#i already got fucking harrassed by my family bc potato texture makes me want to puke

[h0neypiez]

my mom says im “easy to understand” but i think its more like my symptoms and issues are easy to dismiss

#goose.txt #i told her abt my bad paranoia last night and she chalked it up to ‘ur sensitive to ghosts!!’ #like i believe in ghosts but also DONT say that #it wasnt just a feeling of being watched i thought that when i rolled over or looked into a reflection id see a fucking creature there #so yea thats not ~grandma communicating with me~ its like. painful paranoia. #like. i fucking criee bc i got rly scared last night. a number from guangdong? called me three times and i thought that if i answered #a demon or serial killer would find me #it wasnt cute or fun. #so many of my symptoms r easily dismissed by her bc i minimize them to ensure i dont et made fun of #i already got fucking harrassed by my family bc potato texture makes me want to puke #im. im really upset. that paranoia last night was way worse that any other ive had. #it was also during an energy spike (which might be mania??) so i was like walking circles in my kitchen and jumping at little noises #and from what ive looked up most paranoia is not that? its usually like ‘my friend is going to betray me’ not ‘demons are in my house’ #but idk i didnt research a lot bc my mind was fuckin zooming #anyways! i develop new issues every day