#i get stressed when anythinf good happens to me whrn other people would kill for this opportunity

[ennuidays]

i actually cant do this

#im literally the dumbest person i know #everyone else works so much harder and they get so much done #even the way they talk is motivated even if they say its not #everyone is so smart and im slow and cant get anything done correctly or on time #i wish i got straight a's i wish i had something to prove myself #all i have to go on is numbers that dont even matter because nobody takes them #im just some lazy piece of shit who happens to be good at test taking #i dont know anything #im failing my clasdes again #i can barely keep myself above a 3.0 #how much time will it take to get me fixed ???? everyone says its a slow process and you have to find what works for you #but i dont know what works for me and neither does anybody else #every therapist i talk to is at a loss w wht to do with me #am i trying ??? am i worse off than i thought???? #i tell myself i can function like anyone else but i cant even prove that #im undeserving of what i have #i get stressed when anythinf good happens to me whrn other people would kill for this opportunity #God strike me down ive wasted my years here i cant keep this up #i ddont deserve the painful death i want #Haha okay im over it