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#gic has gone silent. im getting so stressed about the ethics of my top surgery fund because i dont know if its something i should be still
carrotpiss
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This is a bunch of sad lost and confused and frustrated and lonely sludge, advise not reading
#im just so completely miserable and exhausted and just angry with everything
#gic has gone silent. im getting so stressed about the ethics of my top surgery fund because i dont know if its something i should be still
#doing how long until they talk to me again if they do will the waitlists even be livable is it ethical is it worth it does anyone even have
#the money to spare anyway to help before the endless nhs waitlist
#why am i being left in the dark
#im terrified that i dont know when my pap smear will be and that i have to go under anesthetic for it because i fucked up my own body by
#being a pathetic cowardly idiot who is to stupid to exist like im supposed to so now im worth nothing and i cant navigate dating bc of it
#bc it just makes me shut down immediately when i realise its something i do have to disclose because im shitty and broken and worthless
#and i dont know whats happening and i dont want the smear anymore and the nhs sent me a terrifying letter saying im not a real person and i
#predictabley got to scared to reply to so now i may have fucked up literally everything which is my fault but also why does the ngs not just
#have a system that works and isnt briken just because im trans
#and i jsut want to die i cant die but im jsut scared and i want to hide forver
#i dont know whats happening with my job am i still getting paid will i get the November cost of living backpay will i get my pension refund
#i jjst feel lost and pathetic and desperately clawing out for any vague threads of interest for sex and dating even though im as previously
#mentioned in these tags not fit for that and should just die forever in box alone and aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhj
#I just want a hug for the next millennia
#instead im kust fighting off thoughts about starving myself as punishment because i dont deserve to eat jm not worth the expense of my own
#paycheck to buy food for not that it matters because im sick and getting sicker amyway and of course one of my moles is looking insanely
#dodgey and ive had to book a doctor's appointment for it but its so tempting to kust ignofe it surely itd be better if it was cancer and
#then j could just die amd people wouldnt blame me for being pathetic or whatever removing myself but sad and tragic for dying from something
#scary or whatever the fuck im fully aware thats a fucked up thibg to be thinking im just a bit at amessy ends atm and j dont even have a
#hot chubby dude or not dude to pretend is ever going yo be interested in me or whatever and ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
#dw to anyone reading this in the event someone is i wont remove myself im a huge coward and too lazy to do that
#crouch speaks
#and its only November! we still got winter to come!!!!! my favourite (sarcastic) time of the year that doesnt absolutely fuck with my head
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