#i keep on like trying to be nice and like nahh i dont think ill have the energy im working an early shift im tired i wanna nap

[tokio-motel]

i wanna laugh and i wanna laugh rn😪

its been so long(literally a few days) since i sent smthhh

ill boost u bae dw

AHEM

mk so the whole band(um seperate fic duh) with a bf who be freakishly nice n shit(i feel like ivd sent this bf dont expose me if i did) like if a band member accidentally hit him in the face he would say sorry and say some dumb shit like "im so sorry i shouldn't have been in the way of your elbow. " like what💀💀

or if someone was trying to confess or smth he'd be like "i really don't want to hurt you but no." maybe even as a band memeber is right next to them

and arguments with this mf is probably hell like if it was a band members fault he would accidentally make them think it wasn't and it was his(sometimes its on purpose but they figure it out later) OFC these r examples use what u want🧍🏾

BAHSBDKDBDO I CANFT STOP LAUGHING ON THE FIRST ONE

THE BAND X EXTREMELY NICE READER

teehee i have an essay to write but ummmmm that doesn't matter rn 😇 uhh also if it's bad sorry idk what's going on with me

BILL:

・He's so confused how you can be nice all the time

・He really does try to be nice but he just snaps sometimes omg 💀

・He wonders when your breaking point is

・Like if he turns around carrying something and wacks your fucking face he's so confused why you're not YELLING at him

"Yeah and then- *WHACK* -OH SHIT M/N I'M SO SORRY ARE YOU OKAY?! -"

"No, no Bill I'm fine! It didn't hurt that much."

"..what."

・He just stares at you with his jaw dropped low, slowly nodding to himself

・Or like if he knocks something over and you apologize for it

(I've done that so many times...)

・Reassures you it's not your problem 🤞

TOM:

・nahh you got him FUCKED UP bae.

・He doesn't understand how you can be so nice, I feel like he's a brutally honest mf 💀

・If your in public and somebody is being rude to you and you're just kinda standing there, still staying calm???

・He's just looking at your features trying to find ONE small piece of anger or frustration

・I feel like y'all are couple opposites.

・Like he'd obviously have a soft spot for you 🤗 but he doesn't see the reason to be nice to others when he knows it's not his fault

・Arguments with him oh my god...

・If you keep apologizing and saying it's your fault he eventually sits next to you to comfort you, assuring you everything's okay.

"It's not your fault, M/N. I promise.."

・You'd somehow warm him up a bit, he barley notices himself becoming more kind and carefree.

GEORG:

・was his color green or blue omg i can't remember

・He's...so confused.

・Like if he accidentally smacks you with his elbow and you aren't crying or cursing

"M/N? M/N ARE YOU-"

"I'm okay! It just stung for a second haha..!"

"..."

"..."

・He gets you but he doesn't.

・He just can't see himself being so giddy and happy and nice.

・Anger turns into confusion in arguments, why are you so mad at yourself?

・Loves you so fucking much though, always reminding you that you are amazing and didn't do anything wrong.

GUSTAV

・AHHHH HE GETS YOU!!!!!

・He understands you so much oh my god, he just loves you even more now.

・He'd also try to keep you from blaming yourself.

・Like if he knocks something over and you apologize.

"Oh shit I'm sorry I should have moved it-"

"No honey you're fine, I should've looked where I was going.."

・MWA MWA HE LOVES YOU

・Very slightly confused on how you never snap, how you always keep calm

・He wishes he could be like you bae 💔💔

・In arguments he just tries to calm himself and you down, actually sitting down and talking about how you both feel

OH SHITTT I NEED TO DO THAT ESSAY

#tokio hotel x reader #tokio hotel x male reader #tokio hotel x you #tokio hotel #bill kaulitz #tom kaulitz #bill kaulitz x male reader #bill kaulitz x reader #bill kaulitz x you #tom kaulitz x reader #tom kaulitz x y/n #georg listing x male reader #georg listing #georg listing x reader #gustav schäfer x reader #gustav schäfer #gustav schäfer x male reader #gustav schafer x reader

[gommyworm]

>:^l

#i as a person do not enjoy short notice plans bc they make me anxious and irritated and like.... u gotta let me prepare for the emotional #toll of being social #this mans #keeos fucking asking me to hang iut day off or the next day like 3 times this week #legit i got home from a full day at fucking sandbanks at 11 and worked a 530 am to 2 shift and this man is like hey pls come hang out w me #pls pls pls #i keep on like trying to be nice and like nahh i dont think ill have the energy im working an early shift im tired i wanna nap #and hes like on but ill pick u up and we can go later and we can we can we can #WHAT ARE U NOT UNDERSTANDING I SAID I DONT WANNA LIKE IF IM GONNA BE TORED THE WJOLE TIME WHATS THE POINT #ALSO IF U WANNA HANG OUT AND I SAY OK WHAT DO U WANNA DO AND UR LIKE IDK LOL GET FOOD OR SOEMTHING #IM GONNA FUCKING KILL U I DOTN WANT TO LEAVE MY HOUSE JUST TO SPEND MONEY W SOMEONE IM GONNA BE AWKWARDLY HAVUNG A CONVO W #AND LIKE ROAM AROIND IN UR CAR FOR AN HOUR WASTING GAS AND MENTAL ENERGY AND THEN GET DROPPED OFF #JUST LET ME SLEEP #im irritated #mans is texting me now like hey do u work tosay and im like ya and hes like oh i was gona see if u wanted to go dt today #but maybe u can reach after ? NO BITCH STFU IM GONNA BE TIRED FROM WORKING ALSO I DONT WANNA GO DT AT 8 PM LIKE WHAT AM I GONNA DO #I HAAAAAAAAAATE THIS #i feel bad bc like were friends n all but i CANNOT deal w this kind of clingy behaviour out of nowhere and like ... u dont even know me sir #y are u on my dick like this pls leave me alone im so tired #i like hanging iut w our friend group but stooooooop trying ti make me hang out one on one w u 😭😭😭😭 im so tired and socially burnt outt #end my life #god #im gonna end his and my own life #plsssssssssss dont do this to me were frrriiiiieeeeeeennnnddsssssss istg if hes catching feelings or soemthing 😭😭😭😭 leaf me alone !!!!! #its so inconsideratd !!!!!! he knows i almost got kicked out of the house for dating a white mans and i keep telling him that i cant #do short notice or frequent outings w boys or my mom gets really suspicious but he doesnt care !!!!!!!! stop making me turn u down !!!!! #im so irritated !!!!!!!!!!! #i hate men #enough of them #gommywords

[perry-the-deer]

Another day, another delivery, thats the joke Sun liked to make, a stupid bright smile accompanying it. I sighed a bit and rolled my eyes as he got up on the tauros. “Alright Sunshine, stop smiling before you break your jaw” he threw a berry at me for that, and i laughed as it hit my forehead and squished. Damn rawst berries. “Okay okay! fine, keep smiling, its nice anyway. I’ll catch up” I started wiping at the berry juice with my arm, heading back inside and into the bathroom to wash my face off.

I let the tap water run for a second, staring at my face in the mirror and squinting. Stupid berry juice had made my makeup run... whatever, the Courier had seen me without makeup anyway. I put my hands under the water and splashed it onto my face a few times, wiping my face down with a towel afterwards and turning the water off.

I started down the trail to follow my friend, knowing him and the tauros he was probably already atleast thirty-forty minutes away. I let my Mareanie out to walk next to me, smiling down at it “hey Petal, we’re following the Courier again” the Mareanie cooed half of its name out, and i smiled lightly, continuing down the path.

After a while, i could hear the hooves of the tauros clicking on the ground, i called Mareanie back to its pokeball and started running towards the sounds “Courierr! Courierrrr!!” I yelled, hearing the hooves stop. “Miss, how did you end up so far behind?” Suns voice came from a bit ahead, an amused tone in it as he grabbed my arm and helped me onto the tauros quickly.

I wrapped my arms around his waist, humming softly as he made the tauros charge ahead “Is it an urgent one Courier?” “deadlines in an hour or two, its pretty far off” “ah.” Sun was definitely focused on his task, sticking out his tongue slightly. I rested my head on his shoulder, watching the scenery pass by. 

After around fifteen minutes, we reached the destination. Sun got off the tauros and gave the lady her item, the second the door closed, the boy was swaying a bit. I hopped off the tauros quickly to go help keep him up, putting his arm over my shoulder and helping him down the porch stairs. He gave me a smile and i just rolled my eyes “Do you have any other deliveries today Courier?” “nahh. gotta pick up the money from the person who. gave me that job though” I nodded a bit, helping him onto the back of the tauros and getting onto the spot to guide it, ignoring his protest.

Eventually the boy fell asleep leaning on me, and i calmly began guiding the tauros back to where we’d began looking at the map to see if there was a certain destination we needed to be. As far as i saw, Sun hadnt gotten the time to set the spot if there was one. So I decided to head back to Kukuis house.

On the way back the tauros stopped abruptly, almost sending me flying when it did. It made the Courier wake up however, with a low upset whine accompanying his awakening. I glanced back at him, before looking at the tauros “Is there something wrong buddy?” the tauros dug at the ground a bit with one of its hooves, starting to huff and make angry noises. I decided to quickly slide off the pokemon, grabbing Sun and tugging him down as well, holding him up as he glanced out confusedly.

The tauros continued to make distressed and angry sounds, and i took a few steps back from it, looking around warily and hitting the button on my Ivysaurs pokeball to let it out quickly. It glanced up at me and Sun. “Saur?” “theres something wrong Ivy, can you scout out the area?” it nodded, before heading off. I decided to sit down and try and wake Sun up more, but after a bit the boy just fell forward against me, back asleep. 

I sighed a bit, holding Sun close to me and continuing to look around. After about 10 minutes had passed i called for the Ivysaur, not hearing a response back. Meanwhile the tauros had ran in a random direction. I got to my feet after a bit longer, picking Sun up as i went. I started off into the forest, calling for Ivy all the while.

After a bit of walking i was hit with a strong scent, of course with how much i worked in hospitals i recognized it quickly. The smell of death was. never fun. “Ivy!” i began calling louder, letting worry strain my voice a bit. I started to walk faster, continuing to call for the Ivysaur. After a bit longer i found her, laying on the ground with her bulb torn off and tongue ripped out. The pokemon was dead.

“Holy shit.” i muttered, backing up slightly. I didn’t have time to grieve my pokemon right now, i had to get me and the courier out of this area asap. “im in a creepypasta” i joked quietly, getting a laugh out of myself as i backed up more, looking around and starting to walk away from the body. I lightly shook the Courier, glancing down at him. Still fast asleep, to be expected.

I kept walking, fear starting to sprout in my brain. I broke to a run, looking for the edge of the forest. I got out after a bit longer of running, and started running down the trail quickly, calling for rotomdex. The dex didn’t make an appearance of course, never around when needed.

After a while i stopped to take a break, leaning against a tree and huffing, panting lightly and looking at Sun who, had somehow slept through that. Thats gonna need to be a story to tell later. I sunk down to be sitting and sat Sun up so he was on my lap and leaning on me, i took out Ivysaurs pokeball and stared at it for a few seconds. Tears started to slide down my cheeks and after a few seconds i was crying softly, shaking my head and trying to deny everything that had just happened.

This is what woke the Courier, odd how he could sleep when I was running but the second i was upset he woke up. The boy glanced at me and just wrapped his arms around me, presumably deciding not to ask what had happened. Which i was thankful for. I held onto him and ended up crying into his shoulder, this lasted for a good hour or so.

Once i was feeling better we stood up and looked around. “Miss, i know the way back from here, just follow my lead!” Sun announced, his bright smile back on his face, and he was doing his dumb little ok-sign thing with his hand. I nodded a bit and wiped the last tears out of my eyes, sniffling lightly. “alright Courier.”

Sun lead me down the path, and i glanced around more with every step. something still felt off, and i didnt feel safe at all as we walked. Alola was. never safe though, not since the ultra beasts got into our world. “Courier, how long do you think it’ll be until we’re home?” “only an hour or so miss, why do you ask?” He glanced back at me, and i just shrugged lightly, which caused the boy to frown a little, before smiling as bright as he could again “Dont worry miss, we’ll get back safe and sound. Ive never had a delivery i failed!” “you fell off a cliff once” He puffed up his cheeks slightly and looked away from me “that was one time!” “still” i giggled.

After an hour, as he promised, we made it home. I walked into Kukuis house and didnt even say hi to the professor, going and putting Ivys pokeball on the counter and falling onto the couch. Sun had gone out to get the money from the person who asked him to make the delivery. “Is there something wrong Moon?” Kukui asked after a moment.

I rolled over and looked at him, whining loudly and hugging myself. “whos pokeball is this?” he asked, and i just let out a soft wail and hugged myself tighter, closing my eyes tightly. “...Moon?” “Ivy dieeddd!” i screamed after a heartbeat, and Kukui gasped a bit, before quickly coming over and pulling me into a hug. I held onto him and sobbed into his chest, not wanting to move anymore.

Next thing i know, i was waking up, i was laying on the couch next to another sleeping person, to be expected of course, it was Sun. I sighed softly and rolled over, letting myself stay being held by him. I glanced around the dark room, seeing Lillie in the dark. Her eyes lit up a bit when she saw me and she put the last dish of food down for the pokemon “Youre awake! i- Kukui didnt tell me what happened but said that you’d need a friend over. But. we weren’t sure when Sun was getting back but he got back a bit ago and he saw that you had tear stains and-” “calm down Lil.” I chuckled, “I’m used to Sun getting home and holding onto me. It’s just how he is.”

Lillie nodded slightly, coming over to me and frowning “Do you... wanna talk about it?” “...No” “alright..” Lillie softly pat my cheek “Ill be in the other room if you need me Moonie” “alright Lil” i smiled softly, watching her walk off and glancing back at the Courier.

I decided i didnt want to move much, and rolled back over, cuddling more against Sun and letting myself make a tiny noise of contentment, closing my eyes to fall back asleep.

#mems #kin mems #Moonfeels #Pearltime #i wrote. this as the mems were coming to mind so. its. messy. #yeah #dead pokemon tw #pokemon death tw #???? #Leafeon Writes; writing #Moonlilyshipping #deliveryshipping #kinda? #platonically? #how do i tag this #moon pokespe #sun pokespe #lillie pokespe #????????

[survivor-kuwait]

Episode 7 - "Okay there we go. I'm caught up. Now give me my winner's edit back." - Trace

Not only did nehe go but he did NOT play his idol AND i got him to tell me where he found it. Its a long shot but if the host rehide it in the same coordinates im set. Now I just gotta make sure I dont get crucified for it.

Fuck! That just happened and it was great. Me working with Matt and Adrian was smart because they actually felt the same way I felt about Nehe. Like i really liked him but trusting him after he already backstabbed me!? Nahh. It is time to play this game.

The past two days have been the greatest days in survivor history for me and no matter what happens and even if I’m out next no one can take away my masterful Nehe blindside, my earning the trust of the people I voted against last tribal and finding an idol with my best girl Kait. Let’s keep this energy please.

I feel very fucking stupid. Have work and I am not able to talk to my tribe, I self-vote, and now I am considered inactive, rightfully so. I need to get that inactive label off my ass ASAP

Madison really is trying it. She is trying to get isolated because it's obvious there will be an advantage there. She is saying it would be nice for someone on our tribe to have it, but I don't trust her. I doubt she would let anyone know what the actual advantage is if there is one. But at the same time, people will assume she has something and that will make the target on her back so much greater. Also, it's a round of safety so no shit she wants it. I don't think I can outright say "oh no no no, i don't want you going" even though that is how I feel. I would rather send Matt because I trust him more than I trust Madison.

What's a guy gotta do to get voted into isolation? Positive or negative idc, if I'm forced into retrograde that helps my resume. Vote me Ma'an. How do these people not realize our vote doesn't matter aside from it being public, Ma'an is obviously going to vote together they have no reason not to especially with it being PUBLIC our vote is straight up how it will be perceived by people not deciding who goes to isolation.  For a bunch of smart guys they're being stupid.

It’s the next day after tribal last night. I need to talk to Stephen. We have played before and Ive been hosted by him so we have some history. We techically havent been working together but we have had some communication and we havent gone after each other. I need to talk and see if he’s willing to work with me in this game. This Moon twist is so weird and i dont know whats going to happen. We are going to all cote together and its between Cloe and Thomas. They feel that sending someone to exile gives hosts the perfect numbers to do a swap. Which would be bad but not too horrible. Just if there is I want to be in a tribe with Aidan, Madison, Matt S, Stephen, and perhaps Ian/Timmy.

- - -

It is coming close to 7 o’cock and im getting nervous to find out what happens. This moon twist could really mess things up or cause lots of trouble if person isolated gets an advantage or something.

So what people might be thinking right now is "wow Timmy is an idiot and went against his entire tribe" but with the way this game is set up WHO CARES. I haven't spoken to Madison or Chloe much so I know neither of them are going to tell me what happened in the Oasis. Madison had been pushing all day for her to go but also saying "it doesn't matter much I'll do whatever" but whenever someone tried to bring up another plan she would immediately shut it down and suggest herself. That was super sketchy to me so no way in hell was I going to be sending her there. I got to make the final decision and I am so happy about that because I got to do what I wanted, which was not send Madison. There is no real reason to stick to any tribal lines for this season since you don't go to tribal as a tribe. Yea it helps with keeping more people safe with immunity, but I've been doing a good job at that on my own. I'm very methodical with this game and everything I do has a reason that is thought out for it and this one was because Madison is sketchy and I wanted her to feel not safe because she was already basically gloating about going. She didn't need it, Chloe needed it more because she was already in danger so why not give her a break and she deserves some possible advantage. Madison didn't need it by any means, I needed it more than she did because I have been safe for so many rounds that if I go to tribal I am a threat so a little solace of a possible advantage would have been nice but I wasn't going to shove my name into the ring. I know this entire thing could be my downfall, but at the same time you have to take chances so that's what I did and I don't regret it for one second.

Basically what I was expecting happened and we had a tribe swap. Cloe is safe in isolation. Warzone is still a thing so no normal tribals yet. I want to win this immunity because i dont want to be at tribal while at disneyland. Or maybe if i am ill show u guys while im there.

me at matt and owen rn: 

https://pbs.twimg.com/media/Bh2G2YfIgAACSlm.jpg

Well. Hot diggity Dog huh? I’m kind of glad we swapped right before Ma’an literally imploded over who to isolate. I guess Chloe is there now which I feel bad about but I feel like I can work with her and whatever she’s got since we’ve voted together twice. I’m glad I have Madison here as an ally as well as Adrian, even tho he was giving me one word and emoji answers (suspicious!!! Emojis are never good). I hope he’s not afraid of me considering he literally spent last warzone going “I can’t believe how easily you got everyone to think Thomas was the vote you’re so good at this” like yes I am but don’t notice that! I have my idol which is nice and relieving and Kaits the only only person who knows about it, which might mean Kait may be a loose end for me. I love her to DEATH and really trust her but she kinda weirded me out during the isolation vote by being catty. If that’s how she is with that vote, does she go even harder during tribal? The thing with Kait and Owen is like they’re my best friends from high school or something. But going off to warzone with Maynor twice and Madison twice was like going to college and meeting new friends who you share insane experiences with and then go back to your high school friends and there’s a disconnect. I just hope me trying to be a friend to all doesn’t smush me in the middle. I’m not ready to be smushy.

It too me 41 minutes to do this challenge. I think i did okay but i could be totally off. I really hope i was able to get atleast enough of it correct for me to win safety. I dont really want to go to tribal but I have a decent allies that i might be safe. Matt told Kait to talk to me and we are getting along. Id be down to work with her in this game. I have to wait and see what happens with these tribal results later. I dont wanna be worrying about the vote while im in disneyland.

I only know of like, 5 of these people. Ians here thats good, Corey is here that isnt, maynor i think is good. Love the guy but he plays the game. Heres to another messy warzone! This challenge sucked.

Fuck that challenge and fuck Arianna Grande. It's f17, I am not going to throw that much of my time away on a f17 challenge, that's just asinine. If anyone thinks those challenges are fun then there is something wrong with you. I'd rather burn my idol than subject myself to the torture that challenge was. Sort your own damn screenshots.

Whale, whale, whale. New tribes and shit. I have a save vote thing that I may keep if I decide to not vote at my next tribal council. Unfortunately, if I am in the warzone tonight, (and I believe I will be due to my slow performance) I don't believe I will get this power; with only 8 of us there and Chloe joining the tribe that loses a person, I don't see myself refraining from voting. I am intrigued by the other tribe voting Madison and i assume she volunteered. I don't know what is up w Timmy and he is now the single person I have yet to speak to. Regardless, I have taken the opportunity to bond w Kait and a bit with Thomas. I need to shield my own ass in case I'm in WZ. Kait seems scared of it, understandably, and a sympathetic new boi to her is not threatening and she may see me as an asset if we end up there together. I'm thankful for Ian on my tribe as he's the only person I feel comfortable with talking game with and long-term and short-term strategy. Wish I had Matt, Devon, Adrian or Owen on my team though. Sucks that Maynor is here. BUT regardless! I am doing my best.

#survivorstarzone #episodes