#i still suck ass at pacing things that arent just. extended single scenes

[dumbkiwi]

hello professor(s) i have been not doing my homework or thesis or occasionally going to class for some good reasons and many bad ones, chief among them being that for some ungodly reason while i cannot focus on my homework or open my email (partially due to the fear of it already being overdue and so forth) the only thing i can actually do is write. 20 pages of fanfiction. in one night.

#sel speaks #for once it wasnt all pwp either #like theres actual plot and im ?? kinda hopeful abt being able to finish it??? #but that being said what the fuck is wrong with me i am so glad i have a psychiatry appt soon #i am so behind on so many things #and yet my izzy fic doc (of which ive only published abt 10k words of) is 150+ pages long #THIS IS LONGER THAN MY THESIS #I HAVE WRITTEN MY THESIS SEVERAL TIMES OVER #IN IZZY FANFICTION #HGNHGH HELLO GARY WOULD YOU LIKE SHAMELESS DUBCON #I ALSO HAVE 20 PAGES OF PLOT WITH CONSENT THATS NOT DUBIOUS #IM ACTUALLY KINDA PROUD OF THE PLOT SINCE IM NORMALLY (AND STILL) REALLY REALLY BAD AT PLOTTY THINGS #i still suck ass at pacing things that arent just. extended single scenes #which is why i really think i should branch out into twitter ficlets bc thats a thing and thats basically what im doing #and then id be able to actually fucking publish it #but i dont really want to do that???? #idk i normally have extremely low standards for myself but for some reason what i post on a03 is not like this #i am very stupid like that #but holy shit i need to do hw so fucking bad