#i went thru 2022 only having contact with redacted only twice

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insane personal rambling below in the tags. hm. sorry !

#venus.txt #feeling like. okay but a little unstable and like maybe it has to do w how ive been thinking a lot about how #i went thru 2022 only having contact with redacted only twice #and thats good. thats good. but even with only having 2 exchanges that entire year that only lasted a message or 2 is like.. #idk how do you go from being with someone for 5/6 years and being so close. closer than what was healthy #to not knowing them at all anymore #and how are just supposed to not think about it. #i am doing so good and i feel like i never think abt it anymore. or at least i dont dwell on it #but then i think abt it and its like. was there really a single day that has gone by that i havent thought about him #some days it really really really grips me and some days thinking abt the situation is just in passing #but like how do you move on and how do you stop thinking about someone you thought about every day for 6 years straight #ive moved on but i wish i could really really move on #because everything reminds me of it all #i have all these associations and i wish i didnt and some of those have been undone but some are as strong as ever