#hiiii i hope thisworks for u :3 love reading ur threads omg

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▍ ▫     ✉️      ─   @warpainte:   we all do what we have to do in order to survive.

you think that it’s easy for other people to say,   that their version of doing might be cutting off a family member,   or some 𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚝𝚝𝚢 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚒𝚝𝚢 𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚠 that you would catch out the corner of your eye at 2am the next time you ran.    your survival was bloodier,   crimson stained the cracks in your palms to never be wiped clean;   a mark of what you have to do to live.    [the world, vought, the woods— they would catch up to you eventually,  they seem to every time]     at times,   convinced you that you were indeed safer in the sanctuary they called the woods,     that it was ideal for you to become docile,   lose yourself in the endless expanse of trees that seemed to go on forever when the timing was right,    concoction of drugs they promised would make you feel alright.     that peace never came,   or at least it never lasted.

“you think so?”    like her words justified your actions,   like it made amends for all the guts and 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚋𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚍.   you had to survive,   you did what you had to.   repeated it over and over in your mind until it sounded fake,   until mind twists like it always does:    YOU WANT A FORM OF REVENGE THAT YOU CANNOT HAVE.    you could burn the world to the ground and you would still not find yourself satiated from the thirst that grew in your throat.       “what if—      what if survival isn’t the goal anymore?”

#warpainte #hiiii i hope thisworks for u :3 love reading ur threads omg #ic.