#i did get scolded for the epipen tho

[salt-baby]

I think the take-away from my near death experience is that I am simply unkillable

#its either laugh or cry and i choose laugh #i have become extremely cautious since then #in case this post is concerning #i honestly never felt i was in that much danger #i wasnt able to check my skin at the time even though i knew i had hives #only once i had been admitted and set up in the ER did it start to feel severe #esp after i saw my vitals #and looking at it from the ERs point of view #patient walks in after driving three hours in anaphylaxis for two of them #epipen a foot away and unused #HR 144 BP 150/100 and PMH of uncontrolled severe asthma #and also reporting difficulty swallowing and asthma #yeah okay i get it #there was a moment i decided between going into my home after a long drive or restarting the car and driving five min to the ER #thats a crossroads #i had no clue i had a life threatening allergy disorder #i thought i had a nearly gone childhood peanut allergy #good call i suppose #i did get scolded for the epipen tho #heres the mystery to me tho: where did the hypertension come from? #im normally hypotensive #bp technique wasnt ideal but not enough to cause that kind of distortion #anaphylactic shock is supposed to cause hypotension #maybe one of the many medications im on #or a unique feature of mcas #ramble over #although I'll never be done treating my medical records like an interesting puzzle #disability #chronic illness #salt baby talks