#idk. I’ve never felt like a key component of a workplace before

[idsb]

I do want to go home to my boyfriend and I do want to like, get to whatever my life is gonna be but the idea of hitting stop on my life here is making me feel sick. I have to quit my job in the next few days and after the birthday I’ve had I just. I don’t know. Like I do know but I can’t face it. And I also don’t know.

#didn’t really talk a lot about it because I was busy having fun #I just got so many gifts from my work and everyone that works in other bars on the street all made me a card #the owners of the bar got me stuff and like #idk. I’ve never felt like a key component of a workplace before #I’m always something on the side you know? #and that’s not guaranteed wherever I go #I have it here #I have so many people who love me here #I am integrated with LIFE #in a way I never have been in New York #I don’t feel like I’m living life trapped inside my own head #I want to be with my boyfriend I want to see what’s next #I can’t bear to let go of that #I can work in a bar anywhere #I can’t work in THIS bar on THIS street anywhere