#i feel like if ur cis u at least have lijke

[arcturus-sys]

negativity / dysphoria rant

this is yooung n ok i dont usually voice my thoughts on the Tungle Jungle but fuck u haruka 4 makin me feel like i cant be a girl sometimes that is all

also im dysphoric oop

rant in tags

edit: goes feral it deleted 90% of my rant and feelings abt the topic and im so mad and i just wanna talk 2 some1 abt it because im so

im so

argh

i just

i rly wish i could jsut

dump my feelins to my confidantes btu theres only 1 id even consider bein open abt this with rn and i dotn wanna dump it all on 1 person yknow??

idk idk idk im sad and dysphoric

#yoosung postin #hehe i wanna cry #its like #my body #it like.... #conforms to what i DONT want it to be at any time #giggles and cries bc all i can see is my facial hair and my oddly ambiguous kinda low voice #and my hands bein way too big #gdi my hands r always too fucking BIG #BUT WHEN IM A BOY THERE R THINGS TOO #my chest #my voice is suddenly too high even tho when im a girl its too deep #my internal organs fucka you #like also i fuckin hate being intersex sometimes bcoz ud think itd make being bigender easier #NOPE #i feel like if ur cis u at least have lijke #a comfort space w one gender?? #correct me if im wrong but like #bein intersex is like... ur body cant even be tradionally one binary gender #like #i wuld kill to hav 1 state of being where i felt minimal dysphoria #like i could live with being like #genetically AFAB if my secondary sex traits werent like this #same w genetically AMAB #i have a lot of intersex pride but like #sometimes i rly hate being intersex #just like im proud of bein autistic but i hate the challenges that come w that #hehe i can make my voice good n feminine n soft #if i think abt it 24/7 #but it so fucking hard