#i truly am a gender abolitionist in the way that i wish my gender and sex just wasn’t even a topic to discuss ever

[ettucamus]

aggression against trans people is truly so exhausting like of course there are abrasive and loud trans people on the internet but for the most part. actual trans people are just trying to go about our days managing this very personal struggle while trying not to get hatecrimed. and so much of the discourse about being trans is so removed from what it’s like to be a trans person irl.

#th.txt #like for me personally being trans is more a medical condition than anything like sure i am trans in the same way i am adhd #dysphoria has largely been this pain in my ass for my entire life and i have actively done as much as possible to try to mitigate it #truly the only thing to help has been medical transition and that’s what i don’t get about transphobes #who are so into shaming people for transitioning like it’s truly just another medication for a condition #at this point idek what a gender is or how to go about interpreting my own feelings #i do know physical transition has alleviated my dysphoria and that’s the end of it #i truly am a gender abolitionist in the way that i wish my gender and sex just wasn’t even a topic to discuss ever #nonbinary for me is just a stand in for my feelings that gender is a nebulous social construct i do not support #idc if this is going to ruffle some feathers on many different sides but i am just so tired #i just want to exist and look the way i’d like to and not have people tell me i’m mutilating myself #or that i can think my way out of dysphoria because that’s just simply not happening #after 20 years and more of fighting against dysphoria i think by now it’s clear that it’s an immutable disorder #in the same way i take meds for other mental health struggles physical transition is the medication for dysphoria #maybe other people are stronger than me for being able to withstand the experience of dysphoria without transition #but i’m not one of them! and that’s okay!