#i wanna start working out at least a bit

[puppyeared]

for like 3 weeks i was wondering why i was sleeping so much and felt listless. and just now I managed to email 3 people and responded to a month old message in the span of an hour because I got back to TAKING MY FUCKIN MEDS..........

#MOTHER FFFFUCKER #to be fair. my doc said I could stop taking them while im on break since i wouldnt need to be constantly pumped on stimulants #im not sure if it was a side effect but i managed to take like 3 different naps in one day and STILL managed to sleep thru the whole night #at least 2 days into my break. the weird thing is i didnt feel more or less rested afterwards. but mentally i think im in a good place rn #to really put the level of awakeness im at rn i feel weirdly confident i could start one piece. also bc of that sick new opening it BANGS #the song is really good and im in love with the animation style. did some digging and it seems one of the lead animators is masato mori #but i could be wrong. it seems he also did some work on mp100 which could explain a lot lol.. he uses smear frames really well to convey #consistent movement and fluidity!!! someone else might have done color design but it works really really well esp with odas style!! #just love the overall vibe and aesthetic and id really love to study it and incorporate a bit of it into my art.. especially the thick #outlines which i think helps to separate characters and objects on screen. though i have to say the style is definitely more suited to #animation bc of the simpleness and smears. maybe that will help me explore shapes and perspective when i draw... i wanna get better #at drawing poses and angles but i have a hard time wrapping my head around space and using perspective guide lines NGHHHH #i wonder if it has to do with my dogshit ability to judge distance. not depth perception but like. judge how far smth is in metres etc #im also wearing an N95 for the first couple weeks back bc of the wave. absolutely NO BODY is wearing a mask its so fucking over #where im sitting ive heard 5 different people coughing probably not into their elbows!!! and im just. head in my fucking hands #there was a kid sitting a couple seats away in class coughing as he pleases and i wanted to grab him in a chokehold so badly. PLEASEE #ive been annoying my family by asking them to mask up and reminding them to bring masks when they go out and showing them news articles #but at least its working bc we ordered some KN95s and my mom is at least taking me seriously so. please dont be afraid to speak up abt your #health. take care of yourself and others however u can!! wear that mask indoors at your maskless friends house!!! stay home when u can!! #im wearing a surgical mask at home too bc my parents have '''a dry throat cough''' and they are so bad at coughing into their sleeves #also im pretty sure dry throat isnt transmissible bc my brother started coughing too so.. i also tested negative but they havent tested yet #im also not a doctor but i have to keep reminding ppl whenever i can that covid and flu work differently. covid is new and too recent to #have nearly as much research done on it. it seems its also compounding so instead of building immunity it weakens the body and spreads to #to other systems which might explain brain fog and muscle weakness. i remember someone early in the pandemic got infected and it messed up #their smell/taste receptors so bad that they cant eat most foods and that stays in the front of my mind when i think abt covid. christ #yapping

[risingsunresistance]

i have one more clip to post but that's being saved until i feel like doing a mild edit. which means it will probably be next week i am On A Schedule right now every single day is being meticulously planned out kjgfhgk (help)

on the bright side, skyblock update. 85% TO FISHING 42 AAAAAAAAAAAAAAUGH 💥💥💥

#i just wanna be fishing 45 please send help #long youtube videos save me... #every show i wanna watch requires captions so i cant devote enough attention to reading and playing >:( so im stuck with youtube videos #it's a slow grind but it's been a lot better with my gear upgrades and the new mixin they added :0 i was 0% two or three days ago #and considering i havent been able to play much. THAT'S A LOT OF EXP #goal is fishing 45 by 2024 but i dont think that'll happen. might set my sights for at least 43 i'll take ONE more level #it's going by faster rn with marina but i've been schedule for work her entire term #BUT DERPY IS ABOUT TO BE MAYOR AND IM OFF FOR THE HOLIDAYS WOOOOOO time to grind #i dont go back till wednesday after tomorrow life is beautiful #i'll try to be a little bit social but. can someone please come to my house for once instead of me leaving the house #i am driving All The Time now it's starting to wear me out :( #''wanna come over wanna go do this'' can we hang out here i have a dog who would love to see you #chat

[happyhyenaminis]

managed to grind through the last 6 pink horrors in one sitting tonight 😪 ready to be based and join the other 14 from earlier in the year

#both a lil sad and a huge relief to be finished with that squad #done with batch painting again for a lil bit #(at least until i start to make a dent in the many many 'nids i have lying around) #i wanna get to at least one of my 'mechs before the end of the month cus its colours'll line up with pride if i can get it to work >:3 #absolutely wiped out tho so i'll probably be in my fatigue hole for a few more days (got an updated covid shot that wrecked me for a bit)

[miscellaneous--bones]

some basic stuff for gal's wardrobe. i tend to think that because of how the legs move three piece clothing is the easiest and most comfortable to put on and otherwise move in. i think the hardest part is figuring out what she would have style wise and what shed be able to get tailored vs what shed have scrounged. other than hoodies and tshirts pretty much everything has to be tailored, unfortunatly.

#i feel like half her wardrobe is stuff she likes to wear out bc its her style (more comfort or grunge focused shit) #and then at least a good 3rd is experimental shit she or one of her friends made for her to see if it would work #and then the last bit is just for specific occassions #i figure with hextupods the concept of ''nudity'' is very individual based. gal feels pretty ok w/o clothes all together if shes #with other sextupods and sometimes the turtles but especially around humans and such for example she might start feeling kinda naked #otherwise its more so if shes like only wearing shoes is weird those should be worn with clothes #or like ONLY a middle peice then shes like i wanna at least cover my butt #etc #its situational #adelaid on the other hand only wears clothes if its for practicality like if its cold or she needs shoes for certain terrain #i think other than like. slippers or some socks shes only got the three pairs of shoes i drew here but she deffinetly have some more #shirts n shit #so yk #hextupod #oc #art #doodles #Galileo #spec bio

[izzy-b-hands]

There's a man vomiting loudly outside (potentially in our parking lot, but I'm deeply in an overstimulated autism thing rn and i simply cannot be arsed to get up and check)

I would normally, but there's already a man out there interrogating him and like. I'm sure he's well-intentioned, but I lost my shit at his opener of 'Hey buddy, you having a good day?'

He's being violently sick in public; i think you can assume he's not enjoying this day.

#text post #im hitting the shower in a few minutes then after letting myself have an edible (held off all day for various reasons) #then i wanna get as close to wizard high as possible and disappear into Minecraft with Housemate for the night lmao #don't get me wrong today was actually very productive for me #resumes sent out decent amt of prolific done a new fic started and some drafts worked on #plus dishes done #but like. idk. my brain is very fast and angry and tired and i don't wanna be in this headspace #and i think i just overwhelmed myself with stuff a tiny bit today bc like. i know when im at the edge of it sometimes #but it's too easy to force myself past it in the name of productivity then deal with the fallout after #as i type this i realise i also need to clean the downstairs bathroom fan and forgor #but!! i forgot to mention i was able to get a belated bday gift out to my mum! got it ordered to b shipped to her at least lol #v glad I got that done #tw emetophobia #anyway i feel terrible for this guy and hope by the time i leave the shower he's doing better

[purplekoop]

wrote out two kits for more new characters instead of designing Heart and giving her a real name. why am I like this.

#war bots #koop's oc stuff #honestly might just call her “Harmony” or something #also I'm almost out of character slots #I don't wanna plan more than 20 in advance and the only slots left are the 4th Tank and Support #thankfully my ideas for those are slim at least #so I got some more room to play with for a bit #but man I wish I had a computer I could start dev work with

[knowing--clandestinely]

Next week I'm doing a dinner i found on tiktok where you meet with strangers and some guy guides the conversation and you're supposed 2 make friends. and then get invited to other meetups. it sounds like a good experience from a accounts ive seen and i am also brave

#i started this year so determined to make local friends #2 friends recently moved/re-moved back to the city so now i have 5 friends. i do really want hyperlocal friends bc.the traveling. where r #the ppl in my neighborhood at. but idk if that's gonna happen. the kind of people i want to meet kind of are clustered...a little bit far #away. bumblebff is not really working out but look im trying...i went to that one-off writing workshop! im doing this freekin dinner #sofar the work and seeing ppl i do know balance tbh entirely via theater+concerts thing has been working out #with the ocassional out of town friend who comes to the city the socialization schedule has been alright #still wanna find someone/persons who are like walking distanceeeeeeeee. i dont wanna commute to hang #anyway like making additional friends and community was a goal of mine this year and it's gone nowhere but at least i am! trying! #text post

[correct-bangtannies]

I don't even like men and I'm somehow already a military wife, what goes on

PS. Don't open the tags unless you want a big ass wall of text of me rambling on your screen

#hit #im just honestly so glad that I've become a lot more chill with the whole being an army thing #in the sense that i used to be a lot more attached and hyped over everything #i do still get very hyped and i do still have an attachment to them n their work but y'know just more toned down #(i mean i remember the days of staying up all night to watch award shows knowing damn well they'd always perform last) #(mma 2018 was an emotional rollercoaster like i legit cried a little from the tiredness and being overwhelmed with the performance) #so im glad im a lot more calm about the enlistment news than what i would've been say three years ago before they started to #take longer breaks and eventually announce the hiatus this year #it's like they did it in purpose so that the fandom would grow a bit more used to it n im glad to see that a huge majority are very calm #many are sad ofc but its not being treated as some kind of horrific news #if anything ppl are coping with humor including me lmao #so idk im mostly just happy for them that they're taking their VERY well deserved break before doing their service #i just hope everything goes well and is decently peaceful (as peaceful as enlistment can be at least lol) for them once they're there #now why am i rambling in the tags? bc i need to put my thoughts in order but i don't wanna clog my blog with a long ass wall of text 💀 #I'm at least relieved to know that they already have a set plan of when they're going to go and return + BH is sure af gonna keep putting #out a lot of content that they've filmed over all these years #i mean run bts; documentaries; probably even music and ofc not all of them are gonna go at the exact same time #and ofc stuff related to the HYYH and Chakho #them being absent won't as hard for most hopefully #and hey 2 years aint nothing ive waited far longer for stuff to come out than that we'll be fine! #*cries in silksong and the YOI movie

[ninjaliike]

can't believe i missed our 6th birthday here! damn ... time flies, eh? ❤️

#QUICK TAGS UPDATE WHILE I'M HERE! #last day at work ended up being 9/13 and ngl it's been practically non-stop ever since #mostly moving things - packing - organizing - etc. it's been exhausting mentally emotionally and physically tbh! #SO! like i've mentioned i've got tumblr on hiatus at least until i can get moved to cali and settled in a bit (we should hit the road 10/15 #it's just been ... a lot #and then trying to figure out what's next since i won't have my job or a consistent income starting on 10/13 for the first time in 11 years #no insurance either so that's another thing to sort out! #i'm trying really hard to be hopeful and optimistic and i DO believe that this is all going to be for the best #it's just hard right now #trying to rest and relax whenever i have a moment or two but still need to find time to get some 'professional' stuff taken care of lol #why are careers??? like i just wanna live and vibe i wish i could just retire *sobs* #ANYWHO. #i love you all and i'll be checking blogs more consistently sometime after i move i hope! #until then feel free to hmu on discord! i'm down to chat / plot / write there in the meantime! ❤️❤️❤️ #☆ main — ( OOC. )

[todayisafridaynight]

maybe if i play y7 ill be normal <- played y7 four times this weekend, a decidedly not normal thing

#snap chats #'snap how many times can you play y7 in a week before youre tired of it' do you wanna find out together #i had a horrible night last night. ok not a WHOLLY horrible night but something trash did happen and i woke up still groggy bout it #i dont like sulking about the past but sometimes i cant help it and it aint fair to myself to act like i can help it. sometimes. #i gotta be candid just for my sake last night i got real upset with my friend because when i say she tests me She Really Does #and i hate getting angry cause then i just feel like my mom and at that point i figure itd be better if i slipped on ice and broke my spine #generally im good at controlling my temper but everything just testing me and i broke down and it was embarrassing as hell ☠️☠️ #so yeah thats gonna bother me for a few days LMAO #'snap it aint that deep' it AINT and thats why its so annoyin cause i KNOW it aint that deep yet i still cant argue away how i feel #all i can do is try to ignore it... like plying y7 for the 11th time..... #i cant ply it now tho i told myself id work on a commission a bit so. maybe later... #i already started another file yesterday- or was it two days ago ???? idk i just know im up to chap 5 in it #chap 5 always give me a damn headache its so LONG at the very least the benefit to having my friend over and raising my blood pressure #is that i start to remember things to do from a y7 speedrun. like i dont hound her on what to do obvi i just let her play #its just lil notes to myself. tho she does tell me to give her tips and exploits when i can LMAO #anyways.. im gonna go work ig and try to feel like crummy bye bye #i wanna stream.. maybe i will this evening before my evening class.. lol.. we'll see but probably not

[seventh-district]

oh my god i can’t decide what to do with my time today

#Seven.txt #writing stuff #video stuff #it’s Sunday so i need to log into Genshin and do my weeklies and i also need to grind for primos to yoink Yelan’s C1 before Tuesday #but i also need to record that so it’ll have to be done later once the house is quiet but i also need to record Lyney’s story quest but #then ​i also want to record Kaeya’s hangout but i also need to see what events are ending soon but i also need to do other non game stuff #like i need to finish going thru my backlog of likes on here and i need to answer asks and i need to work on drafted posts #and i have GOT to start working on ES Ch.4 to get that up by my self-imposed deadline soon but i’m recording that so i can only work on it #early in the mornings or late in the evenings but i also wanna finish this one-shot i’m working on for Dew and get it up on here soon #and that’s easier cause i’m not recording it but if i work on it today that’s not the best use of my time when it’s SUNDAY so it’s GENSHIN #DAY but i don’t FEEL like playing genshin rn i wanna WRITE ugh #but i’ve also got Ao3 comments awaiting a reply and i need to get a few things updated over there and i wanna work on This Is Unconditional #but i don’t have the TIME for that right now and i’ve got a bunch of messages that need replying to and a many hours of videos to edit #and i slept bad bc Nightmares so i just wanna eat and take a nap but that’s such a waste of time and uuuuugh idk man #So Many Creative Endeavors So Little Time #*collapses onto the floor in a frustrated heap* #okay. deep breath. i think. i’m gonna go work on banging out the rest of Hold On to Something bc that’s nearly fully written anyways #and i am Dying to get it out of my system bc Ghost Band fixation u know #i at least wanna get the draft done. i’ll edit/post it another day #then i’ll probably hop on genshin for a bit and do the bare minimum (i only need like 15 more pulls worth so even if i don’t grind and have #to swipe its nbd) and then i’ll hopefully be able to record the first writing session for ES ch.4 later this evening!!! #‘cause good god i wanna get that fic back into production. i miss working on it it’s just so hard to get started again #okay enough rambling. gonna go make Bullet’s lunch and get myself some lemonade. then i shall work

[diabolicjoy]

.

#warning there’s too many typos but who cares #i’m always complaining to myself in my head about how me & my best friend have grown apart #we’ve spent all out teenage years doing everything together even though we weren’t from the same school #we’d still find ways to see each other if not every day then at least every month #& since she started college & then a relationship & then work we’ve just grown apart & it was embarrassing for me really because i was alwa #ys the depressed never busy always alone type & i always ended up felt clingy when asking to hang out #feeling* #specially because she’s a social butterfly & i’m the one who has social anxiety lol but it was always reassuring to have her by my side #during these social events #then the pandemic happened & after things went back to normal.. i can actually count on my finger how many times we’ve seen each other irl #also stopped texting each other which is an important detail considering we used to talk every single day #especially because she’s like. literally the only person i feel comfortable opening up abt things i wouldn’t tell anyone #so i just feel isolated & a bit lost in life without her presence in it... but i’m just a very insecure human & always feel like the plans #& little dates & things i come up & plan for us to do is just... super boring to her (or anyone else) #so i stopped trying completely. which is sad because i miss her immensely #but last november i went to a festival with some friends but felt super stressed on the first day but tried to hide it from everyone #because i don’t wanna ruin the whole trip by being moody so i just kept to myself #ended up feeling overwhelmed & on day2 of the festival we txt each other bc she’s gonna be there #so i just spent the entire day2 with her & her partner & we all had such an amazing time... it really revitalized me lol #& everything felt so familiar even though i hadn’t seen her since her bday in may.. #& idk i just missed her. i always felt like this lack of talking & seeing each other just meant that they didnt like me as a friend anymore #or that i wasn’t worth keeping around... idk i’m always expecting the worse which is so unfair to the other person #i know she loves me & that life happens #anyway all that to say that i decided to stop being a pussy & stop mopping around #crying abt how i’m alone & friendless. & like. just text them & invite invite them to see a movie or something #idk if it didn’t work our 2 years ago life happens i am trying again #i won’t find someone like them that easily again in life i think

[tillman]

Starting doing actual workout stuff at night and its always so funny how I can do crunches and squats and all that shit quite easily they are mighty fun even but I do one pushup and I fall over and die forever and ever . My cringe fail nature

#its a start . I got like 5 solid actual pushups in …. #doing physical stuff all day every day has made my stamina actually like. betterand man i forgot feeling good physically means u feel better #mentally LMAO #txt #my issue is work is soo draining like. mentally all I wanna do is nap .. but its getting easier ! #tho 9 hour days I think will always kill. nothing I can do about that bogus #my bad leg gives me Issues tho. threatening to give out … but working out does help w that genuinely #I still limp like the instant I strain myself even a slight bit but I at LEAST dont fall over much #my balance weirdly improved after my leg shit happened. fascinating life I live.

[emproleon]

normally i only ever work on one commission or piece at a time, but since i havent been working on them all that much the past week due to the holidays and family being in town i plan on at least getting sketches out to commissioners very soon!

#it'll probably be i bit longer still till i can really start to work on your pieces but i just wanna at least get something out for yall

[sluttyten]

if it was just up to me I’d be on my way home by now, but I’m staying with my best friend at her boyfriend’s house, and she told me last night that she wants to sleep in and go to a local mall this morning (which doesn’t even open until 11), and then we have to stop in another city because I promised an old coworker I was close with that we’ll stop and see her since we’re going that way anyway, but now I’m like probably not getting home until late afternoon, but if I left now, or like an hour and a half ago when I woke up, I’d be home by a little bit after noon, actually earlier than that because there’s a time change somewhere in there

#I tried telling her the other day when she first mentioned the mall that I don’t really want to go #but she really wants to #and it’s kinda annoying because it’s a little bit out of our way? #like it’s the same general direction that we’re going in but not really #and also she’s gonna be up here again in like two or three weeks? she can just go then #it’s not like she needs to go she just wants to see this one store that our mall at home doesn’t have anymore #and I just want to go home 😭😭 I barely wanna stop and see my friend in the other city now #but I also really do because I want to see where she works and that’s where we’re meeting her #but also if I get home at a decent enough time I might be going out of town again tonight lol because there’s somewhere my mom wants to see #that’s like a two hour drive away from home #like damn let me just spend the entirety of my four day weekend traveling #(I’m fine with it mostly) I just hate that right now I’ve been awake for an hour and a half just waiting #at least I’ve been writing #working on yesterday’s kinktober prompt #I think I’m nearly done and then I’ll start on the one that’s supposed to be for today #I don’t even know how I’m gonna post these now that I’m a few days behind #bc if I post them all at once then I feel like they’re just not gonna get notes #but we’ll see #I’ll probably post at least the day 14 and 15 tomorrow #hopefully 16 and 17 too but since those two still need to be written and I have to work tomorrow idk what’s gonna happen

[unholyeverything]

I just realised tomorrow marks the 7ths week of me being sick and feeling like garbage lol It's some ups and downs but generally it's been a while since I've been healthy and none knows whats up which is nice.

#been to the doctor so many times #and at least my general doc is trying but she cant figure out what's wrong #and the throat specialist I've been to twice in one month got a very helpful “sounds like stress and you imagine all” for me #like thanks i keep having my ear throat and nose inflamed constantly and nothing i tried so far helped but surely its stress #my doc suspected a virus but we also didnt find any active anti bodies #so i was just told to rest and was off work for two weeks that also did nothing #so i worked again even tho my doc was like maybe not but i got psychological issues being home with nothing to do #gotta go to my dentist tomorrow to see if the source is there #but im sure its my ears but I'll never go back to that doc #i was there twice a month cuz it kept getting worse and got a stress stamp #stress i didnt even have lately cuz i got a healthy fuck you all work motivation now #and now I'll lose all chance for promotion cuz i cant do my usual 200% and my bosses translate that with: she broken now bye #going great #also don't really have motivation to draw anymore #I started to build model sets but idk if anyone would wanna see those #I also got a cyst on my ovaries and got an appointment in july #that gives me serious pms like i never had it before but ok #someone knows a doc that'll remove the whole uterus i don't need that shit anymore #anyways in case anyone's been wondering where i am lately or if anyone even read this my asks are open if anyone wants to ask smth #or ask my OCs they live rent free in my head and are very precious to me #even my new car is named Michael #he's cute and my record so far been 190km/h #one day I'll do the 225 he can do #just get off the road that day pls #that car was the onyl thing i worked for so idk what to do with my life now #save for car repairs maybe #anyone wants a pic of my child #he's orange #I'm very proud of myself i managed to save up for him quiet fast #these tags are wild but I'm feeling a bit more energetic thanks to some plant supplements my uncle gave me