#im sorry to be a hater but absolutely nothing has primed me to like remotely any of this. i feel bad not even trying to find some worth

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none of this writing has charming soap opera drama appeal i feel like im reading bad wattpad fanfic turned novel drama instead.

#im sorry to be a hater but absolutely nothing has primed me to like remotely any of this. i feel bad not even trying to find some worth #but i cant 😭 i just cant. i do think mike is fun though. some meaning there. #but i've been stuck in silver and bronze land and the last most recent run i reread was w.aid #i mean. i did just read some of so.ule's run. it was alright but i had to read a very select portion so. didnt help to build up with me #sadly. wasnt bad tho. but im like mannnn... i miss the current character voice im used to so i feel so Huh when im reading rn #bc those two matts feel quite different than the ones i am particularly fond of. which is like yes natural character development #but it also just feels So different. this is my own problem though #i have a very particular mix of matt character voice in my brain. silver/ very early bronze + n.ocen.ti + w.aid. this is my matt soup #so im still like. dumb as it sounds Adjusting! also b.en.dis resides in there too but is harder to remember #bc the last time i touched it really was in my freshman year of college. #so it's been a minute and is not quite within that soup but it's an underlying flavor. same w/ ann. though underlying in a different way #bc even tho i read this year it isnt the most Thorough sticking and super distinct to his voice (i have a very broad meaning when i say tha #but it is definitely an informative flavor. but soapy antics and happy matt are highly definitive of my current view #so im like huh. im not quite into grittier writings of matt yet. aside from like. be.nd.is. but i still dont find it the same brand of grit #ok rethinking even though i say it's not in there it is it's very much one of those things you dont realize is like something carrying #a lot of the flavor within the soup but if you took it away it would be mega lacking. ok. there #done with my soup metaphor. anyways. point is Im Still Trying To See How This Matt Works In My Mind #not bc im resistant (to s.oul.e. im highly resistant to z.da.rsk.y) to him. but it's like. it's not quite the best to work with all these #other variations and informative to my viewings. i know i said i was done with soup metaphor but i lied. it's like they arent. terrible. bu #and dont necessarily ruin the soup (im gonna be real and say this only applies to s.oul.e. the other guy is ruining the soup). but dont fit #the flavor profile of it very well. like it kinda works. but it throws it off. just a bit. NOW IM DONE. #static.soundz