#i am once again undergoing a scheduled break up w T

[eversncenewyork]

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#updates 4 the void + 3 mutuals who like these from time to time (hi pals) #i am once again undergoing a scheduled break up w T #this time it’s my choice which makes it better but harder #why do we only ever get to break up? why don’t i ever get to actually be with him until it’s over? #you wouldn’t call it what it was!!! til we were dead and gone and buried check the pulse and come back swearing!! it’s the same!!! #after 3 months in the grave!!!!!! #we have 2 weeks and we’re getting sentimental about it #and having absolutely insanely good sex like i feel like authorities should be notified that two random bisexuals in nyc are reinventing sex #but i want to be in love #i want to take a nap with someone #i want to be called pretty once a day SUE ME #i want to say i love you during sex (it is SO hard to hold it back with T and i think he has the same problem) #i want to tell my parents about someone #i want to say ‘my boyfriend’ to people i meet #and he loves me and he wants to keep me but he doesn’t want to be a boyfriend #and i need to extricate myself #but it’s going to be so hard to be friends when we’re this attracted to each other and fuck like we invented it #last night i even said right after ‘this man c*ms 5 times when he’s with me and hasn’t asked me to be his girlfriend??? that’s ridiculous’ #and oh we laughed and laughed (said with an unhinged chuckle and an eye twitch)