#hwat is the presence of it anyway? what is the presence of the lack.

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only one fic on ao3 with the aromantic asexual jason todd tag and its abt love and fuzzy feelings. boo

#where is the aroace jason fics specifically catered TO ME #WHERE is my loveless aroace but not nonamorous jason todd fics that only exist in my head #also for your consideration i think jason is like. chill abt not experiencing any rom/sex attraction and the possibility that some of it #may be trauma based. i think hes like. okay sure i dont feel that kind of stuff. no biggie i think #i think the anger issues claws out from his throat whenever he thinks abt aphobia tho. like. its not me who have a problem with being mysel #f. its everyone else. and the isolation and alienation and the pity and the everything when you live in a world that is obsessed with roman #ce and love and expect sex in every little way and over the top way #the feeling of less than human. less than a person. less than a someone. no one. nothing. just nothing #just a dead boy. just a ghost. #and its always so easy to be angry at it. so. so angry at it all. #rather than feel the empty twist in you throat in your chest in your everything. rather than the heartbreak and desperate longing. #i think the thoughts fuck him up a bit from time to time. #hwat is the presence of it anyway? what is the presence of the lack. #of the attraction and the pull and the desire and the feelings and the love. how can you make a nothingness a presence. #also i think hes a LIT NERD so he gets mellow and rambly inside his thoughts. before stuffing it into a bin to ignore for some months ^__^