#i just m am terrified ti ask my dad to borrow the money for fun shit

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#going insane i wanna ask to borrow $20 and see if my irl is down ti play $10 worth of pool games #bc i am going Insa e being in yhis housr !!!! i wanna go out !!! #am seriiusly . like praying i get some kind of money so i csn . #its not thst i need to get drunk to play its that i WANT to after the last . 4 days ive had seruously. #i wanna get a lil wasted n hit some pool balls i am Dying . #not having a job has rlly limited my ability to do shit i am going to c r y #ik shit will happen as its supposed to but MY GOD i dont wanna be inside anymore but i cant go for a drive at all #n thetes literally nothing else to do in this shit hole of a town #so FUCK . #i just m am terrified ti ask my dad to borrow the money for fun shit #even tho . ive done fuck all for fun n i hsvent borrowed money for anytghi g except impirtant shit #but like . i just . idk whay to do abt it . #today has been fucked n id like to shut my brsin off abt it all . like rlly all i wanna do isnplay pool w mynfriend :( and drink 1-2 drinks #n idk if hed even givr it to me. i isually wouldnt ask but i just . idk wbay else to do #hopefully tmr night i can get out of this damn house fr