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#i feel like i’ve just been a zombie GDJDHDDH i just
strawbebyjam
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8 months
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have absolutely no clue what to do with myself HDDJDHDH
#i feel like i’ve just been a zombie GDJDHDDH i just
#go downstairs. try to build up some energy end up cold end up laying down aimlessly try to go upstairs to get something done cry instead
#and then sit aimlessly trying not to cry again and get anything done before i cry again and then pass out
#i can’t tell if i want to talk about it or if i want to never h
#think about it again or if i want to feel all of it and if feeling it makes it better or worse
#and distracting myself is failing and trying to take care of myself well enough to feel better is failing
#i’m just trying not to let my brain take me down spirals that might be true pr might be false but will definitely make everhthing feel wors
#but it’s so hard GDNDHDHD everything feels so so so stupidly wrong
#it’s such a different. level of heartbreak than i’m used to GDJDHDBD i genhinely dont. like it. doesnt feel like im ever grtting over this
#and if i dont then we canteven be friends because im going to bea shit friend i f im stl like tbis
#everything just hurts GDND and i hate talking about it and i hate feeling it but i cant fix it myself and i dont want anyone else to help
#neg
#mano.mindtalk
#sometimes as i’m walking around the screaming from drunk walk home jus plays in my head on loop
#n idk if its funny or absolutely sucks but it keeps happening like thanx brain!
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strawbebyjam
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7 months
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back 2 missing it 👍🏼
#dreams are evil sometimes
#i didn’t realize how much its like. ripples would ripple on but i’ve been in the same zombie daze as before with the. random thoughts
#n little like. ideas to my own detriment that just make me wish things would like. bippity boppity boo themselves perfect or at least okay
#like it’s fine and i’ll be fine but it’s also. so different GDJDHDH
#like sometimes it really feels like i woke up in the wrong timeline GDJDHDDH
#like that one fragment thats like. my hope says this isnt how its meant to be and the world says but this is how it is
#like it really feels like that sometimes because it just
#like it doesn’t feel. right. it doesn’t make sense. i was supposed to make things better. but i feel like i’ve left all worse than i met it
#i remember initially feeling so sure that i didn’t regret any of it regardless of where things went
#but then i think of the guilt i’ve created too in the midst of all of it and like. i wonder if i can truly honestly say
#that having what was had was worth what i have or mightve left them with
#like the cost unto myself is worth it but i don’t feel like the cost unto them was
#but more than anything i’m just. sad? like it wasn’t. i know there was little i couldve done but it still just. feels like i.
#dunno
#in any case dreams are. horrible sometimes and it sucks DHDHDHD at least give me. some sort of escapism. and not
#like. watching what could be Not Be and then watching what probably will be and gettibg zoom ins on how different it is
#i know im supposed to be open to new. anything. but its just. like. it feels so wrong HDJDHD like it wasnt supposed to be. someone else.
#i’m just. mad at how things canve so unfair. again. and i held myself back from dwelling on it for 2 days
#so i’m gonna let myself cry about it and then i’m going to get water and then i’ll decide if i ever wanna consider it again
#mano.mindtalk
#neg
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