#i’m just too in my head tbh

[pookie-boo]

<3

#pooh txt #i’ve really abandoned yall over here #i say imma tag shot but never do it #’’can i finna find my time?’’ - jungkook (lmao) #maybe? lol we’ll see #i legit got a alien story for you guys #and a werewolf one #i’m just too in my head tbh

[stuckinapril]

A big part of turning 21 and going through that whole thing really was realizing that the idealistic friendship dynamics I’ve always daydreamed over in my head don’t exist & that in reality most friendships you’ll cultivate in your life will be a series of compromises. And maybe like 1 to 3 ride or die friends at BEST that shit is so rare and it gets rarer the older I am

#And I’ve always been a friendship girl like I’m a hopeless romantic but I’m just as much if not more of a hopeless platonic #I’ve really had to temper my expectations lately and honestly I’ve also been sequestering myself more as a result of it #Idk if I’m adjusting to this revelation well tbh I feel like I’m disillusioned w most of my friends lately #And it causes me to burn out and be a shitty friend to them in turn too #It’s just a never ending cycle of me not admitting to myself that maybe that glove doesn’t fit #And I’m quite literally forcing it onto my hand and it’s cutting off my circulation #But I’m too sentimental of my glove to just stop wearing it . Idk if this makes any sense but it does in my head

[hawnks]

dabi considers it a privilege to walk your drunk ass home. literally has to fight down a smile the whole way there.

#he’s so happy abt it #like he doesn’t understand it himself but the fact that you trust him….. #makes him feel feelings #helps you get out of your dirty clothes and cleaned up and ready for bed too #makes you a hot pocket or something #let’s you play with his hair and press messy kisses against his cheek #tw alcohol #in the tags: #hi I’m dwunk #tonight was so fun!! #i went to a party at a friends house and then I went to see another friends group play at a local dive bar #i fink I have a wittle crush on him tbh #he’s an IT head for my school and he’s been helping out in my program specifically lately #he’s also a professional DM #and he plays the fiddle in a bluegrass group #i have such a weakness for weirdos idk idk #anyway akskdkdkd #it was so fun to just hang out and be silly #missed it lately #silliness is so essential to life #silliness and the strongest margaritas I have ever experienced sjjsjdjd

[kaseyskat]

related to my other post about sparrows unhealthy devotion. i cannot stop thinking about how fucked up it is that like. sparrow goes along with larks plans because at least he can be there to tone down the worst of it and he truly believes lark would do it himself if sparrow openly disagreed. and then lark MAKES bad plans because he’s so convinced that he’s irredeemable that it gives him the grace to make bad decisions for the sake of the people around him- he can be the one to take on the burden because he doesn’t have a chance at being a better person. and to lark, sparrow helping him is proof that it’s working. and to sparrow, helping lark is keeping him from losing his humanity altogether even if sparrow doesn’t agree with larks decisions. and together if they would just fucking communicate-

#dndads #kasey rambles #sorry. it’s 3am and i’m emotional #sparrow oak garcia #lark oak garcia #dndads spoilers #i think we’re about to see that unhealthy devotion from sparrow #where like. not his plans not his decision but he’s going to go along with it to keep lark from doing it alone #so he will get equally blamed #and like tbh i think that’s a fandom thing too #hard to blame lark when everyone knows making bad decisions is in his nature #so we don’t get mad at him we just get mad at sparrow for enabling it #idk. it’s in my head

[fushigurro]

been going through it with some anxiety today so i’m just gonna digitally scream for a moment to let it all out. don’t mind me

*inhale*

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

#rambles. #i’m trying not to let myself withdrawal into my head too much and get detached. so here i am being goofy #*withdraw #just a weird off day. hoping tomorrow is better!! #tbh i think it’s the season change reminding me of some shit #gotta ride it out and take care of myself

[katzenkarussell]

Turo and Sada continue to wear their wedding rings despite their split in hopes to mend what they had one day. They try rationalize it to themselves that they continued wearing it out of habit.

#lakehouseshipping #I’m rotating these two in my brain like rotisserie #tbh I feel like they actually wouldn’t get married cause they are too busy #or their wedding is signing the papers before heading to work #OR it’s a ‘for later’ after arven is born plan #no matter why the reason one left (eebie deebied or genuinely walking out) the ring STAYS ON #and the cats go round and round #I’m a whole ass adult on a Pokémon trip since pla lmao #arven never questions it because it’s always been a thing ™ or just thinks it’s a fashion choice #claves says nothing when he sees

[bastardcherub]

I think I’d make for a cute puppy!!!!!!!

#don’t be fooled I DO bite!!!!! >:) #but mainly out of excitement tbh #I don’t exactly behave well but I have theee cutest puppy dog eyes You can’t be mad at me I love You I didn’t mean anything by it 🥺🥺🥺 #angel art #I woke up with a flash of inspiration for this and now I’m nearly late GEVEJDJKGKG #I HAD TO DRAW IT!!!! #JUST LOOK AT ME!!!! #IM SO *CUTE*!!!!! #play with meeeeee #give me head pats and pull me close on my leash? 🥺 #I’ll give u lots of puppy kisses #everywhere #👀👀👀 #might get a bit too excited tho no promises I’ll be good #hehehehehe

[idsb]

My brain is going a million miles an hour in a million different directions and this sucks so bad

#so our landlord in QLD is selling his house #which means we all have to leave #which tbh if that wasn’t the case #with everything happening in my head I might have just stayed here #I am SO stressed abt money from the kangaroo #I haven’t secured a job in Melb like id hoped #it seems like there’s not so much for me there anymore #cause it’s just too stressful to now find a job I’ll only have for like a month and a half #but also I already quit my job here #and my bf is coming to Melb so I have to be there now #but I’m also stressed about finding housing cause it’s not as easy when you’re not in a backpacker beach town #idk wtf to do #I don’t wanna leave the beach being 2 min from my house or the tiny little town that feels like my home now #I just got added into a giant group chat with tons of acquaintances etc #it took so long to BUILD what I have here #and now that I’ve finally got it I’m just leaving? #what the fuck #it’s so stupid #like I don’t WANT to leave #but I also want to have more experiences in Australia than just this one #and tbh REALLY the problem is I don’t want the time constraint of having to leave in March and only having spent 6 months here #like my bf and I agreed on #it’s just too short and the horizon is finally just stretching out before me #but I think it’d destroy our relationship if I stayed longer #because it’s been Too Much for him #which sucks #in a vacuum I would stay #for the full year #but I like #can’t. and tumblr has imposed a tag limit??? so I have to shut up now

[coldbrewnette]

Resisting the urge to invite my old crush to a baseball game

#idk why I randomly got this thought in my head #there’s a chance he’ll say no of course but tbh I do think he had feelings for me too at some point in time #there’s just some things he said/did that have always stood out to me #my feelings aren’t the same as they were all those years ago and I’m sure his aren’t either #but I would be lying if I said I didn’t have some curiosity/intrigue about it all #it just feels like there were a lot of things left unsaid idk #I’m older now he’s older now thinking of what any kind of dynamic would look like for us now is haunting me #diary

[lesbianyosano]

i will never be able to draw dazai the way i actually think he looks like not bc of lack of skill but bc it’d be sooo boring

#bc in my head he looks bland as fuck #like yes he’s attractive extremely so but in a way where it’s almost. too much??? #like his face is symmetrical and his smile it’s perfect and it’s unnerving #like with celebrities they’re good looking yes but it’s inhuman almost they’re attractive but sanitized even when sexy #and there’s sth just kind of dead in his eyes when you really look so no matter how charming he is it comes across as fake and disturbing #this uncanny valley he’s not real he looks like every beauty standard to a point where it’s just soo boring #and i just can’t bring myself to draw him like this bc i enjoy messing with designs too much and i love adding little features #plus i try to make his skin a little darker but realistically i imagine hes very pale and fair #but i don’t want him to beee not him and not any of the japanese characters tbh #i’m still not super good at picking skin tones but i’ve been getting better i think #the problem is bc i use an off white background and color the skin first it looks very dark and then after i put hair color in place it #suddenly starts to look much paler and it’s really frustrating #anyway i just think thematically he should be very conventionally attractive to a point where it’s unnerving and sanitized due to #it’s restraint #does this make sense #txt.

[tenitchyfingers]

There’s something so beautiful and special and melancholic about Beautiful Night too. Like… Linda being in it just shortly before she passed 💔 but also Ringo being in it, the melody and the switch from one section to the other, Paul’s voice… I can’t. What a song. What an album.

#and now it switched to House of Wax #I can’t get any working done today I’m just so deep in my feelings #thank you Paul #macca #going insane about Paul’s songs for 2 months steady #and every day I wake up with one of his songs in my head randomly #listen I grew up on a steady diet of Robbie Williams and I love him deeply #but I think Paul officially takes the spot #I mean I relate to Robbie’s songs way more #but like. the music is just so much better tbh #like there are 2 Robbie albums I ADORE #Escapology and the Greatest Hits #with Paul I love… nearly everything I heard #Robbie my love I still love you so much #I just… gotta love my Beatle baby now ok #and I gotta go see him live too #saw Robbie twice and it was great #now I’m really anxious to go see Paul at least once #god I hope I’ll make it in time before- #nope not gonna say it

[stoneshipper]

every time i get sick i remember why sickfic is one my favorite genres.

#brought to you by me waking up with joint flare ups and head issues #my brain has been unkind to me since my cfs on tuesday #or was it on monday? #in any case. it’s been unpleasant #this is why i love imagining my f/os being happy and willing to help me when i’m sick #it happens often (chronic illness) and each time I just want to imagine them being helpful #bc i’ve felt like a burden for being sick for too long !! and imagining my f/os wanting to help has made it better !! #i no longer feel that way !! now i go into being sick by thinking ‘wow #my f/os would be here for me.’ #and that’s everything to me tbh #anyway #cas chatters! ☆

[undyinglantern]

when you’re so shit at Spanish that it literally doesn’t even occur to you how to pronounce this word until looking at the wiki 👍🏼

#though the most I’m familiar with the word when it comes to starting a car [insert all the times ive heard family say they have to #'arrancar el carro']. and like I know nothing about cars so bare with me in the way I’m gonna explain this but #when the engine won’t start so you open the hood and connect wires from the car that won’t start to one that works fine #anyways also very stupid of me considering I HAVE heard the term espada in terms of this series before #now I’m curious how arrancar is gonna be pronounced once I get that far #bc I was trying to guess and in my head I kept going Aron-kur(?) #but like knowing how 2000s anime pronounce jp works I wonder if they’ll butcher esp one too #are they gonna say ah-rahn-kar properly? cmon there’s a half Mexican guy in the series you can do this #<-(Falsely optimistic) #BUT ALSO IN MY DEFENSE i had never actually heard the word sword (espada) irl growing up #but my understanding of spanish is all sorts of fucked up tbh #like the first time i had champurrado i freaked out wtf i was getting this thick chocolate drink and not a hard giant cookie (champurrada) #my parents never said chancla they said chancleta #i had no idea a chicote was a whip until i looked it up later in life. i thought it was a belt which just happened to be made of leather.. #saying as someone whos parents didnt threaten them with a belt or sandals but A FUCKING WHIP. APPARENTLY. #papote instead of pajilla (later found out i was mispronouncing even that my whole life bc its actually pOpote) #and pelo colocho instead of chino are the other 2 big commonly spoken differences

[catcze]

Oh man the brain is not in a good place rn ⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️

#「 🐈‍⬛ 」 strawberry.milk #I don’t Even know if it’s actually a big deal or if I’m just paranoid of making mistakes and am blowing it out of proportion in my head ⁉️⁉️ #fuck man I hate it when this happens because it keep me wide awake and second guessing everything I’ve said and done the entire day #LMAOOOOOO #accidentally offending/hurting someone because I intended my statement to b a joke and it ended up landing poorly is literally a nightmare. #and if I realize to late I’m always so scared that they secretly hate me then and that they never want to talk to me again. #I’ll spend my whole day second guessing everything I’ve said and done and ill blow it out of proportion and I’ll think that every thing #that I’ve done has hurt or offended someone in some way and that sucks #it makes me want to rip my skin off lowk ⁉️ like I hate the thought of offending someone just from my negligence tbh #HI This is a cry for help if I ever say or do something stupid please tell me so I can remedy it and peacefully solve stuff and not #find out too late and go insane with doubting myself and convincing myself I’m a terrible person HAHHAHAH #if I ever take too long to respond. or if I delete a reply/chat I’ve sent days after I sent it. that’s why HHAHAHHAHHAHAHA

[hinakyuu]

ever feel so unfunny :/

#honestly sometimes i feel too boring to be on this hellsite #i just don’t have the same wit or snappy humor as some of the other ppl here #i get some asks that i genuinely don’t know how to reply to lmao #i’m only 22 but i feel sorta ancient not being able to keep up with certain jargon #and then i spiral and think like. maybe no one wants to talk to me bc i’m so fucking awkward #i can’t leave my own blog damnit 😭 #i already abandoned my last one but i never had a problem talking to ppl on there so idk #tbh the plan for this blog when i got into hockey was to be a… (this is stupid) lone wolf #just drop some gifs. not get involved otherwise or else i’ll become too invested in how well my blog is doing #when i literally want to not care and just let it be whatever it wants #but some of the ppl i met on here are so nice even if our friendships are so new #i guess i wish i was more interesting or had better things to say. it takes so much brain power sometimes #but live-blogging is easy since i just type whatever pops into my head and then hit post lmao #i should sleep but here i am making gifs to avoid my problems instead 🤡

[ehnrat]

I love wearing my clown pants and if I could find a matching suit ? Brother, I’m gonna dedicate one day of the week called Clownery Day and go loose on the streets

#the pants have POCKETS too and so nice to just walk around with my hands in em #I need a whole dedicated clown fit tbh it’s a lot of fun #today is Clownery Day cuz I am heading out for who knows how long but boy I’m chilling #ehn txt