#its also an extremely cool subversion of heteronormativity because at first you assume that it all is exactly what it seems and that he

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(this is a repost because i think i accidentally deleted the original post :/)

fun (actually quite sad and not fun whatsoever) fact: when rincewind described what he thought was a crush on conina to himself he only listed physical "symptoms" such as fast heartbeat, feeling too hot to a "molten iron" extent and sweaty palms; he never brought up or even tried to bring up psychological stuff like being drawn to the person you have a crush on or finding some of their features or interests attractive or even something like wanting to get to know them better

he only found physical symptoms that could correspond to many different things other than infatuation and i personally think he just said to himself "well she's a woman and im a man and men are attracted to women right? therefore all this i feel must mean that im attracted to her, can't imagine anything else" but actually if you look at the aforementioned symptoms a little closer....i honestly am of the opinion he was just constantly stressed and anxious and scared on such a deep level already that he couldn't understand why was he feeling all that so he went for the only explanation available; he got so used to fear and anxiety he stopped noticing it and when it expectedly produced bad physical symptoms he already stopped even thinking about the fact that he's afraid and anxious because it became the default state of being to him; he forgot that feeling the way he feels all the time isn't normal

#local man confuses an ongoing constant panic attack with love #discworld #rincewind #i just needed to post this again i can't believe i would get rid of such an impactful post #headcanons #i hope i spelled all the names right i just can't remember her name for the love of me #i love deciphering these little details because #every single instance of him seemingly being attracted to a woman is actually very easily read as something completely different #its either him being confused about his own feelings (conina) or him thinking about potato chips so eagerly people start to look like #them (lotus blossom) or even a woman actually straight up forcing a kiss onto him without him showing any signs of wanting one #rincewind looks at a woman accidentally and thinks “im probably straight yea” all while deeply in mutual love with his male bestfriend #thoughts #its also an extremely cool subversion of heteronormativity because at first you assume that it all is exactly what it seems and that he #must be straight without a second thought and then you learn hes canonically gay and you go “wait huh” and then you go “ohhhh” #he is so gay #please feel free to interact