#i hate. h a t e. how much we've been relying on generosity

[du-hjarta-skulblaka]

Feeling slightly better today because I finally cleaned up the last worst part of the mould so now keeping everything clean should be a lot easier

Also recieved $30 (thank you!!) bringing the total this month to...around £90, after exchange and processing? Currently sitting with £40 bc my phone bill came out and, yeah, we're generally short a couple hundred and we got less in this month to begin with. Currently trying to decide between electricity and being allowed to work lmfao

Kofi as always, just in case anyone is still up to helping <3

#to be absolutely clear bc these are things i think and worry. #i am not repeating things and bringing up our exact problems bc im looking for pity or trying to guilt trip for money #please please whatever else you may think reading these posts please know that has never been my intention #i hate. h a t e. how much we've been relying on generosity #but i am trying to be clearer about the exact state of things for us for the sake of clarity and transparency #like...i feel awful knowing ive taken nearly a hundred quid from people this month and im still stuck here trying to pick #what is less painful to sacrifice #its work lmfao i gotta get that paid today or else i dont get to actually earn my own money but the POINT is #i hate it. i hate it but i dont see other immidiate options. #right now we'll most likely lose power over the weekend but we're both working so. eh. #we're also out of a few groceries and if we DO lose power we cant cook what we have and will lose a freezer full of stuff #so. ugh. yeah at the end of the day thiscis me begging for even more money and i hate myself for it #we just. we gotta get through this month man #i need to believe things will be easier next month. ive been saying that for over a year now but i gotta