#if youve read the scholomance trilogy just look at el. thats me

[swordbreakerz]

Being aromantic and finding that out in ur 20s is soooooooo funny bc I met the 3 people I consider my soulmates (one of whom is now my qpp) in october of 2016, and both before and after this i dated a few people but as i grew closer and closer w this group and also came into my gender and sexuality over the yrs, id sometimes wonder why i didnt crave romantic fulfillment anymore, and not fantasize about having a long term bf or anything. It didn't really worry me? Like, I wasn't concerned about it, but I would go like huh wonder what's up w that. Oh well not my problem!, every now and then

And then thru making friends w a bunch of arospec folks I was finally like oohhhhhhhh it's because my emotional fulfillment needs are already met and these people and our friendship is an intrinsic part of my being and i love them more than i can ever hope to describe. Got it!

#and z speaks #its not like i didnt know what aromanticism was! i even id'd as ace for awhile! im not anymore but i was on those fringes right #and its bc im aro in the weirdest way possible #bc i loveeee love and romance and i enjoy dating! sort of! #im one of those ppl that skips right to the old marroed couple phase bc i Hate the casual small talk phase #and i get crushes on my friends a lot bc i have so much love in my heart to give #its just not like. romantic! #if youve read the scholomance trilogy just look at el. thats me #we're aro in the same way #ANYWAY im just thinking about non traditional love and affection and how id let my friend silver do martial arts on me if they werent at the #other end of the state #and how in love i am w my qpp. and my embarrassing crush on [REDACTED bc i KNOW nos js gonna see this. no one can know] is #the worst part about that crush is its probably like glaringly obvious to them and i dont care That much bc having crushes is fun #i dont intend to act on it im just vibing #but the thought. that they might know. little mortifying #if u read all of these tags ur owed financial compensation