#im just embarrassing atp

[pekodayz]

help i forgot to share my insane spending on comms within the past month and a half

#jean’s isn’t done yet but that was like an unfinished piece that they didn’t care for so I snatched it with a big smile #I have other orders like uhhh roachgore and thatskidding eventually but like yeah I have many many many many many #these were all from mutuals so i am forever grateful i pay in embarrassment and out of love #it’s super EMBARRASSING😭comm ppl who Don’t know ososan so i just go to mutuals atp bc they’ve been exposed to whatever this ship is #i will get these as keychains very soon i have a problem but that’s okay i have money so im happy #every single time I commission someone osoaini I just say surprise me atp i just wanna see what ur brain thinks

[tkfluff-fanatic]

Sighs. Sighs so hard.

ZVONKO T. BLOKOVIĆ (OC) HEADCANONS.

50/50 switch

Ler

I can't believe I'm fucking doing this. Ok whatever.

He's a childish man expect childish shit from him

Also expect fake pity lolol

Probably laughs at (not along with) the lee. FUCK IBHATE HIM I HATE

Sorry.

Grinning the whole time too. Bastard

He looks scrawny as fuck but that man's a miner, he's strong! He'll pin the lee down if he must...Though he doesn't usually do that, thinks it ruins the fun. He only does it if he's aware there's a threat of being clocked in the face

For a whole ass 46 year old man he's way too keen to tkl his loved ones. Inconvenience him one bit and BAM. Will resort to it to win arguments

His main lee used to be his unnamed underdeveloped sibling, but nowadays it's Miłosz, his best friend and godfather

Despite everything he does not find it easy to say the word, especially not in Interslavic (his native language), so he'll tiptoe around it. Unless he's trying to be particularly awful to someone

I KNOW I've used this trope for a character like twice before but... he'll tell shitty jokes while getting someone because nobody will laugh at his semi-milleanial humour...they're all stereotype jokes too it's awful

He also uses tkls as a cheer up method

Lee

Refering to the last point, he does it because it works stupidly well on him

He's a runner. Pulls the unbeatable table move (hiding behind a table and circling it) if he's certain he can't outrun the ler

He's loud as is but has absolutely ZERO volume control the moment you lay a finger on him

It's unbelievably easy to fluster him?? Come on man get your shit together, you're 46, you've got a whole resistance movement to lead!

Related to the point above god FORBID you mention that, he'll die on the spot. Him, a whole ass grown man, a leader of the RESISTANCE MOVEMENT, brought down by a few pokes? Ridiculous!

Nicknames WILL kill him. I've been thinking so much about my friend saying Miłosz would call him Zvonek like?? He'd die on the spot (about time..)

Absolutely CANNOT handle what he dishes out, don't point it out though, he'll die on the spot (again)

A giggler, doesn't like his laugh though, thinks it sounds stupid

Fights like he's being MURDERED by the way, you've gotta pin him down or else he'll get away

He can easily push the ler off at all times, but he's afraid of hurting them, and as much as he doesn't wanna admit it he's having fun

^ another thing not to point out!

Aaand his chart.

#posad babbles #sfw tickle headcanons #headcanons #oc tag #Zvonko T. Bloković #Blockworld tag #Fucking shit. #I can't believe I'm doing this #FUCK #Sfw tickling #sfw interaction only #too much effort went into this formatting #if it fucks up im just committing suicide atp #actually embarrassing

[kavehater]

I wish I could inject pasilyo into my brain so I can have permanent happiness

#There’s this specific part of the song #It srsly alters my brain chemistry #Anyways #i hate tumblr sm #Idk like I Gen hate being on here sm #No matter what account I make no matter if I tell ppl about it whether I don’t tell ppl I just hate this place soooo much #Like if I have a following it sucks because it’s rlly lonely if I don’t it’s still lonely and then if there’s nobody at all it’s lonely #Loneliness is what got me to discord boy so like :D #The fact I am genuinely missing him sm I’m gonna krill myself 😻🙏 #Also I think I hate talking to minors cause these kids be letting themselves get groomed all the time I’m so tired of seeing it #The creep in my course is being so weird to Raisa who is a minor … I can’t help but think it’s all my fault … I invited her to the pharm gc #To show her how messy it was …. #I didn’t expect her to follow and accept requests of everyone … #Anyways I just am so annoyed. Like I wish I could have one person just one where I can be confident in being their no.1 but every time I th #Think I’m maybe somewhere high up on someone’s list of important ppl I realise I overestimated my position even tho I’m rlly self conscious #And being myself down over that. Also I still hate Eid. I hate Eid sm. How do ppl genuinely enjoy Eid. Idk if I’ve ever been excited for Ei #It’s like I’m just suddenly getting more sick of ppl by the day. I Gen don’t like talking to ppl at all even tho I used to rely on talking #To others like its sustenance now it’s just such a hassle to me because I’m so sick of being unimportant to literally every single person I #Have ever known. Literally everyone except maybe dahlia idk. the only person who has never gotten mad/snapped at me o is dahlia #And knowing my luck that will soon be taken from me too. Anyways good riddance to tumblr i loathe this site and im sick of the mind games #All the time from just existing on here. Gen makes me feel ill. I’m so sick of that girl I like and sick of everyone. The only time ppl car #Is when I cause a scene. And ykw atp I loathe being showed sympathy and pity for these sorts of posts because it just feels like a big joke #Cause why couldn’t you just care when I was fine. Why do you ONLY care when I’ve had enough of your bad behaviour. How does one make someon #Like me go mad with all these things #Istg if I come back to this dumb site whether to this acc to the tora one or my other account everyone has permission to beat me up. #dora daily #Tldr;I HATE ppl and everyone ever + I’m just sick of pretending like everyone doesn’t suck cause how can ppl be so insufferable intolerable #Insane horrible in every way and ppl like them. How do they live with themselves when they’re this aggravating. Every day I hate ppl more #Because their mannerisms their everything is just so embarrassing. #Essay tags 😻😻😻

[barredandromeda]

nvm thats a white boy i dont want

#his bsf slurs up and down and threatens to rape everyone every other sentence and he laughs at that shit 😭 #im good! i do not need to hear more rape jokes or racist ass remarks from his friend 🙏 #embarrassing i ever liked him tbh he's literally just a mf boy. shouldve knownn ugh #hes probably gay too cause literally everyone we've liked since high school started whether it be boy or girl has been gay. #why do 3 of them start w the letter N #collecting the mf alphabet bro 😭 #hate this man now. not even pretty anymore his eyes arent dog sad theyre bugged out #need someone new asap 🙏🙏🙏 #other guy i thought a little ab is bound to be gay too atp i cant win 😭 #like em a little queer ig #post #erics tag #kindividual posting

[yandereshingeki]

writing fanfic is so hard sometimes cause i try my best to stay in my own corner but knowing i have mutuals and followers and other people i dont even know of looking at my fics is very embarrassing to me. Its very hard

#forest is sad #I think thats why its been real difficult to finish and post snything recently. I feel very inadequate and being bad at writing while havin #so many people SEE that writing is embarrassing. not to mentions stuff i write feels very personal to me #so i know if i posted it and it didnt get much of a response it would feel like such a kick to the gut #idk im just rambling on atp but im just embarrassed to be the writer i am. shameful #i feel like everyone around me is so cool and im just sitting here. a fruad #womp womp whatever ill go play my games now and cry about it or whatever idk

[sar3nka]

Local woman drinks an energy drink and is forced to take hydroxyzine 2 hours later because of a (cringe) panic attack. More news at 5

#what did i expect #i always loved the combo of calming meds and caffeine. sorry i guess. #so im kinda chillin #cringe either way im a hydroxyzine junkie atp. cant function without it #i really try trust me 😭😭😭 yesterday i didnt take it for sleep #ended up getting Scary Delusions at 5 am. or 4 am. whatever #if i dont take it ill just wake up over n over again its so embarrassing nothinv helps me anymore #im on inhuman levels of stress and fear and idk where it even comes from 💀💀💀

[mooodyblue]

at 1k on a fic rn but i'm just now realizing it's exactly like another fic (cough call me cough) i wrote but shorter with slightly better writing 🥹

#im gonna keep writing it but #damn #not a single original idea in my head apparently #which is funny because i started writing this when i was crying over how i wish i could have a conversation with him #to be one of the girls he brings to his hotel room just to talk #we'll see if i ever post it atp bc this is very embarrassing

[jrueships]

Idk if Rodgers even has officially been traded to the jets tho so hm

yeah, that's why im not saying much rn, but sauce seems to have his celebrations already set of course. hopefully, if it does fall thru and isn't just hopeful talk sprung in infancy, none of sauces friends or himself get mixed up in the trade 😭 that would be really embarrassing

#and stupid since rodgers looks like micah bell rdr postgame rn and sauce is but a wee himbo bimbo #but anything can happen with trades #it aint official till the officiator sings !! #speaking of embarrassing arod could also just str8 up retire lmao like #idk what would be more humbling tbh... arod retiring or going to another team instead LMAO #both indicate we suck but idk which would mean more atp #anyways yea im just sitting here idling my first lap still while sauce does 50 mario kart victory laps #dancing all the way #probably goinng to get blue shell bombed a few times who knows #hm

[userdaisy]

apparently the new bp song is gonna sample paganini's la campanella 🤡

#light.txt #teddy..... pls stop you're just embarrassing yourself atp #pls dont commit sacrilege..... you have NO idea how disgusted eddy would be skjfdbkbgs #man does teddy even know how to violin #i played it before when i was 8........ slowed down a lot #ngl im actually shocked by 8yo me

[camncheesesandwich]

oh my god can irrelevant bitches just leave the dteam ALONE goddamn like i subscribed for CONTENT not them having to constantly try and clear up petty drama from people who obviously never had a true social interaction with a real person in the real world

#discourse #like cmon pls get a hold of yourselves its just embarrassing atp #im sooooo tired of it #seriously tho is it too much to ask for people to stop trying to drap them dowm so they can focus on doing their jobs instead of #trying to clear up this weeks so called controversy #sorry for the small rant i just now am emotionally invested in the tomfoolery thats happening

[aashiqq]

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#dni #its embarrassing to even exist atp #i need a brainwash i need a purpose #when i wake up tomorrow at 2 pm or smthn and i lie about it to my parents or dont show up for commitments and meetings tomorrow none of this #will matter ill have forgotten every single bit of it except my deep rooted misogyny #or other stuff that i dont or cant and wont tell #im a loser and probably a creep #the try hard guy who thinks he's natural and expects things to come to him that he's the main character fighting battles in his head but in #truth hes just alone and everybody's living their own life and nobody's watching him #hes so starved for attention hes becoming desperate #hes becoming a creep a guy he hated so much he could gut one out just a couple of years back #what happened to me? did i keep waiting for all those miracles to happen? for a lottery to strike? #wasnt it luck enough i made it this far without having my share of fucked up things life offers to every single person?????? #how did the things others brag about/take pride in became a point of embarrassment for me? something to hide from others #not to be shown to the world #fuck this shit I'm out

[pidgecv]

i drew him a bit feminine (and wrong) but yk what i’m not mad it looks p good just not how i’d like

gonna keep adding sketches as i do them

#cvdraws #i’m genuinely brainrotting over this basically oc again #i say basically oc bc he was a preexisting character #but he’s so far removed from canon by now that he is just my oc #i love him he is my son #bad things happened to him #but dw he gets a happy ending #i think this vers of the char is more mine than the original chars creator #so yeah i think it’s fair to say oc #but no i won’t be changing his name either bc i’m attached #i couldn’t change it if i wanted to atp #im ranting in the tags idk why i’m defensive over this #GUYS IM NOT CRINGE I PROMISE #PLEASE DONT THINK LOWER OF ME #i should turtlepost again that’s why ppl r here #idk why i get so much more embarrassed over this shit than tmnt #probably bc it’s way more cringe and ppl don’t really hate the tmnt fandom as much as they hate #my other fandoms #i hate talking abt my interests #exactly one person i know irl interacts w my tumblr #and i trust them and what happens on tumblr stays on tumblr #but idk i just hate things i do and like and talk about #there’s no better way to phrase it than i am cringe #i make myself cringe #i feel so much inexplicable shame when i enjoy harmless things #but i want to share what i draw too #i’ve considered not posting anymore #i’ve considered that a lot actually #we’ll see how it pans out #might help w my IMMENSE UNENDING ANXIETY

[dilfhos]

yall ever randomly hate being perceived? why I already wanna deactivate again 😔

#[ just in—☆ ] #ughhhhh #doesn’t help interactions are far n few #and coming from sexbots and/or minors #mostly #which means im not as good as i think dhffnjjxtg #its just embarrassing atp #PS IM SICK! #yayy we loveee having our immune system attacked over here🫶🏾 #probably caught it from the halls UGH #( or bronchasauras bc i do be smoking that pack #(bronchitis)

[peacesmith]

i’m coming out as an olivia rodrigo fan, not hiding it anymore 🫶

#idk i’ve just been a little embarrassed to admit it but idc atp #im speaking

[carrotpiss]

An attempt to get some thoughts feelings out of my system re the failed date

#genuinely embarrassed i still feel so upset about it again just a new wave of anxiety hit me this morning #i just feel so lost at how it ended up like that i thought i communicated clearly but obviously i didnt i said mid afternoon i let them know #when j was leaving like mid-afternoon literally is 3pm but maybe i shouldve just said yrah ill be around at half 3ish #and then they just left me waiting with no actual eta just repeated “not long now” for 2 hours #and then in the last 30mins were loke btw bunch of their friends joining eho dont have tix #and its like.. okay? atp ive been waiting so long it felt like i had to agree and its not like i object to others being there a bit #like we're primarily going to a gig nesr where thejr mates live i expect that i just wasnt expecting to get completely sidelined #and its like they were flirting with me all up until i said i was omw #i forgot it even was a date at one point until they themslef mentioned they were on a date w me to someone else #like i just dont understand what happened #like where did i go wrong #crouch speaks #i know the answer but still #i got hopeful. the one thing i shouldn't be. i for a moment thought we had a chance #and so life had to humble me bc i got thinking about thjngs i dont deserve and will never have bc im fundamentally broken and horrid and #unlovable and hideous #like idk why i thought this would result any differently #now i feel guilty and rotten #like fuck was i expecting too much was i been too dramatic to just have a bit of alone time with them just to het to know them a bit better #i dont know i dont know how this is supposed to work