#idk so much Lizard Lore exists only in my brain and nowhere else

[sparky-is-spiders]

So by the time they even meet Amaldyne will 1) have preconceived judgements (despises him) and 2) be in so deep with Eityr that neither of them have room for close relationships of any sort in their lives, but I think there’s an alternate universe where Leoshgon and Amaldyne date. It would HAVE to happen after her family dies and while Leo has the sword (aka when Amaldyne is enough of a control freak and Leo is at his most useful). But like. It definitely COULD.

I imagine it would be much like the Overseer’s relationship with Leo in terms of the dynamic, but the internal forces driving it would be different. The Overseer enjoys control and possession for its own sake. He likes that one of the most powerful forces currently at play belongs to him. Leoshgon is a tool and a possession, and a trophy, but the love goes beyond that. He’s a person who isn’t magically bound but chose to stay anyway, and the Overseer loves THAT most of all (I imagine some of that love fades after Leo loses the sword, which I think Leo would interpret as the Overseer seeing him as a tool, but is more the Overseer wanting a partner who chooses him). I think Amaldyne would lean less “posession” and mor “objectification.” Leoshgon would be, to her, an extension of herself and her values. Leo is in her corner. Leo is fighting her battles. For her cause. For HER. She loves that Leo never disagrees with her (or at least that he always sides with her in the end), that he’ll do anything for affection and validation. And even if parts of Leo want to be his own person (want to be a person) he loves having somewhere to belong and someone to love him, even if it means being a doormat for someone who’s love is very much conditional.

And I think that’s why, if Leo was in a relationship with Amaldyne instead of the Overseer when he gave up the godslayer sword, she would kill him for the betrayal when the Overseer would keep him for coming back at all.

#lemme just be pretentious about my lizards #does this make sense? #idk so much Lizard Lore exists only in my brain and nowhere else #and i don’t know how much people know/remember from my posts/can intuit based on context clues etc. #anyway for the record these relationships are both different brands of awful #like leo is fucked either way #honestly the only difference is that amaldyne theoretically gives him a moral high ground #because he isn’t fighting to bring the world under the control of a murderous autocratic necromancers #However much like eityr he does enable amaldyne’s worst impulses and feed her ends justify the means mentality #like fully uncritical of her even as she gets more self-serving and violent and questionable and rigid #idk if he’d return to her after giving up the godslayer sword #i feel like he’s pretty good at reading people he just has very skewed ideas of how relationships should work #so much like with the Overseer he’d probably get to the point where he realizes that his partner wants him Fucking Dead and abandon ship #(for the overseer the murderous impulse is an extension of love. for amaldyne it is Not) #should i tag for some kind of warning or something? i feel like i should #tw abuse #abuse tw #idk if that’s the right tag but i feel like better safe than sorry #because yeah these would both be TERRIBLE for leoshgon #anyway sorting tags #the lizard crew #amaldyne #amaldyne rotwing #leoshgon #leoshgon varmillius #the overseer #leoshgon/the overseer #leoshgon/amaldyne #<- not officially canon but a fun concept i like to rotate #i am but a scientist putting two chemicals into a beaker and seeing how they react <3