#i just hope my sleep somehow fixes itself soon dsgjkl

[piplupod]

the fact that having trouble sleeping causes sleep avoidance for me is so stupid fhsdgjkl

"oh no i'm having especially vivid nightmares and waking up every hour or two and im so exhausted i can barely get thru the day without having a breakdown. hm i think the solution to this is to become afraid of and avoidant of sleep :)"

#YOU FOOL !!! YOU ABSOLUTE DILLWEED !!! #on that same note the sleep deprivation hallucinations are stupid too #''oh u havent been sleeping well? okay well lets just make u see scary things like spiders and weird dripping from surfaces etc'' #WHY WOULD THAT BE A THING THAT HAPPENS !!! its so goofy 😭😭 #the brain truly does work against me in many creative ways. i cannot help but be awed by how determined it seems to make things worse #perhaps i should be kinder to myself and let myself take it easy during the day but. i have things i want to get done !! #both in terms of cleaning and also like. social connection stuff. unfortunately the cleaning has been taking precedence #cleaning and food are whats been the priority and everything else falls to the wayside but im so frustrated w myself for that dsjkfl #scuttling around just trying to get shit done while i dread sleep and then occasionally making silly posts #but then never interacting w anyone else properly and wanting desperately to do so. rrhghghgh #i just hope my sleep somehow fixes itself soon dsgjkl #pippen needs 2nd breakfast