#i just hate everything and myselfnand everything i did and every choice that took me here and there isn't much to do about it

[hauntedbythenarrative]

Very depressed vent in the tags

#sometimes idk how i should go on with life #like #italy didn't need a fascist government #sometimes i think the only way out is death #at this point nothing makes sense #i enjoy nothing #everything is pain and the world keep getting worse and worse #and i don't want to live in a stew thanks to global warming #my therapist says that in general everyone rn needs to persevere (?) i'm too sleep deprived to search it on google translate #but why should i persevere? for what? a future where i have even zero rights than now and no job perspectives #and my region had become a desert #i don't want to live in that future #sometimes i think the best year of my life was 2017-2018 and that's it i can never have something like that ever again #i can't even enjoy the stuff i enjoyed before uni and all the trauma it caused me #i just hate everything and myselfnand everything i did and every choice that took me here and there isn't much to do about it #antidepressants never worked anyways so #and rn i'm also having a lot of problems with being lesbian (luckily nothing related to catholic guilt i never had that kind of stuff) #more like i have a reptilian brain not used or made to be around people and it's complicated and this vent is already long #and tumblr tags have a limit #i finished peach soju so i can only make myself herbal infusions #it's a messy vent ik i'm sorry #emma and her stupid vent