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[fulltransmetalgenderist]

"ftm butch" which is it? are you a man or are you a lesbian? you can't be both.

lol. lmao. I am everything and nothing all at once. hope that helps

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[fulltransmetalgenderist]

starting testosterone and having a cute guy to top has made me very interested in butch identities. i'm getting real cool and comfy with my masculinity. however, i'm struggling to learn and navigate my butchness when all the content i see is like "no men >:( lesbians only". im a dude and i love a guy and we both have complicated queer trans identities

I agree with you, the idea that butchness only belongs to lesbianism, and that lesbianism is only the absence of men, both lack nuance and don’t hold up when confronted with trans identities.

When I first knew I wanted to start testosterone and to pass as a guy in public, I had a huge crisis about my sexuality. I love women. so much. and I know, deep in my bones, that I don’t love women the same way that a cishet man loves women. but I was worried that if I start to pass and live as a man, then I would be excluded from lesbianism, because of this assumption that lesbianism is when no men. I felt lost and isolated from both lesbians and trans people. But then I read Stone Butch Blues. And then i found more books. And I read more words written by our queer elders and ancestors, who laid the groundwork for all of the lovely flavors of queer we have today. and I talked to the other queer people around me. and eventually I began to understand lesbianism not as the exclusion of men, but about the active inclusion and centering of women and other gender minorities. This new definition of lesbianism completely changed how I saw my own queer landscape. defining terms by what they are not, isn’t very useful to me anymore, I like defining queer terms by what they do, what they accomplish in a queer community.

So when it comes to being butch: think about the actions a person does that makes them butch. For me, I feel most butch when I can step up and help/protect those around me. I feel like a butch when I can give someone good directions in my city, or when I make sure me and all my friends are taking the right train going in the right direction so all they have to do is chat and be tipsy together and not worry about getting lost. I feel butch when I carry my chihuahua over puddles she can’t jump over and she wags her tail when i bend down to pick her up. I feel butch when I hold my partner in my arms and tell them it’s going to be okay. My feeling of butchness arises when my masculinity can be tender and loving and healing. By rooting my butchness in my own actions, I no longer worry about other people’s definition or conception of butch, because I know that I am actively, every day, doing butch things.

also! lesbians aren’t the only ones who use the term butch, gay men use it too. I love how in love with masculinity queers are, and I love that both lesbians and gay men know that cishet men don’t have a monopoly on masculinity, and that queer masculinity is special and unique and deserving of it’s own wonderful word.

and one last little note: as a leftist I am opposed to all nations, states, and borders. when we queers try making hard and fast boundaries between identities, I fear that we are accidentally making our own nation states that require border patrol and enforcement. and I hate border patrol with every cell of my body. we don’t need that shit in our queer communities. abolish borders. they’re so bad for you.

#i’m sorry i’m so long winded #i am just filled with so many queer thots #ftmgenderistasks

[fulltransmetalgenderist]

I know sexuality is a complicated thing but a lesbian comedian saying she ponders sucking dick not strap 😬

proud to be a lesbian that is constantly pondering sucking dick 🤔💭💭🥵🍆🌸

#dick is an amazing and integral part of lesbian you fuck #ftmgenderistasks

[fulltransmetalgenderist]

can u say the word faggot or is that not allowed

I can say it because I got permission from Mr.Faggot himself:

idk about the rest of you faggots tho - you’re gonna have to ask him

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[fulltransmetalgenderist]

Thought about butch pegging guys?

I’m a guy who would like to be pegged by a butch (please 🥺)

#peg the boys #ftmgenderistasks

[fulltransmetalgenderist]

FTM butch books? Confuse me

well obviously there’s always Stone Butch Blues. But I haven’t read any other books about ftm butches - any followers wanna shout out recommendations? maybe some less serious reading that doesn’t destroy you like SBB

#but for just some good transmasc reading #I really recommend ‘something that may shock and discredit you ‘ #by Daniel Lavery #it’s a fucking riot #ftmgenderistasks

[fulltransmetalgenderist]

eating armpit like it’s her ass

I’m so glad you understand my carnal desire for armpits

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[fulltransmetalgenderist]

When someone say they were having sex but u find out later it was just going down on someone r u like man that’s not having sex obviously it’s oral sex but it’s not virginity lost

oral sex is sex and virginity isn’t real

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[fulltransmetalgenderist]

Hi! Will you stop taking T before you reach a point where you cannot be perceived as a butch lesbian anymore or is that not something that would be a problem for you ? Because when I think about it my dyke ass would be mortified to look just like your average grown straight man. And even when comparing it to my attraction to women (which doesn’t really include straight women anymore) I would understand them all not being into me because I’d look too much like what they aren’t into, so there’s a balance here to find. But maybe that’s not the case for you?

i’m going to assume that this is asked in good faith, so let’s engage - because I feel like this is some rich queer theory to dive into

first off: it’s not just transmasc lesbians that struggle with the straight man dysphoria (yes, anon, that’s what you’re describing, dysphoria: an unhappiness with society and one’s perceived place within it). i’m sure you can imagine that tma lesbians must particularly struggle with this - and perhaps a way to ease that dysphoria a little for the trans dykes in your life is to refrain from admitting your disgust at the idea of looking like a huge percentage of the world’s population. and instead remember that straight men have the capacity to love and uplift women just as lesbians have the capacity to hurt the women in their lives. perhaps it would be easier to then recognize straight men as potential collaborators in the fight for women’s liberation.

And it’s not the end of the world to be mistaken for a straight guy. no one can take my dyke card away, I know who I am and where I’m coming from. And hey, I think I would rather be mistaken for a random straight man than be mistaken for Ellen, and I would rather be mistaken for a random cis guy than Buck Angel. Every identity group has their annoying fucks no one can stand.

So to address your question anon - will I stop taking hormones? the answer is I don’t know! So much of the anti trans rhetoric right now revolves around the “irreversible” changes of HRT and the “regret” that may follow. I worry that we, as trans queers, have taken some of that propaganda to heart; I sense this fear amongst other trans people that our future selves may rue and lament the ways we build our bodies today. What if I want to detransition later and hate myself for what i’ve done/become? And I’m all for being cautious and making sure you truly want something before diving head first - but I want trans people to extend grace towards themselves, to practice loving ourselves in the here and now and not worry what a future version of ourselves may want. Regret is an unavoidable emotion in life, it’s okay to feel regret, I know that if I end up one day regretting taking testosterone I will survive.

So for now I have no plans on stopping testosterone. I don’t have any benchmarks I want to hit before I know it’s time to stop or anything. I’m just going to keep taking T for as long as it feels good to do so. That may be for as long as I live, that may be until next month - I have no idea. I know that no matter what, I am a working class queer latino butch anarchist. I am very secure in that identity and I don’t need anyone to validate it for me—i’m living it every day.

and as far as attracting other lesbians - i’m mainly t4t so it’s not much of a problem, other trans people get it, and we’re all horny for each other. and there’s definitely no shortage of queer cis women who are into me (albeit a little fetishistically). really who i’m struggling with is the femboys! let me take care of you and buy you cute lingerie PLEASE I swear i’m butch enough 😫

#ftmgenderistasks #i’m sorry i’m so long winded #i am just filled with so many queer thots

[fulltransmetalgenderist]

gender inspiration

the muse of gender will bless you with inspiration when you least expect it.

currently, I take inspiration from Gene Wilder, Legolas the elf, the minotaur of crete, and old pachucos from the 1940s.

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[fulltransmetalgenderist]

Sun of us feel smarter after sex

GREAT sex will have you feeling like you are the biggest hedonist genius in the entire sex having universe. big sex brain. many folds to contemplate various depraved scenarios

the BEST sex will wipe your brain smooth. no thoughts. happy empty brain 🧠

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[fulltransmetalgenderist]

if you’re male why do you claim the label butch if it’s for women?

it’s bcuz i’m Lisa the lesbian man from the L word

#honestly tho #justice for lisa the lesbian man #they were so mean to her in the show #all she wanted to do was give good strap #the world wasn’t ready for her yet 😩 #ftmgenderistasks

[fulltransmetalgenderist]

Idk why I decide you were the one who should get this ask but I'm slightly obsessed with taking pictures of small pieces of metallic and mechanical bits and bobs, stationary stuff, that have been changed by time of look beautiful in their environment. Rust, chipped paint, weeds, moss ect. Anyway peace ✌️

thank you for this ask , important stuff.

I love the way nature adorns our mechanical objects. it takes time, but the natural world always claims it's part in our creation making. We make something new, something shiny and smooth and well oiled, then nature finds its way in and rusts the metal and dries the oil and dulls the shine and it takes on a new form. The natural world can be an amazing creative force. Thank you for documenting and archiving its glorious artistry.

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[fulltransmetalgenderist]

the idea of fingering her with my dick in her how does that work? Big pussy?

just ask her to unhinge her pussy and everything should fit just fine , hope this helps 🥰

#but in all seriousness I love a finger or two combined with the strap 😏 #just size queen things #ftmgenderistasks

[fulltransmetalgenderist]

canr help but grow ego if i made my gf horny i mean look at me.i aint not super handsome hunk butch then again thr faact thay shes attracted to me s weird shoukd i be afraid?

I bet you are super handsome hunk butch 😉

u need not be afraid when a girl thinks ur hot, I promise

and, my guy, u gotta turn on your auto spell

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[fulltransmetalgenderist]

did u keep the nip? if so hows it goin? is ur pain ok? Are the antibiotics treating you okay?

I said goodbye to my nips - I’ve always wanted to have a huge chest tattoo and no nips means more tattoo space.

general pain is okay but wowweeee the drains suck.

I am eating so much plain probiotic yogurt I have become immune to the antibiotic’s curses

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