#he reads as desperate for immortality. not in the frozen head way (he was cremated) but desperate to claw his niche into history

[toonheartz]

i don't like how one of the types of my relationships with people is "i am studying you intensely" like i look back and go wow! this sounds. kinda creepy actually.

i'm just weirdly analytical about people. catch 22 of if i wasnt mentally ill i'd be a psychologist. but i wouldn't be so interested in psychology if i wasn't mentally ill lmao

#rambles 💥 #like it is VERY useful for analyzing fiction #but some may find my verdict on walt disney to be unsettling #in which i see him as a cautionary tale in contrast to disney's fairytale image of him #he reads as desperate for immortality. not in the frozen head way (he was cremated) but desperate to claw his niche into history #i think he'd believe he failed actually. #in his final years he actually denounced the studio's animation work as “a great distraction” and wanted to build a futuristic city #so his final goal was the betterment of society as a whole. in his weird. dystopian vision (pls look into epcot its wild) #i think he didn't understand the value of art the way artists do #and yet i can understand his desperation and fear of death #fear of losing control over his properties and employees #i sure as hell dont agree with how he handled it but he's just so much more interesting when viewed through the lens of a human being #but yeah its even weirder when my brain immediately starts analyzing real people like that #i need a therapist. lmao