#im getting off track i just hhhHHHNNNN

[eventually--darling]

usually i can just huff and move on over toxic behavior from a male lead but dammit the writers just had to make it so fucking complex and tragic and heartwrenching and deeply deeply embedded in the narrative

#you cant deny he treats her terribly sometimes #but you also cant deny how much he loves her #and how much of a good king he is trying to be #and IS #and how much he has respected her wishes despite being someone who could easily force her to do what he wants without much consequence #but still he sees his desires as ultimately more important. theyre the deciding factor #man #he just lives in an entirely different world than her #dont get me started on all the STRESS of the other plotlines lol like she's his ONLY #respite #so i feel like he sees it as justified.. like she swore loyalty to him and has stayed by his side for so many years #so why cant they be together ? why would she say no? if only to please him? #and you cant deny how much of this she has chosen as well #like so much of her story is about retaining agency #but she chose to serve him and protect him #and do whatever it takes to support him #but while she sees refusing to be his concubine as something that can coexist with her promise of loyalty #he doesnt #idkkkk #im getting off track i just hhhHHHNNNN #much to say much to think about #the red sleeve #kdrama posting