#i have the anxiety whoch makes it hard to show up to new places but i think I can do it. im going to do it

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Tonight I'm going to try to go to a trans and nonbinary support group, tomorrow I'm going to go to an open mic night, gonna try to make some friends, plant some roots, shit like that. Wish me luck?

#inread a post awhile ago where someone was wondering how to make friends as an adult #and someone reaponded 'consistently show up to things' so im trying that #gonna show up to places. trans and nb support group tonight. im anxious but hella excited. ive always wanted more trans friends #or just to know trans people in general #im looking forward to at least meetinf some people. hoping friends will come out of it #and there's this place near me that i love #every week they host an open stage and open art studio night #basically just show up and be creative or just vibe and watch people perform at the open mic #im excited for that too. i went there once for a concert to support an organization that supports autistic people and their families #that was amazing #and the other night they hosted a storyteller concert for a local band that i love #its super queer friendly and it feels like home tbh #im a musical and artsy person. im nb. im goping to find some people that share those interests #both of those places are also very queer friendly #places where i can be out. at work im not out so i have to pretend to be cis and it sucks #i want a place where i can be openly me #i have the anxiety whoch makes it hard to show up to new places but i think I can do it. im going to do it #the part of thos city i live in is super artsy and musical and it makes me soooo happy #i get bored of places easily and frequently want to run away #but i can see myself living here for years. i want to #yall don't understand how serious that is for me. its hitting me now #i have a coffee shop that i go to all pf the time. theres a band that plays at a good restaurant on Thursdays so my gf and i go there #and then of course the support group and artsy place #idk man im having a good time here #ive been getting emails about this support geoup for months. i was a lot braver when i signed up for the mailing list lol #and it says the topic for this week is funny stories related to our transness. i feel like thats a good topic to start with #i cant think of any funny stories related to my transness tho? idk my journey hasnt been super funny #im brainstorming while at work but maybe ill get inspiration from other people sharing their stories. or maybe ill just stay quiet today #idk. im getting more and more anxious as time draws nearer but i really want to go. im going to make myself #no reason to be anxious. its one hour surrounded by other trans people telling funny stories. i got this