#if i had only tried harder for gcses then alevels would have been easier and if id studied at all during alevels maybe id have got into a

[youaremysunshine-court]

Highkey gonna cry I looked up this uni I have to go to on Insta and literally it looks like the worst fit for me

#might actually just take another gap year even if it makes me feel like a failure #do a metal working course in the village become a blacksmith #weld shit together for a living #i got rejected from my first choice and i never bothered looking at my backup option #bc i was so so so sure id get into my first choice #... #anyway #im probably gonna drop out in a week and then just take another gap year lol #its fine everythings fine #hey coach wymack ytf dont you come barrelling into my gym threatening me and giving me a safe space to study #lets be real even if he was fucking real i dont have the talent for it #its feeling a bit like i never tried hard enough so now my life is falling down around me and i have nothing to show for it hours #like #if i had only tried harder for gcses then alevels would have been easier and if id studied at all during alevels maybe id have got into a #good university and maybe if id got into a good university i wouldnt have to go to this one where ill feel like a sore thumb #god is that even the way that phrase is used #and maybe id be happier if only id worked harder to make my life better for myself like #learned something this year and uts that apathy will literally ruin your life #doesnt matter how much i write down my ten year plan if i dont care enough to keep it up in the present its all balls anyway