#i'm not in it for the squee of omg cute baby!!

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Not exactly a dadstarion truther either (mostly bc it took me a while to actually warm up to the idea and also hes NEVER having kids with my durge, only my tav (can you imagine this man parenting a Bhaalspawn? A dhampir Bhaalspawn?? Nonono.)) But I do find something a little compelling about the thought of this man who a) has had absolutely nothing of his own for as long as he can remember and b) sees himself as worthless and irreparably fucked up creating this tiny new person? Like, they're part of him, he made this precious little creature (with the person he already loves most)? This soft and innocent thing? (Which he would waffle awfully between wanting to keep innocent for as long as possible but also making sure they know about life's horrors so they can avoid them) Like sure the baby version is annoyingly loud and can't do anything and also gross and smells but he can teach the toddler to bite people. He is the absolute worst enabler, spoils the kid rotten. Teaches them to steal and pick locks and just lets them get away with murder. Parent #2 has to do all the actual parenting part cuz damn he's not doing the discipline thing at all.

Also the vain part of him likes looking at his kid and sort of seeing some of his face in them, since he can't use an actual mirror.

Well he'd be cured by the time he has the kid or soon after in my canon, so that last part wouldn't apply for me.

And yeah, when I say that I'm not a dadstarion truther I don't mean that I don't see it happening ever, but more that to me, that first step in itself is the one that I see as least likely.

Because I can accept that he would learn to love the kid, that he would care about it and spoil it. I can also accept (and would gladly explore) him having a complicated relationship with the kid, either early on in a postpartum depression sort of way, or further down the line in a "I can't find common ground with my teen/young adult" sort of way (or both lbr).

The problem, to me, is that I don't see Astarion going "let's have a kid!" I don't see him genuinely wanting one, and I don't see him finding any reason to lie about wanting one, and I don't see Hira believing any of those lies even if he does try. It's really the initial hurdle. The rest I'm happy to make as dysfunctional and weird as it would realistically be when a guy who shouldn't be a dad becomes a dad. One of the reasons I came up with Critter is because I find it compelling how much Astarion is not a dad guy, and how that would fuck up a person like Critter. That's juicy stuff. And also a way for me to work out my own daddy issues I guess lmao.

But getting that started? Actually inventing a reason for how Astarion would even agree to it? That's where I struggle. And that's why I'm torn. Cuz I do want to stay true to my own interpretation of a character, while also wanting to create a new character and put them both (and also Hira) in situations.

Like I'm happy for all the dadstarion peeps who have cool dhampir girlies running around on adventures and I'd love to join them, but I also think that if I were true to Astarion's characterization, that kid would have issues. Like maybe a lot of them.

#bg3 #i'm not in it for the squee of omg cute baby!! #i do not care about babies or kids in general it's not why i'm here #i have no parental instincts and do not personally plan to ever reproduce #nor am i in it for the nuclear faerûnian family fantasy #i'm in it for the 'my traumatized parents love me but couldn't help but traumatize me in small ways just by being themselves' #'cuz parents are also people and maybe they regret having me and maybe i made their lives worse' #'but they also can't imagine it without me because i'm part of them and they're part of me' #ya feel me??? #like yeah i imagine most of the kid's life is excellent and both parents love them v much #but having astarion as a parent would defo do things to your brain that maybe shouldn't be done #hira would be passable if paired with a normal person but they wouldn't tolerate anything but complete devotion to their child #(which astarion fundamentally can't provide imo) #which is also bad cuz bby ur shutting down all communication and compromise and making asty feel like shit #like it would be very dysfunctional for a long while until the kid was like older toddler-age maybe #until the point where astarion would realize there's a person in there and not just a weird crying shitting bag of meat that his partner #inexplicably values over him #once that realization hits him i think he'd do way better #but until then he's fucked

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Movie Watch

Bumblebee

(six years after release, however long since the DVD came out, FINALLY watching this)

This is going to be strictly a collection of my immediate reactions to the film because DAMN I HAVE NOT ENJOYED A TF FILM LIKE THAT SINCE '07. With less squick-humor too!

Please don't harsh my squee. I really, really loved this one.

OMG. ALL THE RECOGNIZABLE CONS AND BOTS! Poor son had to deal with me naming them off Prime doing Jet Judo

John Cena is a mess

BABY! Bumblebee, you were never meant to fight a seeker one on one Nice moves though MY BABY! Oh my poor baby. BOOYAH! That's my BOY!

Oh trivia: Bell, Burns' (Cena's) friend on the exercise? Is Aldis Hodge's brother. (he was in "The Jailhouse Job" too)

Real dysfunctional family vibes there

Soundtrack is rocking.

CLIFFJUMPER! NO

Shatter is fascinating though.

I'm loving Gwen Stacy, I mean, Charlie Alright, at least I'm not calling her Kate Bishop

Mom and Ron are so 80s. In their parenting.

OH she stayed! She saw he was having trouble.

"Tell me things. Sometimes." YOU DON'T LISTEN MOM!

BUMBLEBEE, so scared!

OH! THE FACE TO THE HANDS

I think Charlie is awesome, BTW

oh dear. Arriving Decepticon now? Okay, that was a little gross, but Roy vaguely deserved it at least? And the woman survived.

Okay Bumblebee and dogs is just a recurring theme? Charlie explaining the need to stay hidden. BEE! Silly boy. Hiding his head in the sand

"Nonbiologicals" THEY ARE BIOLOGICALS, JUST A DIFFERENT BIOLOGY Oh GREAT. We're going to go with the deception part of Decepticon.

Optimus's message. OH HONEY. HELLO RAVAGE.

Bee keeps flinching so much. His PTSD. It is bad. LOL. I said "Not a Smiths fan" before Charlie did. +wibbles so hard+ Bee has his first human.

(listening to Charlie talk about losing her dad, hit son and me both. Him for the recent loss of his, me for coming up on Mom's deathiversary)

Memo is adorable in a particular way that is so the 80s oh Charlie is a teenager! So much.

Okay Sector 7's Powell is WORSE than Simmons was in the first movie.

Do not be stupid teenagers. "You Got the Touch", really?

Okay, Bee, a little much there. Oh dear. Cops. I love Bee, but boy he is very young (and damaged memory processors)

OH NO. MAKING HIM STAY HOME. This is going to go so badly. OH NO. NO NO NO BEE! And now the 'cons know.

Mom needed to hear all that.

OH JAYS, I actually had to look at the trivia to get that, BAD ASP. Judd Nelson - Hot Rod in the original '86 film / All the Breakfast Club spots in this

SHE'S DOING CPR! This is so The Abyss between Bud and Lindsey.

AND NOW IT IS IRON GIANT TIME! Very very good, well done.

okay the station wagon scene was cute

Okay, Charlie, honey? What in hell you think you gonna do? "I go, you stay" moment.

Bee against Dropkick DAMN BEE! Was Jazz your instructor? And Charlie to the rescue? She looks ... yep. Going after Shatter. Yep. Jazz taught Bumblebee how to fight, headcanon now. C'mon, Bee. HOLY SHIT! GREAT MOVE WITH THE CHAIN. AWWWWWW Bee saving Burns! And then, AND THEN! He took Shatter right out! Burns made the right choice.

And now, HOLY SHIT. They have to leave each other. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH (I feel bad for him having to deal with Sam after knowing Charlie.) MY HEART! SWEET! Nice car. Family reunion time. I APPLAUD the "not quite there yet" OMG I LOVED

And yeah, works better as a soft reboot than a prequel with that last scene Also, Bee-the-camaro riding alongside CLASSIC Semi that looked like PRIME of the cartoon? PRICELESS

#transformers #autobot bumblebee #bumblebee 2018

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Yo, Tumblr! Given that my previous attempt to capture the awesomeness of these trouserings resulted in grotty 'n' grainy, I decided to try again with (marginally) improved lighting conditions... together with the previously-effused-over, shimmery, baby pink Oliver Bonas cardi I scored in the post-Christmas sales.

See? Shimmery! You know how sometimes an item of clothing speaks to your inner tween on a really deep level? Well, this sweater brought two long submerged memories to the surface. The first is probably pre-tween, truth be told. I'm in my penultimate year of primary school and we pupils are encouraged to knit as many six inch squares for charity as we can during term time. These are duly sewn together to make blankets for folks in need and, suffice to say, it takes me months on end to knit a single bloody square. Be that as it may, one of my peers casts on some baby-pink wool onto rose gold metal needles. And as a child who has never been permitted to honour her girliness something about this combo just sends me into spun sugar frazzles of squee. Substitute rose gold for silver and I'm sure you get my drift. Then there's the buttons OMG. I'm 12 years old and diamanté jewellery is having a Moment, as it does every now and then. And I ask my dad if I can maybe have a diamanté something for Christmas. And because my dad is really good at presents I get a little drawstring bag full of sparkly nonsense. I don't remember all of it – my initials, a snowfllake, which I may even still have somewhere, and most definitely a star. Because it's the 70s and the Star Man will shortly be exhorting us to let all the children boogie. So, yeah, bit of a double whammy of nostalgia, this sweater.

I don't know about you, Tumblr, but the moment things start to look even a tiny bit spring-like, I start cruising my go-to websites to see what I might be wearing come the warmer weather. And Taking Shape never lets me down.

I especially love the one on the far right. And right now they've got 20% off.

I also keep finding myself drawn to this Twisted Wunder frock on ASOS...

I haven't a clue whether that collar will look absurd on me but there's only one way to find out.

Hey wanna see an epic Ubi photo-bomb?

Why, yes, he does know exactly how cute he is.

#Fatshion #OOTD #plus size style #older lady style #what i'm wearing #currently coveting #River Island #Oliver Bonas