#how do I fix this without going back to therapy? coz that would be embarrassing

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Downton abbey is making me unwell again. Fucking season 6 bro that’s the whole problem. Season 6. And fans blaming Carson for Thomas suicide attempt. It’s WRONG. Pls tell me I’m not the only one who thinks that’s completely unfair?

#idk where it’s come from- probably a mix of this and hormones - but the anxiety im having rn is making me sick and want to die at times coz #it triggers the depression or whatever idk how it works #and im literally not doing well and like my brain is soooo stupid and fucked up like this is embarrassing but I have nothing else to live #for too so like #coz this daydream world Is all the meaning I’ve got and I wish it wasn’t that way #oh dearrrrrr :( #I’m trying to calm down and drink my little ashawaganda drink which I swear helps but idk if it’s placebo but either way #it’s strange how ie realised my worst moments come from a place of anxiety not depression? like the depression is caused by it somehow or ? #idk but it’s why I can’t have caffeine anymore so at least I know myself better #but damn the fucking stupid Downton abbey shit has me freaking out and wanting to die so that IS STUPID djdjdhdhdj #bye #suicide mention #negative cw #vent #I’m good though rn like I’m not having a crisis rn I’m just #teetering on the edge of one for a couple days #how do I fix this without going back to therapy? coz that would be embarrassing