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indigo474 · 11 months

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July 15th-electric energy-

so much happens in my life.. daily.. so much life. my back doesnt hurt, i'm not exactly sure what i did, the weight was relatively light, 135.. i think i may have been in my head a bit and not really focused on what i was doing and ouch.. i did upper body on Thursday and it was heavy.. he really pushes me it seems more so on upper.. 112.5x2.. he keeps upping it.. i was disappointed in myself with the whole back thing.. i feel like it was a set back, because it was. James says it it all part of the process, i have to trust that it is and not be hard on myself..Kika looks great. Not the same happy pup but getting there. she's moving a little slower. the cute guy said bye to me Bye April.. see i remembered.. funny thing is.. i don't know his name.. I'll have to ask him the next time i see him. he's such a baby.. 20 something.. he's always talking about books.. he had a copy of the art of war in his gym bag.. intelligence is so sexy.. oh you read 💦

I was going to see my friend today but decided not too for various reasons. Mads has off from work and wanted to spend time together.. i was fine doing that but i had to tell her to stop treating me like shit.. i told her i didn't want to be around her. she gets in these moods where she is just on me.. everything i say she has a negative comment. she's been ok since i said something to her. we were going to go to the beach- she would rather go to a pool so we are going to the pool..

in the past few days i had 3 cardinals fly in front of me. 2x in my car and 1x in the woods. numbers numbers everywhere.. i realize i give meaning to things but dam it's weird seeing the same numbers everywhere.. 322 constantly.. i was running through the woods and 2 little dogs appeared out of nowhere.. i think i scared them just as much as they scared me.. i was so pissed- i cursed at their owner.. I tired to run and failed.. my inner critic came out loud.. hard. i didnt really fail i just didn't do what i wanted to do and i started to really beat myself up over it and i haven't gone down that path in a while but it's still there.. i had to catch myself.. why are you doing this to yourself? Why? I dont even know who's voice it is.. is it mine? x? my mom? who's voice is tell me im a total waste of space and a failure and nothing and unlovable and worse.. i cant imagine i was born thinking those things abut myself. And i catch myself and tell myself none of it is true.. don't fight it, love it, show yourself compassion and support and be your own friend. there is an old version of myself who would have quit a long time ago. there is an old version of me who wouldn't have even been able to recognize the loop of self hate that was being played inside her head, because it was normal to have those thoughts and feeling about herself.. this all happens within a 15 minute time frame as i am walking and running through the woods battling myself.. at war with myself. By the time i get to my car i feel like i've had some sort of breakthrough.

I was told i am too white by a black co worker. It happened during a supervisors meeting. there was a lot of cross talk going on so im not sure if anyone else heard it. I literally had to bite my lip to not say what i wanted to say because i knew if i said it the room would fall silent and i would be escorted out the door or this co worker would have wanted to fight me in the parking lot.. so i just documented it.. yep learned all about documentation in training. it's not the first comment i've received about me being white. something else happened this week.. with one of my reps and the ice queen. I documented it but.. i have a feeling.. i dont know what but this might not go away and it will be my word and the reps word against the ice queens word.. not sure how well i will make out in this situation.. the ice queen was wrong and she knows it.. i dont have anything to hide as i wasn't the one doing the talking.. i tried to make things better.. i learned a valuable lesson.. i just dont know if there is going to be a price to pay for said lesson.. there usually is.. i'll know come next thursday.

My mom texted me that my Aunt has cancer.. she thought i should know. I saw her at the park last year 2x and kept running. i told myself if i ever see her again i would stop and talk. i dont know how to tell Mads as i think she will be upset. I thought maybe something was wrong with Ryan. I guess not.. still in jail.

Other things .. explainable.. i feel the electricity in the air. there is a current of excitement.. i cant explain it but i can feel it. i can see it too.. in the clouds and the trees- the birds and butterflies.. i can feel it in the air- i can feel it.. so many people telling me they feel lucky.. i feel lucky i feel lucky.. its a good energy.. its a great energy..

the office narcissist left a gift on my desk this week. last week she ignored me and talked shit to my reps about me.. this week gifts.. i know i shouldn't be surprised.. i mean, i was married to someone who talked shit on me.. but i'm still surprised at how shitty people can be..

I have no idea what i'm doing as far as moving.. i saw a house but its too much house for me and honestly thats not what i really want.. i do and i dont.. a 30 year mortgage sounds horrible.. truly fucking horrible.. i dont want more stuff.. I want less stuff and more experiences.. sitting in an office all day is not living.. people laugh and say i spend more time at work then at home.. thats not a good thing that is messed up that we are made to believe thats normal.. so yeah.. still trying to figure out what it is i want to do..

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yyxgin · 3 years

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have 😡 you 😡 had 😡 your 😡 first 😡 day 😡 yet

bar i thought i told you i was a libra 😭 oh well we can have it here officially 🥺 yesterday my manager pointed out that the barman is a libra and we were having a giggle at his expense about his new hair and how she thinks he thinks he’s impressing the girls (i don’t think he does but we move) bc we all talk to him (she was in a good mood) n i saw him today from a distance (i took a couple of my friends to try the food on my day off) n wow he’s so cute i wanna squish (i also accidentally sprayed cleaner sanitizer in his mouf yesterday 😩 he fuckin coughed and i was like OH MY GOD DID I— IM SORRY OH GOD)

no bar… bar, oh god, oh fuck… oh my god im so, so down bad it’s almost illegal.

i have to explain my next train of thoughts so here goes: my driving instructor rang me while i was out today and told me he isn’t going on holiday (awh) so i can use his car for my driving test (yay) unless he books a country on the green list that’s relatively cheap for short notice but he would still help me find an instructor who’s car i could use if he manages to get a holiday (yay for me and him). the next part of the story is now im thinking shit i gotta start saving my money and stop spending it on drinks bc then i can buy a car n insurance n stop worrying about missing the g o d d a m n bus! and then my next train of thoughts happens when me and my friends were walking back through our home town through the dodgy area that thé barman lives in after catching the train home and i was just thinking about how i can give him a lift home legit every day bc we both going to the same place and it’s like a two minute drive away from my house… my thoughts be going wild i have more than enough motivation to save my money now

i offered to stomp on a girl who argued w my supervisor (supervisor got sent to a different branch bc they have a lack of staff n one of their staff is supposedly moving n joining our branch) and i was v serious. my airforces are good for stomping people. i’m from the ghetto (compared to the other girls) and i will squish this girl like a fly if she were to come to our branch n disrespect literally anyone on site 💗 my supervisor threatened to get me on one of the other girls as a joke afterwards bc she came back for a day to get some stuff n go back… i think i made it 🤩 then i offered we get the barman to run her over w his electric scooter (this convo sounds familiar, have i already told you?) i’m so giddy right now as i went through a real-time realisation literally minutes ago.

i also think i made one of my friends mad bc i friend zoned him (i think???? i mean i called him bestie n he stopped talking to me 😅😭) this is how i find out about all the boys who have crushes on me. i’m so frickin oblivious you basically have to tell me you like me i’m AWFUL for things like this n i always feel bad afterwards bc i don’t see what i’m doing until it’s too late. btw this is the same friend i thought i made a dick appt w n we just went drinkin instead. my head rn is spinning. i don’t know what else to say?? i’m laughing so much at myself i’m so stupid sometimes 😭 oh well coochie go 🦋🦋🦋🦋💕🦋💕🦋💕🦋🦋 over muster jungkook instead n call it a day ~🌻

I CAN NOW PROUDLY SAY I DID HAVE MY FIRST DAY TODAY 🎉🎉🎉it was kind of weird ngl but at the same time it was okay so me happy ??

ALSO YES I REMEMBER NOW 😭😭 WE ACTUALLY DID ESTABLISH THAY U ARE A LIBRA I JUST FORGOT FOR A SEC. crying why are the two of you so cute you are so in love i cant 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 my new otp also how did u manage to spray a sanitizer into his mouth thats-

aaah i hope you pass your driving test !! i actually went to learn to drive w my dad for the first time today and it didnt go as bad as i thought. he even told me i did a good job so i am feeling very satified even tho i ran over a tire and scraped the bottom of the car a lil but oh well he should have expected that.

XHSJSK i actually friendzoned one (1) !! guy before and it felt weird. i was 15 and he didnt even talk to me irl even tho we were literally classmates and i was lowkey a lil bullied and he confessed to me over facebook messenger🥰🥰 also i kind of "friendzoned" a guy or so i thought the moment he asked for my german homework and when i said no he acts like he doesnt know me now in the school halls so thats fun too. good to know what i was worth of !!! 🥰🤩 also he is now into my best friend insecurities go brrrr

are we talking about black hair all tattoos out jungkook bc if so then same bestie, same.

#💌ask #🌻 anon

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agirlinhell-a · 5 years

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OKAY BUT A ROAD TRIP AU WITH THE ERICSON’S SQUAD, DUCK, GABE, MARIANA, JAMES, SARAH AND BEN. A SPECIAL THANKS TO @thewalkingclementine FOR PROVIDING WITH EXTRA GOLDEN CONTENT.

-when they arrive in the store at like 3am, the girls just start twerking in the middle of the aisle bc they do really weird things when they're tired and hungry

-mitch bursting out of some chocolate bars to scare the shit out of a very sleepy and grumpy marlon

-MARLON SCREAMS AND CAN BE HEARD ACROSS THE ENTIRE DAMN STORE AND LOUIS BURSTS OUT LAUGHING HYSTERICALLY

-THEY’D BE THE TYPE OF GROUP TO JUST BE EXHAUSTED AS HELL AND SOMEONE WHISPERS SOMETHING RANDOM LIKE “WALNUT” AND THEY ALL DIE AND AASIM IS CRYING INSIDE CAUSE HE'S DRIVING

-EVERYONE INSIDE THE TRAILER IS JUST DEATHLY SILENT UNTIL MITCH JUST WHISPERS "HEY GUYS" AND THERE'S A SILENCE BECAUSE THEY KNOW HE'S ABOUT TO DO OR SAY SOMETHING STUPID AND HE JUST WHISPERS "DEEZ NUTS" AND EVERYONE LOSES THEIR SHI

-gabe louis mitch and marlon being the dudes who fuck shit up

-gabe swearing in spanish when he's really angry and the other dudes are really amused

-the reason why they're going on a roadtrip is bc the class are taking a class roadtrip bc they just graduated and they invited aj and tenn and willy up bc they're a part of the squad too.

-sarah being a weenie and never makes a peep but the squad knows she's lit af, and she makes the ladies friendship bracelets.

-james talking in his sleep and clem talks to him while recording what he says and its the funniest and cutest thing ever bc that boy hardly ever sleeps

-mariana's the dj in the store and she blasts rave songs when they're gonna get candy bars

-tenn and aj playing hide and seek and tag and everyone needs to wait forever for them to finish the game but it's really cute to see them being happy.

-mitch telling the younger ones about krampus and some of them are kinda weirded out and nervous but aj's like "!!! :O AWESOME!!" and ruby puts her mom cowgirl boots on and whacks mitch on the head bc "DONT SCARE THE LITTLE ONES OR YOU'LL GET MY BOOT UP YOUR ASS"

-when they leave the store rosie's in the front seat at the wheel and keeps honking the goddamn horn - everyone bursts out laughing.

-AASIM IS THE DESIGNATED DRIVER AND IS LIVING ON BLACK COFFEE

-THE SQUAD GETTING THEIR OWN CLASS SWEATERS

-ROSIE WAS COMING ONE WAY OR ANOTHER OR MARLON WASNT GOING

-BEN READING COMICS AND BOOKS TO AJ AND DOING LIL AWKWARD BROFISTS

-AASIM DRIVES INTO MCDONALDS AND EVERYONE GETS EXCITED UNTIL HE JUST ORDERS A BLACK COFFEE IN THE DRIVETHROUGH AND DRIVES AWAY AND EVERYONE'S ABOUT TO BEAT HIS ASS BECAUSE “WHAT THE FUCK AASIM”

-NO AASIM'S WERE HARMED IN THE ROADTRIP

-CLEMENTINE ON A ROADRAGE IS A TERRIFYING THING - THE REST OF THE SQUAD DEBATE ON WHETHER OR NOT THEY SHOULD BAN CLEM FROM DRIVING.

-ON THEIR GRADUATION DAY, KENNY THE BOAT LORD HIMSELF GOT THE SQUAD ON A YACHT BC HE KNEW SOMEONE WHO HAD ONE AND THE SQUAD RAISED MONEY FOR IT - JAVI HELPED OUT WITH FINANCES TOO BECAUSE HE WAS BASEBALL STAR.

CLEM WHILE ON A ROADRAGE: ASSHOLE!! YOU'RE A LIL BITCH!! YOU'RE WHAT MY BOY GABE CALL A PUTA!! I'M GONNA CHOP YOUR BALLS OFF AND FEED IT TO A ZEBRA!!” AND EVERY OTHER SWEAR IN THE BOOK WHILE EVERYONE ELSE IS JUST STARING AT HER SHOOKETH

-SARAH: [GAAAAAASP] CLEM!!!!!

CLEM: [SQUINTS @]

SARAH:

CLEM:

SARAH:

CLEM: [SLAMS THE CAR HORN]

-CLEM TRYING TO REACH FOR A BAG OF CHIPS AND CANT REACH SO AFTER A MILLION YEARS OF TRYING, SHE LIES THERE ON THE FLOOR AND SCREAMS "JAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMES!!!!!!"

"WHAT"

"I TRIED MY BEST I DIDNT SUCCEED MY DEPRESSION TOOK OVER"

"WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO"

"BE MY LADDER"

"OK"

"THANKS ILY MAN"

MITCH COMES IN AND MOVES IT FARTHER SO WATCH CLEM GETTING JAMES TO BE HER HORSE AND SCREAM AT THE TOP OF HER LUNGS, "MITCH YOU BASTARD!!!" AND MITCH IS RUNNING 1000MPH

ALSO!! THE DUDES KNOCKING THEMSELVES OUT BY SNEAKING INTO LIKE IKEA AT THE MOST UNGODLY HOURS AND THEY JUST FOOL AROUND BY JUMPING ONTO THE BEDS FROM THE CIELING AND THEY'RE ALL SCATTERED IN THE MORNING AND THEM ALMOST GETTING ARRESTED

MEANWHILE THE LADIES ARE HAVING A SLUMBER PARTY BC THE DUDES ARE FUCKING IDIOTS EXCEPT FOR LIKE TENN AND JAMES - THEY’RE GOOD BOYS. THEY JUST HEAR SCREAMING AND ARE LIKE.... “ANYWAYS” AND HALFWAY THROUGH AASIM JOINS THEM AND REFUSES TO TELL THEM WHATS GOING ON

CLEM TURNS TO MARIANA, "ARE YOU GONNA STAND UP FOR GABE IF HE ENDS UP GETTING ARRESTED"

"NOPE"

"ARE YOU GONNA TELL DAVID ABOUT IT"

"NOPE"

ALL THE BOYS WERE SEMI TRAUMATIZED EXCEPT MITCH

-IMAGINE CLEM IN THE MIDDLE OF WRESTLING WITH MITCH WHEN LEE CALLS HER TO ASK HOW SHE'S DOING AND IMMEDIATELY SHE CHANGES UP HER VOICE LIKE "HIIII LEE!!" AND LEE'S LIKE "HOW'RE YOU DOING" AND CLEM'S TRYING TO GET MITCH OFF OF HER AND SHES GIGGLING "ITS A LOT OF FUN" AND LEE'S JUST "AIIGHT SWEETPEA” AND THE MOMENT SHE HANGS UP SHE'S BACK TO BEATING MITCH'S ASS

-MAGINE REBECCA CALLING CLEM IF AJ'S OKAY AND CLEM HESITANTLY LOOKS OVER TO SEE SEVEN YEAR OLD AJ RIDING A MOTORCYCLE AND DOING STUNTS WITH MITCH AND SHE'S LIKE "HE'S DOING PERFECTLY FINE!! LMAO"

-CLEM BLASTING HARDCORE EXPLICIT RAP SONGS ON FULL BLAST WHEN SHE'S DRIVING AND EVERYONE LOSES THEIR MIND

-THAT MOMENT WHEN EVERYONE'S TELLING EACH OTHER SCARY STORIES AND WILLY JUST "IT WAS 12AM ON A STORMY NIGHT........ AND I LOST MY WIFI" AND EVERYONE GASPS IN HORROR

-PLOT TWIST!! LOUIS WAKES UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT LIKE "GUYS!! I HAD A WILD DREAM!! WE WERE ALL BACK AT ERICSON'S BUT IN THE MIDDLE OF ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE AND THESE HOMICIDAL ASSHOLES WERE TRYING TO KIDNAP US" AND EVERYONE ELSE IS LIKE "WTF LOUIS LMAO"

"WOW IM GLAD DREAMS DONT COME TRUE"

MITCH LOUIS AND MARLON SCREAMING "PENIS" AT THE TOP OF THEIR LUNGS IN THE BACK OF THE TRAILER AND CLEM JUST YELLS "P E N I S" FROM THE DRIVER'S SEAT AND SHE GETS AN "AYYYYY" FROM THE BACK -aj wearing a teddy bear suit and everyone dies of cuteness

-i just realized that they'd need adults bc they'd all be underage with them as supervisers so,,,,,, javi?? omid?? lee?? christa?? jane?? molly?? kenny?? matthew?? ava?? lilly?? jesus??

I CAN SEE CARLOS WANTING TO BE A SUPERVISOR BC OF SARAH BUT EVERYONE ELSE UPON BEING TOLD OF THAT SHOOK THEIR HEADS IMMEDIATELY LIKE "FUCK NO" THEY’D RATHER DO HOMEWORK THAN HAVE CARLO SWITH THEM -I CAN TOTALLY SEE THE SQUAD WANTING JAVI AND JESUS THERE THO BC THEY'D GET A FAMOUS BASEBALL STAR AND THE LITERAL SECOND COMING OF JESUS CHRIST

-clem screaming through the mic: DONT YOU WISH YOUR GIRLFRIEND WAS HOT LIKE ME ALSO KENNY WOULD SQUINT @ DUCK IF HE CAME ALONG AND HE SNUCK OFF TO IKEA WITH MITCH MARLON LOUIS BEN AND AASIM LMAOOOO mitch in the car mic: HELLO BITCH LASAGNA concept: the squad arguing about where they're going and the theme song when they go up on stage the day of their grad night

i bet 100% that clem was bombarded by the asks of like most of the boys of the class to be their prom date LMAO whoever her date was lee and clem's father ed would squint @ bc oH HECC NO IF YOU TOUCH ANYWHERE PAST HER WAIST I WILL START BREAKING FINGERS marlon getting all pouty bc rosie wouldnt be allowed in the prom

plot twist: omar's the dj he's very good at it and he made the cake!! louis made really corny fake orgasm noises after trying it and everyone burst out laughing and aasim's looking at the camera like he's in the office

louis would also photobomb in every single goddamn class photo for their grad LMAO

#A DREAM IS A WISH YOUR HEART MAKES. ( WISHLIST. )#AAAAAAAAAAAA #LET THIS BE A THING #ITS ALL VERY INFORMAL I KNOW BUT BEAR WITH ME HERE #PLACED UNDER THE CUT DUE TO LENGTH

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