#i don’t want to say i’m sad they played mania but i’m admittedly selfishly sad i wasn’t there

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#was literally trying to work on an expensive mistakes edit last night and was having trouble making it look the way i wanted it to #i wanted to do it justice because i love that song. it’s always one of my most listened to songs and the bridge means the most to me #i don’t want to say i’m sad they played mania but i’m admittedly selfishly sad i wasn’t there #i’ll wake up tomorrow and the world will go on and i’ll be okay. but i’m sad tonight #i feel like nobody really understands why i’m so sad too and i just feel lonely about it #hiding under a blanket trying so desperately to remind myself this is a good thing and it’s the healing tour and blah blah blah #telling myself fall out boy wouldn’t want me to be sad #but i’ve spiraled so much that i just wish i could disappear #on a related note i admire fall out boy so much for everything they’ve survived and how open they are about it #pete doesn’t lay under a blanket and think about dying anymore. i hope one day i can say the same. he gives me hope #sorry for the whiny dramatics. i will get over this but i’m letting myself be sad Tonight