#i NEED to be weirdly mutually devoted w someone. married forever and ever. like we can take or leave sex idgaf i need to be LOVED AND LOVED

[soldier-poet-king]

Read the conju novella on break and now diagnosed as gods saddest wet little creature. If I thought that it would alleviate my pining bc it's about found family and friendship and all those good things, now I'm just DOUBLY pining 🤡 he needs to be needed and I'm. I'm. IM.

#WAAAAAAAAA #wailing and wailing forever #the duality of fran #i should be in a shoujo webnovel romance power of friendship story #instead i am experiencing the agonies in a despairing book written by someone whos probably an alcoholic or deeply deeply unwell #u know the kind of fucked up Literature i mean!!!??? its good but i dont want to LIVE the existenital agonies. AND YET #bro why tf am i a kafka character and not a shoujo protag. i am so so so so tired and if no one holds my hand in the next year i am going #going to fuckin die of loneliness :))))))))))) #WHERE IS THE MUTUAL DEVOTION. WHERE IS THE LOVE AND EASY AFFECTION. WHERE IS THE FRIENDSHIP #yall i need to move out ik. #love (romantic or platonic) doesnt just fall into ur lap this is not a fairytale #and i NEED irl contact. unfortunately. i need to be loved in ways the internet cannot provide #no matter how much my beloved friends try to #and so. i need to move but i am so anxious and lonely and POOR and its just. fuck #why CANT it be a wondertale and something good happen to me for once #why CANT i be swept off my feet in a life defining friendship/partnership/romance #i NEED to be weirdly mutually devoted w someone. married forever and ever. like we can take or leave sex idgaf i need to be LOVED AND LOVED