#hes just so fascinating to me hngjfng

[callilouv]

eugjghg........

#ʕ •ᴥ•ʔ idle chit chat #i love(?) belial sm #his whole character is so complex and i just!! wow..... #he blurs the lines of love and hate for me so so much #like.. i hate him so much that i kinda love him but at the same time its just not that simple? #hes just so fascinating to me hngjfng #no matter what i try to type out i cant seem to find the words to describe how i feel abt him😭 #i want to love him and i CAN but hes just so........ unloveable...... #the things id do to make him feel reciprocated love/devotion but at the same time hes just too deep into it that he'd self sabotage #and its not that simple either. there r so so so so many unsaid feelings and emotions when it comes to him #he is the literal emobdmiment of chaos #HE is a MESS #his mind is a mess. the way he thinks is a mess. his whole situation is a mess. quite literally everything about him is chaotic!! #craving chaos so much that chaos itself becomes a part of your very soul.... #'Look into the abyss of his heart and what does one find? A feeling of insecure narcissism or is it altruistic benevolence?' THIS11)(!@* #you literally dont know what ur getting into when it comes to him . hes a surprise #hes just so untrustworthy and unpredictable that it messes with my mind #but its ok.... i still love him in a very complicate and complex way #sory i read a bunch of rlly good fics abt him and just wanted to ramble hngnfnjg #its 1am sobs and my mind is filled with him #i want to say SO SO SO SO SOOOO many more things but . but im at a loss for words tbh #i hate and love him so much at the same time