#it's most definitely related to this whole honours debacle 🧍

[lenaluthoring]

whatever spectrum of emotions these convey is what i'm feeling rn

#i do not even know what to say #i am so overwhelmed #been feeling this indescribable emotion since the end of july #it's most definitely related to this whole honours debacle 🧍 #why can't i have one thing that comes easy in life...i am alwats fighting for my life just for a chance to do what i want #it's seriously so exhausting #you know that saying god gives his hardest battles to his strongest soldiers #i am not even a soldier of god and i am being given battles that i can barely get through #i suspect i will snap and go insane next yr if i still dont get the opportunities i want #i can only face so much rejection #there is literally nothing more i can do to boost my resume that doesnt involve extreme luck or being hired for a job in my field #and both of those things are so hard to come by for me 🫠 #📜