yes.

124:Voted in a presidential election? - No. Yes, I know with the last election but I accidentally missed the registration date because I’m a dumb ass.

125:Rode in an ambulance? - No, thank FUCK because it’d cost a fortune.

126:Had a surgery? - Yes. Deviated septum and wisdom tooth removal.

127:Met someone famous? - No.

128:Stalked someone on a social network? - No.

129:Peed outside? - No.

130:Been fishing? - No but I want to try it.

131:Helped with charity? - Yes.

132:Been rejected by a crush? - No because I keep crushes to myself usually.

133:Broken a mirror? - No.

134:What do I want for birthday? - I may just ignore mine.

135:How many kids do I want and what will be their names? - I don’t particularly want kids.

136:Was I named after anyone? - My grandmother and great grandmother

137:Do I like my handwriting? - No.

138:What was my favourite toy as a child? - As a little kid I’m not sure, probably legos. Once I was a bit older, probably my gameboy.

139:Favourite Tv Show? - X Files.

140:Where do I want to live when older? - Where can I afford? Ideally near my hometown but I’d never be able to afford it, so probably a house here.

141:Play any musical instrument? - No.

142:One of my scars, how did I get it? - I’ve got an old faint one on my knee but can’t remember how I got it.

143:Favourite pizza toping? - Pepperoni or Mushrooms

144:Am I afraid of the dark? - Not unless I wake up from a nightmare

145:Am I afraid of heights? - Yes.

146:Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? - No

147:Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? - Of course. That’s life.

148:What I'm really bad at - Everything.

149:What my greatest achievments are - I’ve survived over a decade with a brain that actively or passively wants to kill me but you can’t really put that on your resume.

150:The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me - Not sure.

151:What I'd do if I won in a lottery - Pay off my car, buy a small house, pay off my dad’s house, set aside enough to go get a degree at a slow pace if I want, save and invest whatever might be left.

152:What do I like about myself - I’m a little more resilient than I think, I’m an asshole but not a cruel asshole

153:My closest Tumblr friend - probably @princessandsunshine

154:Something I fantasise about - That Thing

155:Any question you'd like? - You didn’t ask one, mate.

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These Doctors Share The Craziest Thing Patients Said After Waking Up From Anesthesia

Anesthesia is a way to control pain during a surgery or procedure by using a medicine called anesthetics. For those who have experienced anesthesia, the after effects of it generally leaves a person distorted and confused for some time.

So here we have consolidated a list of the craziest things said by a patient to the doctor, after waking up from anesthesia.

I’m an anesthesia student currently doing my clinical rotations and I had an old guy wake up and the first thing he asked was “do I still have my balls?” and I told him “yep, both of them” and he said “both? Aw you guys are great”

Told to me by my wife confirmed by the nurse – I was in bed hospital room, waiting for surgery, they already gave me meds to calm me BUT they knocked me out.

2 nurses come in to move me to a gurney’ but they were small and I’m big they can’t move me over, my wife came over and poked me in the ribs saying “you’re snoring, rollover”, and I rolled right onto the gurney.

Had a patient in for an an endoscopy. As a matter of course, we place a speculum (think ball gag, but a metal ring instead of a ball) in the mouth through which to pass the scope so the patient doesn’t bite the scope once they’re under. We typically place it right at induction of anesthesia. This patient had the presence of mind to ask us what the ‘safe word’ was before he lost consciousness as we placed the speculum. One of the rare times the whole OR erupted in laughter.

I once had a patient start totally trashing her sister, telling me how she has always been the black sheep of the family, is a scumbag and wants to bang her husband. She’s just going off, and sitting in the doorway was the sister, the only one there to support her after surgery. You could tell it was crushing for her. This was probably an hour after the patient left PACU, conscious but still pretty whacked out.

I had to get hardware installed in my leg for a nasty bone break at an overseas base. A few days later, my buddy and I were having lunch on base. A group of women came in and sat down at the table next to us and we struck up a conversation.

One of them asked what I had gotten done. (I was in a huge cast and on crutches.)

I tell her the procedure. She gets a funny look on her face and asked when it was done.

I tell her the date.

She immediately starts laughing and tells her friends, “This is the guy!”

Now they’re all howling with laughter.

It took a while to tell the story because they’re in tears from laughing.

Apparently, when I was coming out of sedation, I grabbed a Corpsman’s butt and hung on for dear life. (The woman I was I was currently talking to at the restaurant.)

I just wanted to crawl into a hole when I heard the story.

I was the patient, but I had to get 5 teeth pulled. The nurse was helping my mom shuffle me to the car. I turned to thank her, but couldn’t get my mouth to work, so I bowed and doffed an imaginary cap.

Colonoscopy. In this big lounge chair still half asleep in recovery, I half rollover and let rip the biggest fart in history. The devil himself created this one. I open half an eye at the nurse, ask “was that me?”, jaw on the ground she nods and I go back to sleep!

I had a patient pet an invisible kitty that was named after me. The next day, was completely with it and was wondering what happened to that kitty.

Nurse here. This really big, hairy guy, whom I’ve never met before, told me how much he loved me and that he wanted to kiss me. Umm… no.

Patient checking in. I was 18 and just had my appendix removed, my mum was at my bedside. I wake up in more pain from the operation than the appendicitis and even worse my balls are itchy. I’m wearing a hospital gown & I’m out of it so I put my hand on my stomach and run it down to my skin so I can scratch my balls. Obviously not wearing underwear and my hand runs down an excess of smooth skin, then suddenly I’m touching my goods.

I rummage around and come to the conclusion that someone has shaved my pubes. No one told me this would happen. I was livid, it’s’ the height of visiting hours and I’m shouting in my broad Scottish accent “Aww Mum, they’ve shaved my pubes, I’m not happy about this I want my pubes back, that’s not right, no one told me about this, get my pubes!”

My mother was mortified and she’s trying to get me to calm down while laughing and trying avoid a scene. They grew back in about 4 weeks so it was no biggy but at the time it was a serious issue.

A patient woke up from his wisdom tooth removal begging the doctor to let him be David Bowie. The doctor actually asked how that was supposed to happen, and the answer was that “it would be fantastic.”

When my husband woke up from having his wisdom teeth surgically removed his nurse was a rather large lady. He looked her dead in the eyes and said “You’re too beautiful to be a nurse, you should have been a model. Why don’t you just come home with me and my wife?” (yes he was propositioning a 3 way with a nurse) Most awkward moment of my life.

Not a hospital staff but my great grandfather had surgery one time and I was in the room when he woke up. He was a WWII veteran and was convinced that he was in a Nazi POW camp. He recognized me and told me I had to help him escape by killing the guards (nurses) because he knew I knew how to kill people (I was 16, obviously a trained killer). When the nurse came in he was calm and kept motioning with his head at her to me and finally looked at me and said “Kill her…NOW!”. She always came back with another male nurse after that.

Went straight from the ER to surgery to put a plate in my badly broken arm, so I hadn’t been on a ward etc prior to the operation. Came out of surgery and recovery and was being pushed in a hospital bed to a ward. We turned into a ward and it was full of elderly people, I was in my early twenties, I turned to the hospital porter pushing me and shouted “Sorry we seem to have taken a wrong turn, we’re in the morgue”

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echodrops · 5 years

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The Promises I Made (2018)

For the past twelve years, I’ve spent every New Year’s Eve compiling a list of fifty promises I intend to keep or fulfill over the next twelve months. The results have been truly amazing, and I have kept some promises I never thought I could. Although this year was really, really bad, oh lord... This year, for New Year’s, there will be a new set of promises for to me keep, but here are the old ones, for review!

The Promises I Made (2018 edition)

1) I will be less anxious at work and not let passing comments from students or passive rudeness get under my skin as much. Status: Somewhat kept; I feel like I wasn’t as upset by students being rude this year as last year, but then again that might just be because I had better students. XD

2) I will be more proactive about my responsibilities for the college newspaper committee so we can make a great product. Status: Uhh… Can I count this as kept if the newspaper committee was put on hold due to decisions from the higher administration, so I didn’t have to be proactive about these responsibilities?

3) I will actually visit Mexico, not just accidentally take a wrong turn and end up there... Status: Broken. You know how some people like live next door to a restaurant for years but somehow never get around to trying it? Yeah that’s me, with the entire country of Mexico. Like, I literally live less than a mile from the border… I really should just go get lunch one day or something…

4) I will actually decorate my office with all the stuff I have had sitting around at my house for months. Status: Actually kept. I don’t feel like the decorating is really done in the office, but the decorations are no longer cluttering up my actual home instead of the office!

5) I will be better about focusing so that I can grade quickly and feel less overwhelmed throughout the course of the semester. Status: You know, it’s hard to say whether or not I did grade more quickly because spring semester I took on a really annoying class schedule and it screwed me over hard. I feel like I was a little faster this year, but I felt more overwhelmed than ever.

6) I will get the scratch on my Camaro buffed a bit to clear up the parts that can be cleared. Status: I just… didn’t do this. Broken.

7) I will repair the mortar on the fence outside the Utah house and seal the bricks on the window sills. Status: Somewhat kept/broken. I fixed the mortar on the fence outside but did not seal the windowsill bricks.

8) I will finish at least 26 books over the course of this year. Status: Look man. If my promise had been “Finish 26 fanfics longer than 100,000 words,” I would have blown this promise out of the water. But as it stands, I think I only made it to 10-ish printed books. I’m naughty. 9) I will retrim the grape vine at the Utah house and also spray/get someone to spray to kill the wasps. Status: Broken. I don’t know why I thought it would be smart to make a promise about trimming the grape vine, since that’s something you do in fall… when I’m not even in Utah… Hrmmmm… 10) I will get the mail man to stop delivering the wrong mail to my box because I’m getting ten times more mail for other people than for myself. Status: I had so many opportunities to do this, and I just didn’t. RIP.

11) I will have the fire escape window installed on the Utah house to make it legal to rent. Status: Broken. That’s a lotta money fam.

12) I will update Home and a Half at least four times (and no more double posts, just be chill Yehn, be chill for once…) Status: WOW. I was so, so optimistic, wasn’t I? 13) I will actually build all the furniture I bought for the Texas house and never assembled. Status: Mostly kept? I think there’s like one more thing I haven’t assembled (the spare futon), but up to this point I haven’t needed it, so...

14) I will actually watch Stranger Things since everyone keeps nagging me about it. Status: Broken. I just didn’t do this at all.

15) I will go to a dentist and get this annoying wisdom tooth removed and also see what can be done for my front tooth that got pushed out of alignment by said wisdom tooth. This really needs to happen ‘cause the partially erupted tooth is killing me. D; Status: Wisdom tooth is still hurting me… I am the worst at taking care of myself… 2019… the year of self-care?

16) I will take a road trip with my friend Karen like we’ve been talking about for a while. Status: Actually did this! Finally something completely kept. It was a great trip too.

17) I will continue to serve as the video game club’s faculty sponsor. Status: I was too busy… T_T Broken.

18) I will lower my credit card debt by at least $2000. Moving is so expensive. T_T Status: I ended up having major set-backs this year in the form of having to pay out of pocket for a new windshield in my car and also my Playstation flat out dying on me, so this goal did not get satisfied. But now that my car is completely paid off (hell yeah!), I’ll finally be able to start making big payments on this sucker.

19) I will have ALL my lesson plans planned out in advance for Fall 2018 so that I can just chill next fall. Status: YO THIS ACTUALLY HAPPENED. There were still some instances of needing to fix things, but overall I did actually have all the lessons done in advance, and that was probably the only reason I survived fall at all lol.

20) I will finish painting the living room in the Utah house, finally. Status: I… forgot I even made this promise. Yikes.

21) I will be better about walking my dog because I have been slacking lately. Status: I wanted to be better, but every fucking time I go to walk my dog, the neighbor’s Chihuahua runs through their fence and tries to attack my dog, so literally every walk becomes a nightmare and there were a lot of days when I just didn’t want to deal with that stress… :/

22) I will finish a game other than FFXIV this year. Man, so many games have been piling up… Status: I couldn’t even find time to play FFXIV this year, let alone another game… 23) I will write a new, original short story. Status: I… did not write like at all this year. 2018 was just really hard for me. T_T

24) I will get my black glasses fixed this year, finally. Status: Uh… Kept… I think? At least I think this promise was referring to the damage to the frames of my black glasses, which I did get fixed. But now the lens has a scratch… V_V

25) I will attend more professional development/on-campus events and trainings to bolster my evaluation. Status: Eh, kept? I’m signed up for a conference and did some extra training thing that I can throw on the sheet, so I’m calling it good.

26) I will ink and color at least the one drawing of Yehn’zi that I finished sketching a while ago and did absolutely nothing with. Status: A whole lot of nope on this one.

27) I will really finish moving in to my Texas house, no more “I’ll fish out the clothes from the Space Bag when I need them but never actually hang them up.” Status: I’m counting this as kept, since the only thing that didn’t happen is that I never took the plastic wrap off the top of my nightstand, but like… hey that’s a really convenient way to avoid water spots so…

28) I will volunteer at a non-profit organization to fulfill my “service to the community” work requirement. I mean, I will volunteer from the goodness of my heart… yeah… Status: Shitttt this didn’t happen and it really needed to… Oh dear…

29) I will level ALL my classes to 70 in Stormblood. Status: This also did not happen. No time to play.

30) I will reach 1000 followers on tumblr. You should follow me. I’m only marginally a waste of time and space. Status: Kept and exceeded! I’m at like… 1540-ish right now I believe.

31) I will find a salon so I can get my hair dyed consistently instead of looking like a shabby blob half way through each semester. Status: Well, the good news is that my hair color fades so nicely that one of my students actually asked if the strawberry blonde was my natural color. But uh… no… it’s not… so…

32) I will find some way to pay back my coworker for all the incredibly nice things she has done for me already. Status: I mean, I took her out to lunch a lot but I don’t know if I really managed to feel “equal” on the debts I owe her for helping me out.

33) I will see an Anhinga (it’s a kind of bird!) in Texas. Status: Kept! The very first time I went looking for it, I found it, so score.

34) I will win Camp NaNoWriMo this year (because November might never be a possibility for me again, given how much grading I seem to end up doing during that month). T_T Status: Broken. Again, I wrote almost nothing this year. Too much stress. T_T

35) I will scout for new neighborhoods to move to with better internet access and closer to my work. Status: Kept. It’s still a bit too early for me to be looking for specific places, but I have a better sense of where I’ll be aiming for when I do go to buy something.

36) I will try to get better at Spanish, possibly by using my DuoLingo app more. Status: …Broken.

37) I will buy sod for the front part of the Utah house so that my house actually looks decent from the curb. Status: I COULD HAVE… But I didn’t.

38) I will be more proactive about commenting, reccing, and reblogging content I appreciate online because I find so many wonderful things but I rarely say as much about them as I should. Status: I think I was worse about this than last year. I miss the days when I didn’t feel like every five minutes taken to myself was stealing from my work responsibilities…

39) I will actually use my Instagram account to upload my photography somewhere public. Status: I forgot I made this promise too. Oops…

40) I will go dolphin-watching in the Gulf. Status: Somewhat kept? I mean… I stood on the pier… And saw dolphins in the Gulf. That counts, right???

41) I will clear all the photos and videos off my phone and camera SD cards because they are overflowing. Status: Kept but now they’re just sitting on the hard drive unsorted and in a confusing jumble of unnamed folders...

42) I will update my calendar with important dates—holidays, birthdays, etc.—and be productive about sending cards and well-wishes. Status: Broken, just totally broken.

43) I will complete my series of posts about Yato/Hiyori. Really. Status: >___> One day…

44) I will not work later than 10pm on any given work night. I can’t keep running myself ragged. I need to brake sometimes. Status: HA. I was really hopeful. More broken promises…

45) I will explore some new places/cities in Texas that I have not been before. Status: I… did not do this. I had a chance to do this and I didn’t. D;

46) I will get a gardener for the Texas house because the lawn is basically unmanageable by myself. Status: Kept. Because… the lawn really was unmanageable by myself so…

47) I will clean out the fridge more often. No expired milk or ancient leftovers this year please… Status: >_____> Ooopppssss.

48) I will get some sort of watering system set up so that the lawn at the Texas house isn’t a total disaster anymore. Status: Somewhat kept. I did buy hoses and sprinklers to water the lawn but mostly it’s just been raining a lot and that made the grass greener on its own.

49) I will help make one of the super complicated cookies from the new cookie cookbook I bought for Karen. Status: Actually kept! We learned much about the workings of cookie guns.

50) I will keep these promises. Status: Ouch, this one hurts a little.

Totals Kept promises: 12 Broken promises: 29 Somewhat kept/broken promises: 9

Y I K E S ™. I thought last year was crazy and was so hopeful for this year… I had NO IDEA how hard this last year was going to be. So many broken promises; I feel so guiltyyyyy. DDDD; Although I’m still at the same job and not planning on dramatically swapping entire career fields again, things are still in the process of settling and there’s still SO much more I feel like I need to work on. 2018 was the year of being constantly overwhelmed. Unfortunately, 2019 doesn’t seem like it’s going to be much calmer because I’m still working on designing classes and getting my lessons ironed out, but I at least no longer feel like I’m at rock bottom… So, I’m cautiously, very cautiously, feeling the tiniest bit optimistic?

Let’s do this, 2019! The new set of promises will be up by tomorrow.

#50 promises #new year's resolutions #2018 feels like a thousand pound weight on my shoulders #time to shake it off #new year #IRL stuff #welcome 2019!!

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