#i wna call with. someone. one person with the kind of connection with me
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clicks onto the dash wearing kitten heels n coyly holding my bang....... hi. me again. it took me so long to select a gif to use on cricket’s intro n i settled on this one bc he looks so unsure abt his smile n it’s rly his essence <3 u can find his pinterest board here n his (work in progress) spotify playlist here. hmu to plot!!!
* alex wolff, cis male + he/him | you know cricket donahue, right? they’re twenty-two, and they’ve lived in irving for, like, all of their life, on and off? well, their spotify wrapped says they listened to should have known better by sufjan stevens like, a million times this year, which slipping on wet leaves to photograph a tree struck alight by lightning, delivering a tedtalk to your own reflection to hype yourself up to buy groceries, hiding your hands inside of your sleeves in case you grew an impromptu megan fox thumb overnight thing going on. i just checked and their birthday is october 1st, so they’re a libra, which is unsurprising, all things considered. ( nai, 24, gmt, she/her )
HISTORY:
cricket ws born to a couple tht lived in lilac ridge. their trailer was tucked closest to the woods n always fell under the shade. it was like the leaves wanted to pretend they were a perpetual hanging cloud on the family n that was kind of fitting. their only reason fr having him in the first place was a kind of shrugged like........... we’re under the income bracket we’d get child benefits so why not! may as well try it to rake in some extra cash! needless to say they didn’t rly think it thru or anticipate all of the responsibilities tht came w children n wound up seeing him as an extremely large burden n boy didn’t he know it!
(child neglect & abuse tw) i’ll try to keep this part vague n brief but things were Not Good for cricket growing up. people in lilac ridge didn’t like his parents n it was for a gd reason. he remembers foggy things. being little n wandering around combing the grass with a stick to search for wrappers to suck on bc he was hungry. feeling uneasy when the front door opened. finding out his name was cricket bc the insects used to crawl into their trailer thru the vents n his parents liked to squish them into the carpet -- his mum told him as much once. i think this says a lot. to excessively trim the fat of the story he wound up entering the system at around 8 after his latest and most serious hospital visit. his parents hd to deal w the authorities n last he heard they bounced to evade charges.
(anxiety & violence & trauma tw) cricket sustained a few lifelong injuries from his time in lilac ridge. his knee didn’t heal right which meant he had (n still has to this day) a limp n he’s partially deaf in one ear. he’s always been an incredibly insecure n anxious person so this mde him rly self conscious going into a strange n new environment tht wld b difficult fr any kid to adjust to, nvm w these added worries. he jst felt like something weird to ogle at honestly. he probably wld have felt like that no matter where he was or what he looked like. he cld be in a huge hall of 200 people all wearing the same uniform n he’d still feel like the odd one out. needless to say this didn’t rly help him make friends
cricket’s coping mechanisms were romanticising the things tht other people found ugly or embarrassing or painfully ordinary. he liked it when the rain hit clunky drops against school windows n forbid everyone from playing outside bc he could feel the vibrations through the rubber soles of his shoes n it was a little bit like hearing all of the world at once fr just a moment. he liked medieval fantasy lore about stout gnomes w crumbs in their beards n cheeks red from ale. he liked fallen nests with the remnants of hatched eggs still dirty from the branches n soil they’d hit on the way down. he liked the way the sunlight leaked thru the leaves of the trees in the woods and how, when he sat very still, he could tune into the ringing that was always in his ear n pretend it was coming from the same place, that light thru the leaves, that the angels were trying to talk to him.
he spent a lot of time in the red room at his high skl (i’m begging u this is not a 50 shades reference) (after googling i jst realised it’s called a darkroom bt i’m leaving this fr the sake of sexy bimbo authenticity) n felt quite at home in there. he borrowed a camera whenever he cld (maybe he did yearbook) n photography became his way of immortalising the world as the romanticised version he wanted it to be. his memories were bad bt his photos were beautiful. maybe if he took enough they’d paste over n bleed into each other. maybe bad cld be replaced w beautiful if he tried his very best.
he got placed into fostering w a family once bt apparently didn’t meet the vibe check of their tastes so he wound up returning to the group home he’d initially been placed in. overall this is where he grew up n he aged out the system rather than getting adopted. there was a sense of floundering/isolation/not feeling gd enough in tht bt cricket made do the best he knew how.
that said there were some gd points! (shocking i kno bc his life hs been so fking bleak so far bt please it’s ok........) (is it?) (🤔). basically he interned as an assistant at this local photography studio during high skl working under this kind of whimsical yet endearing old man. suspected wizard possibly in cricket’s eyes, as an avid fantasy genre reader. for one of his bdays said old man / his boss bought him his very own film camera n cricket cried bc he’d never been bought a bday gift. this ws rly embarrassing bc this old man didn’t know how to emote n neither did cricket so he ws jst sort of sat wiping his eyes n sniffling saying he wasn’t crying as the old man pretended to suddenly clean his lenses. when cricket graduated he offered him a full time position there. they do like. wedding photographs n family portraits n all kinds of things...... pay isn’t huge bt it’s something n he Loves taking photos so it’s sexy <3
PERSONALITY:
SUCH an anxious person it’s actually unreal. overthinks absolutely everything he’s ever said. one morning he might hv put green socks on n for the rest of the day he’s nervously looking around like omggggggg they’re all looking at my socks probably thinking im a little green sock boy thinking i’m a fool n a jester this is all everyone’s probably thinking about i hv to hide my green socks..... even tho literally no-one cares
once saw a girl eating a chicken wing n in his head was like ok she likes chicken good future gift idea..... n turned up at her house with an entire rotisserie chicken
probably thinks WAY too hard abt what to write in bday cards n googles like generic ideas that he can use.... u open a card from cricket n it always says smthn weird like “Warmest wishes and love on your birthday and always!” or “You deserve everything happy. Wishing you that all year long!” tht he got off google
nervously fiddles w things a lot. literally anything. his hair. the cuffs of his sleeves. a thread on his bag. u name it
struggles w eye contact sometimes............ it’s like. he wants to talk to ppl n make friends bt he’s honestly so bad at it. he’s fumbling thru life like a nervous headless chicken
ALWAYS has his camera on him. like always. will tke a photo of u bc he thinks u look nice then be like im so sorry im so sorry...... bowing his head shakily holding his camera bc he doesn’t even kno what possessed him he jst thought it’d be a nice photograph bt boundaries exist. probably breathes very heavily over this later in his room panicking thinking he nw seems like hannibal lecter
probably more confident online bc he has time to think abt what he says more.......... i can see him hving a group of online friends tht he’s more confident w. honestly he’s pretty witty at heart he jst has a hard time verbalising things so ppl overlook him sometimes bt once u get to know him more / he’s more comfy he can b a funny little man.....
loves photographs where he cuts something out of them. loves missing spaces n voids. thinks it’s a rly interesting concept when something that isn’t there becomes the focus of a photograph where everything else is. probably loses his mind fr a collage like a front row 1d stan. likes experimenting w light n perception. pretty artistic honestly hs probably made a stop motion film in the past bc that’s just an extended form of photography in his mind bt i doubt he showed anyone
ummm...... very sweet bt like. he reminds me a lot of this quote. “he had the awkward tenderness of someone who has never been loved and is forced to improvise.” feel like tht sums him up quite nicely
WANTED CONNECTIONS
someone he met at a wedding: cricket probably ws forced to photograph a wedding fr his boss one time n it cld b interesting as a place to meet from that....... like. i can imagine either it being rly awkward maybe he accidentally spilled a drink on ur muse n was stuttering rly apologetic n it ws just a train wreck. or mayb they took pity on him or even (in a shocking turn of events) a shine to him n invited him to drink n dance. omgggg the thought of cricket trying to dance makes me wna die n probably mkes cricket wna hyperventilate bt idk maybe he went wild n let loose. mayb they wound up damaging the camera somehow. mayb they had to scramble to get another one n ur muse covered the cost n it was a strange late night excursion tht cricket thought about a lot since. cricket probably vowed to pay them bk somehow no matter what. idk. we can work things out. lots of diff options here. doesn’t have to b a wedding either can b any event tht required a photographer
ppl he went to school w: pretty self explanatory i suppose...... maybe they were frm completely different worlds..... mayb ur muse was popular n cricket was definitely not but they got paired fr an assignment n had to work on a project together....... mayb cricket asked ur muse on a date one time n it was completely embarrassing bc he didn’t realise they had a bf n it haunts cricket at night still bc he’s rly dramatic.... mayb ur muse felt sry fr him n ate lunch w him n inducted him into their group like a lost puppy finding a home.... world’s our oyster
neighbours from his brief time at lilac ridge: not to reference taylor swift but i’m gna reference taylor swift n say we cld do a seven inspired plot here. sighs a little..... then sighs a lot. he was here ages 0-8 so idk. we cld work out childhood plots perhaps....
sickening simp: i mean.............. cricket probably gets crushes on ppl so easily like just. anyone who’s the slightest bit nice to him.................. he’s a disgrace. ok i take it back. bt also please get it together freak............... i didn’t say that. he’d probably b extra nice to this person n try n pay close attention to things they liked so he cld get them little gifts. just a bit embarrassing n lovestruck bless his heart. wldn’t expect anything back tho honestly that just isn’t something he tends to do.
let’s go gays: cricket’s bi but he probably was rly in his head abt liking boys n tried to sort of squash it internally during his younger yrs...... i think he’s more comfy w it now MAYBE idk bt back then i picture him having a friend tht ws kind of like. similarly loserish as him perhaps (no offence to ur muse potentially filling this plot or cricket bt let’s face the facts) n they’d hang out n play games a lot n one time it jst kind of happened n he was like............. *struts in looking around sharply* What going on here? except not. bc it’s cricket. more like *shambles in looking around anxiously* What’s, uh... What’s... the happenings? S--... I’m sorry. (immediate apology for saying what’s the happenings bc nobody talks like that n it was an impulsive panic bc he didn’t know what else to say)
those who grew up in the system w him: maybe at the group home or i’d also like the family that fostered him n said sayonara. honestly i imagine the parents just thought he ws a bit too much of a handful / had too much baggage which is rly quite merciless n terrible but. if u think that aligns w ur muses home situation hmu......
um. can’t think of more bt just anything honestly. jst go wild.......
#irvingintro#abuse tw#neglect tw#trauma tw#anxiety tw#violence tw#DOES A LITTLE JIG#admittedly i didnt include a formative moments section like my other intros bc idk what kind of superpowers i was inhaling the fumes of#for those intros but#i'm a mere mortal now.
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um hey..........so i forgot to write a wanted connections part to my bio bc i am a disaster n quite frankly i think tht’s very brave & sexy of me to be honest & vulnerable like tht..... anyway under the cut r some....u guessed it.....wanted connections!!! some r outrageous & some make me wna cry so hit me with ur best shot babey!!!!
EXES - she hs ended every relationship she’s ever had, usually without warning n often over text bc she cba to like... try? so naturally she’s on bad terms w most of her exes... imagine the messiest breakup of all time n she’s probably had it, so this plot cn be as wild as u want it.... alSO lola’s sexuality is rlly fluid n she is techinically pansexual bt doesnt care mch abt labels n by tht i mean if it’s human n of age with a pulse she’s like this vine of the shrieking deer n emits a mating call tht breaks thru the sound barrier
WE USED TO BE A THING BUT NOW WE’RE NOT OR ARE WE – i like this fr two reasons.....the first bein tht lola is generally an emotionless vacuum void of a person so if she were to actually like someone it wld jst be.... a Nightmare n im sure she wld sabotage in every way possible..... n the other reason is tht if it were flipped n like ur chara ws the one chasin lola it cld jst be a rlly funny dynamic of her like.....hookin up w ur character n then being like alright...........farewell, cowboy... n strutting shamelessly into the night
I HATE U – fr some reason lola jst despises ur chara like......moreso than most ppl. it’s nt uncommon fr her to launch small rocks at them if they get within fifteen feet of her, n once she printed pictures of ur chara n scribbled out their teeth n wrote ‘tasteless neophyte .. erectile dysfunction ? maybe’ regardless of whether or not ur chara has male reproductive organs n pasted it in all the bathrooms on the third floor of watt hall while playing the baby driver soundtrack
COMMON CUSTOMER - so lola is a stripper (fr now i might... change her occupation kasjfh bt maybe not idk) bt perhaps ur chara frequents the club she works at n they’ve developed a weird kind of friendship......like they live these separate lives at night n dont talk at all if they see each other in passing at uni..... secrets!!! lov those
tw: violence, robbery
I THINK WE WITNESSED A CRIME - so i hav this hc tht lola is jst frequently in the wrong place at the wrong time so maybe ur chara n her were either hanging out or....literally jst happened to be in the same ihop when all hell broke loose n either someone ws robbed at gunpoint or they r pretty sure they witnessed a kidnapping or.... something extremely dramatic lik tht n now they’re both a bit scarred n Dont Know How to Process
tw: violence, mental illness
NOSEBLEED CLUB - lola’s pretty prone to violent outbursts jst.. bc of her childhood n general... mental state tbh. this cld be a plot where either ur chara gets into an altercation w lola or.. breaks up a fight between her n someone else bt obvs it wld b... max drama n a darker plot but wld be... fun to write sakfhsfhj
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497.
5000 Question Survey Pt. 25
2301. Who is the hottest celebrity you can think of?
i honestly don’t have many celeb crushes anymore.
2302. Have you ever been to the following diaries(on opendiary.com)? If yes, what do you think..if no, then based on the name, does it sound interesting to you?
Hicks:
Shukhevych:
Cinderella:
Oliver:
A tinfoil valentine:
Burning River:
joebeginswithajay: i hate these questions.
2303. Do you ever get so nervous that you can't even think?
opposite actually. i’ll get so nervous that all i’ll do is overthink.
2304. Do you sing when there is no music?
not often.
2305. Would you rather cast a spell or say a prayer?
say a prayer. don’t wna fuck with the supernatural.
2306. Why does the US dollar bill have a pyramid on it?
no idea.
2307. Who was the best political leader in history and why?
tbh i don’t have enough knowledge to answer this.
2308. What was the first sex toy you ever used?
haha who knows. i’m sure people got creative.
2309. If you hated a book, would you burn it?
no.
2310. What are your feelings about pornography?
i don’t really watch it. some of it can be really demeaning to women, but as long as all actors are consenting, getting paid well and are safe then whatever.
2311. What are your feelings about people who are against pornogrophy?
that’s cool, i respect everyone’s opinion.
2312. If you could dance with anyone in the world right now, who would it be and what song would you dance to?
my boyfriend. we’d milly rock hahaha.
2313. What is your favorite flavor of schnapps?
butterscotch.
2314. Finish this sentence your own way. There are two types of people in the world...
those who do surveys, and those who don’t.
2315. What have you saved since elementary school?
a lot of my awards funnily enough.
2316. Have you ever won an award?
yes.
2317. Are you more:
good or evil? good.
wise or foolish? foolish.
safe or dangerous? safe.
satisfied or envious? envious.
honest or decietful? honest.
faithful or perfidious? faithful.
sane or mad? sane.
strong or weak? weak.
enigmatic or plain? plain.
aggressive or peaceful? in between.
brave or timid? timid.
humane or cruel? humane.
critical or appreciative? appreciative.
temperamental or calm? calm.
sad or happy? happy.
normal or unusual? normal.
2318. How do you feel about Terri Schiavo?
who?
2319. Do you feel more connected to the sun or the moon?
sun.
2320. Do flaws make people interesting to you?
not all of them.
2321. Who is your favorite historical figure?
frida kahlo.
2322. White bread or wheat bread?
white.
2323. Would you rather never have sex again or have sex once with a walrus?
ummm. not sure..
2324. Would you rather sky dive or deep sea dive?
maybe deep sea tbh. i’d hate to do either though.
2325. What is the kinkiest thing you've ever done?
done it in public.
2326. What is your favorite pick-up line?
i hate pick up lines.
2327. Do you usually do things fast or right?
if i know how to do it well, i’ll do it fast.
2328. What will the most common halloween costume be this year?
it was eleven this year.
2329. What was it last year?
harley quinn.
2330. Is love a choice or something that can't be helped?
both. but once you’re in love it’s hard to get out of it.
2331. What is your preferred method of birth control?
the pill.
2332. Is there someone you see everyday (or sometimes) that you would like to hug and talk to but you just don't know them well enough?
no lol.
2333. Are you or have you ever been in a band?
no.
2334. Here are 4 statements about me. Only one of them is true. Which one is it?
a. I lost my mind doing drugs.
b. I've been arrested before.
c. I have 9 cats. <---- this.
d. I have a children's book published.
2335. What do you think of the smashing pumpkins?
nothing.
2336. Would you wear a thong bathing suit in public?
nooo.
2337. Hello I love you won't you tell me your name?
no.
2338. If you had to be surgically attached at the hip for two years to either Britney Spears, George W. Bush or an ugly creepy troublesome but nice troll, who would you pick and why?
britney because why not.
2339. Let's assume that there is a "meaning of life," a reason for humans to be here on this planet. Would you give up both of your legs and one of your arms if it would mean everyone else would learn the meaning of life?
no. the mystery of it is better.
2340. If you could meet God and talk to him for 5 hours, -or- find out whether or not there is intelligent life on other planets and make contact with them, which would you pick and why? (Note: If you meet God, you will never find out if there is intelligent life on other planets, so you can't ask God if aliens exist. Also, you would get no proof that you had talked to him or her. And finally, if God doesn't exist then you don't get to meet him or her!).
i’d find out whether or not there’s intelligent life on other planets. i don’t want to choose god and then find out he never existed.
2341. Sixteen Candles, Pretty in Pink, or the Breakfast Club?
breakfast club.
2342. Before you read this question, pick a person from your life, any person. (You have to be thinking about someone before you continue!). Would you rather have the ability to watch that person for one hour per day, or would you rather have that person watch you for one hour per day? Who is it and why? (you pick the hour - they don't know that they are being watched - it's like there are invisible TV cameras following them around)?
i’d rather watch my boyfriend for an hour a day. i like my privacy.
2343. Would you rather be guaranteed to have your dream job or never be heartbroken?
i’d rather take my dream job with the possibility of getting heart broken.
2344. Have you thought about death today?
no.
2345. What is your favorite breakfast?
a big breakfast. eggs, bacon, hash browns, pancakes.
2346. What is your favorite classic movie?
sound of music.
2347. Gold or silver eyeshadow?
gold.
2348. Are you the life of the party?
no.
2349. Do you wish you were?
no.
2350. Sdrawkcab daer uoy nac?
yes.
2351. If you realize that a student at your school or a colleague from your job has plagiarised part of their work from the internet. What do you do?
i’d approach them first to discuss it.
2352. What does your computer look like when you aren't looking at it??
idk.
2353. If you aren't looking at it, how do you know it's still there when your back is turned?
i wouldn’t know.
2354. If you hit an animal with your car would you get out to try and make sure it was okay?
it depends what animal tbh. i’d be wary about getting out if it was a predatory wild animal.
2355. If it was someone's cat (collared with address) would you knock on their door and appologize for hitting the cat?
yes.
2356. How do you feel about the people who are teased in high school suing the bullies who teased them for emotional damage?
that’s cool. i didn’t know it was a thing.
2357. Do you have an interest in any of the following:
guns:
explosives:
marilyn manson:
trench coats:
the mafia:
death:
satanism:
nazis:
that doom game: none of these.
2358. Do you believe that people live in their own worlds or realities or do you think we all share the same world/reality?
i’m sure there’s people out there that live their own reality.
2359. Do you believe that Nazism was a characteristically German thing, or do you think a similar type of government could spring up in any country?
not sure.
2360. Is your diary in the internet archive wayback machine (http://www.archive.org/web/web.php)?
idk.
2361. When do you get your most peaceful and satisfying sleep?
when i’m really tired and it’s dark and quiet af.
2362. What thought gets you out of bed in the morning?
if i have something important to do.
2363. Do you get along better with guys or girls (as friends)?
it honestly depends on one’s personality.
2364. What does tx81z stand for?
no clue.
2365. How many points is the letter Z worth in Scrabble?
8 or 10? i forgot.
2366. In poker, which hand is better: four of a kind or a straight?
four of a kind.
2367. What is the official language of Australia?
english.
2368. On what continent would you find British Columbia?
north america.
2369. Have you been to homestarrunner.com?
no.
2370. What promise could you never keep?
something that meant life or death.
2371. No cat has 8 tails. Every cat has one tail more than no cat.
How many tails does every cat have?
one.
2372. What are you a member of?
my work’s union lol.
2373. If you and your mate were stranded at sea on a scuba diving trip like in the movie Open Water, how would you survive?
fml no idea, best thing to do is keep swimming until we see land.
2374. Do you feel confident that you would know what to do under emergency circumstances?
not at all.
2375. Have you ever been stood up?
i don’t think so. i’ve been flaked on but i’ve never been somewhere waiting for someone and they never showed.
2376. Use a simile to describe yourself.
cbf.
2377. Good. Now use a metaphor.
no.
2378. Have you ever had an unusual piercing?
nope.
2379. Have you ever experienced culture shock?
nope.
2380. Imagine you were trapped in one of the world trade center towers on 9/11/01. Who would you call and what would you say to them in those last few minutes?
definitely my mum or dad.
2381. Do you ever go to school or work when you feel like you do not look your best??
yes.
2382. Does doing this effect your whole day?
not really.
2383. What was the last movie you watched and what did you learn from it?
i forgot.
2384. Do you believe that everyone who doesn't believe in your religion is going to hell?
nope.
2385. What is the best thing about winter?
cuddling.
2386. Do you ever shovel your neighbor's walk?
no lol.
2387. How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
half the time.
2388. Have you ever looked back at someone you loved and wondered 'what attracted me to THEM?'
haha sometimes.
2389. What do you think of Drew Barrymore?
no opinion. i did like her netflix show though.
2390. Name one thing you refuse to ever do.
bungee jump.
2391. Name one place you refuse to ever go.
north korea.
2392. Do you think people see you more as who you are or what you are?
what.
2393. Pick 3 random letters:
sex.
Now think of the first 3 things that pops into your head that starts with each letter.
sex, electricity, xylophone.
2394. Do you dress more revealing or more to cover up?
depends. i do both.
2395. What does it take to be a 'real gentleman'?
be kind, charming, respectful.
2396. Where would you go if you were going somewhere you don't usually go?
the beach lol.
2397. On the first sept 11th anniversary, the new york lottery's winning numbers were 9,1 and 1. Do you believe this is fate, coincidence or a conspiracy/plan?
how can there be two 1′s in the lottery?
2398. Have you ever noticed that there is a lie in the middle of the word believe?
ha ha ha.
2399. When (and if) people (or animals) go to heaven, do they become angels?
i guess we’ll find out.
2400. What is your most important body part?
brain.
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