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#its like im fine literally all day qnd then i start to get ready for bed and the Dread sets in
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me, every night for the past three weeks: oh im feelin good rn! and i had a good day today!! im definitely not gonna lie awake filled with anxiety and dread over my future tonight :D
me, lying in bed 20 minutes later looping famous last words: by talos this cant be happening
#its like im fine literally all day qnd then i start to get ready for bed and the Dread sets in#like its an actual physical feeling in my stomach and i just suddenly out of nowhere have to hold myself back from crying#i literally go from perfectly happy to on the verge of tears in an INSTANT and idk whats causing uty#it#like i know broadly ehat the causes are but idk whats causing the specific switch at night#am i tired?? is it just bc im tired??? bc its not consistently at the same time and most of the time i dont *feel* tired#or is it just like. i knoe im going to bed so i know im gonna be alone with my thoughts and so they all come and hit me at once???#idk idk idk i just know i hate it and i want it to stop i want everything to fucking stop#id say i need a minute to breathe but really ive been using the past four months as my minute to breathe & thats part of the fucking problem#because ive been putting this all off for so long bc its so overwhelming but now theres so much igotta do and theres real tangible deadlines#so i cant keep putting it off but i DO and its just making it all even more overwhelming and my parents arent fucking helping#but its not even their fault because im chosing not to talk to them about this bc talking to them about it makes it all real#and i dont want it to be real yet im not fucking ready for it to be real yet i just need a goddamn minute TO FUCKING BREATHE#i wish i could freeze time and just give myself a day where none of this matters#actually a days not long enough i think i need like. two weeks. two weeks for me to get my shit together where none of this bullshit exists#and i can just do whatever i want and not have to think about deadlines and decisions and the fact that this is all ive wanted since the#7th fucking grade and now that its actually here i cant fucking stomach the thought of it being real because im a goddamn coward who cant#fucking commit to anything or get themself to DO anything and i know its not really my fault bc i probably have adhd and i get#knocked off my ass with a migraine every ither fucking day but i still feel like i should be more prepared for this than i am#and im not prepared and im not ready and i cant get myself ready because i cant do things like this myself because i dont really want to be#doing them at all#like sure! the bitch can write a 400+ page fanfiction no fucking problem!! they can find time for that but a college essay?? even finding#schools to apply too???? dont be fucking ridiculous they cant even get half an app done in the time it takes them to write a two 6k chapters#delete later
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totesmygoats74 · 6 years
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Freshman 15
Julian was just starting his first day of college, alone for the first time, but he didn't mind it. His parents gave him enough money to start off in his own apartment next to his university, where everyone was booming about the new year that just started. Julian was awfully shy, until he met his best friend, Ky. Julian had a crush on Ky, Ky shared the same feelings, but they were too nervous to tell one another, untill one day.
Julian was never the healthiest person, his first few weeks of college were just pizza and soda, it only showed a little, but people noticed. Ky, on the other hand was on the football team, he's always had a dream to one day quit and just let himself go like he watched Julian do, but Ky was the best on the team, so it was nothing but a wish. Ky saw this opportunity to let someone else get fat for him, and Julian was the perfect person.
"H-hey Julian, I wanted to ask you something."
"Yea? What is it?"
"Would you like t-to go to the buffet downtown tonight?"
"Which one?" Julian questioned with a lit up face.
"You know, the pizza one" Ky hesitated, "The one you love to go to."
"As a date?" Julian blushed
"As a date." Ky answered blushing back at Julian
"Of course! You know I've always had a crush on you, I know it seem stup-" ky cut him off
"Oh my lord, really!? I have always had a crush on you, I just didn't want to tell you..."
-later that night-
Ky and Julian bothed showed up to the Pizza buffet, they were surprised at the fact that no one was there except them. They both took that to their advantage, Ky noticed Julian only grab about 2 slices of pizza, he was wondering why he wasn't grabbing anymore, and asked him.
"Oh come on, you don't want anymore pizza? Im paying for the buffet, you might as well eat."
"Oh please, I don't want to act like a pig in a public resturant, besides im not even that hungry." Julian said in the middle of his bites.
"Oh please, I would love it if you acted like a pig in this sort of establishment, helps the cooks know they are doing a good job at cooking." He said with hesitation trying to hide his fetish.
"You sure? I don't want to embarrass you on how I eat, you asked me here anyways, but... alroght I am still hungry, and its all you can eat."
Julian took note on how Ky was watching him eat, and asked him why he wasn't eating, but Ky didn't answer to Julian just shrugged and ate. Julian's button up shirt he wore to seem fancy on the date was starting to get tighter and tighter as the buffer date went on, and Ky's shirt was sliding up his muscle belly as well, Ky wanted to seem like he was enjoying the time and not let the stomach ache he had from all the pizza effect him. He mostly just watched Julian's buttons get tighter when he got on his 14th plate of pizza, Ky though to himself "Man this guy can eat, and it doesn't seem to effect him at all" and then he saw that one of his buttons was about to pop. Ky didn't want to warn him, he wanted to see it fly off and his belly come undone from the shirt, his dick was already rock hard from the second Julian started eating. The button finally flew off after rhe 16th plate.
"Oops, looks like I ate too much, I have to buy a new button up now dammit."
"Oh no that's fine, you just keep eating, ill go get you a new size"
Ky managed to get himself out of the place before he came into his pants on accident after watching Julian. He went to the store to find a new button up for Julian, he bought him an XL button up shirt, after realizing that Julian popped a medium, He was only wearing a medium? Ky thought to himself. He later returned back to the pizza buffet to find out Julian had eating ar least 4 more plates from when Ky left, Julian was chowing down on his 20th plate, and then Ky was prompt to ask.
"Hey you wanna ditch this place qnd head back to my apartment? My roommate is on vacation for Spring Break. So it's fine"
"Yea totally! Let me just get one more plate in, I really am hungry tonight."
"Alright, I'll meet you there" Ky said while handing him a note with his address on.
Julian was so full, that it took him about 10 minutes to get to the car, he had to push his seat back in order to drive properly and not have his stomach touch the steering wheel. He finally made it to Ky's apartment when he realized Ky had fallen into a food coma, Julian himself was feeling a little tired too after have eaten not stop for about 2 hours. So he fell asleep on the couch, but when Ky was sleeping, he heard the door open and woke up, he noticed Julian sleeping up right on the sofa in his living room and took the advantage. Ly slept qoth Julian on his stomach using it as a pillow, and they didnt wake up until morning.
"Rise and Shine sleepyhead, last night was amazing, I wished it could have carried on, but right now we need to get you fed and home before anyone notices you're gone."
"Fed? Oh no Ky you're too sweet I could never ask you to fe-" Julian was cut off when Ky started shoving food into his mouth.
"Oh don't worry, I'm feeding you, I loved it when you pigged out last night, I offered to buy you a shirt because, well I almost came."
"Oh my lord...."
"Please don't leave, I need you, I want you, I want you to get fatter, please come on"
"A-alright" Julian said because he was nervous what Ky would do to him. Though, he always wanted to be a chub.
The next day Julian realized something about ky, his six pack was now a little tum, and Ky was furious, he would definitely be kicked off the team if this tum affected how he played, but he didn't mind it, he never wanted to be on the football team anyway he told himself, he just wanted to have something to do after classes, and then he looked at Julian, Julian was something to do after classes, and he gave Julian a smirk.
"Oof, I gotta go to classes, later we should totally do the pizza buffet again."
"You sure? Last time we went there you almost came in public... and grew a tum from it, what about your football career?"
"My football career is fine, I can always bulk up a little, all I need is you to bulk up A LOT more. They always say bigger is better."
-later at the buffet-
"You know this was a good idea, I love pizza, and I love all you can eat buffets, its like the perfect mix."
"I know right? Its like us being together, we would be a perfect mi-" Ky cut himself off.
"Um are you trying to say something Ky? It sounds lik- nevermind, im just gonna go get more pizza, this belly doesn't fill itself" he said slapping his belly like a drum, Ky blushed.
It was like last time, Ky stuffed himself along with Julian, though Julian's pizza gut was much bigger, Julian had to unbutton his pants to fit more, he didn't want this date to go to waste, he wanted to savor it. Ky, on the other hand noticed what use to be a muscle belly is not just a full ball of flab, he loved it, Julian's influence to him was like heaven, sure he was about to puke but rubbing his belly felt so good and arousing. He couldn't stop himself, nor could Julian, theh both stuffed themselves, people looked, but no one seemed to care to them. Ky was stuffed to the point he felt sick, Julian wasn't even half finished, sure his new large button up had popped, but he made sure to wear an undershirt, but not even that was helping, his belly was sticking out of his shirt to the point Ky noticed, that was enough to push him off the edge, he came into his pants, he moaned and groaned, Julian didn't seem to notice, he was ready to leave about that time anyways.
-later at Ky's house-
"So what happened? I heard you moaning and groaning." Julian said looked at the stuffed ky sittig on the sofa.
"Oh -huff- don't worry -puff- it was nothing" Ky was sppeaking through burps and was huffing and puffing.
"Alright I'm gonna grab a soda and leave then." He said reaching for the fridge.
"No come on, stay over for the night, I have a bed with you and my names on it." He said smirking, and noticed a bulge start to grow in Julian's pants.
"Oh yea? Does the bed also have S-E-X written on it?" He said also smirking
Julian followed Ky into his bed room and they started getting ready, Ky got down on his hands and knees and Julian syatted thrusting, Ky loved Julian's huge belly lay on top of him, his dick was getting harder and harder, cum was everywhere. Ky knew he was gonna have to clean this up, but he didn't mind at all, he loved it. Julian was having the best time of his life, he always knew he was gay, but he never knew how good it would feel to do this sprt of thing, they went on for 2 hours until both of them ran out of breath. Julian had to go home it was 1 in the morning, and it was the last day of Ky's roommate being on vacation, so instead Julian invited Ky over to his apartment to continue, but they didnt have sex, they ordered food, played video games, and stuffed themselves once more for the night.
Juliian asked Ky to move into his apartment, there wasnt as much room as Ky's but Ky accepted since he disnt mind sleeping in the same bed as Julian now, if he could even fit.
"Make yourself at home, literally." He said chuckling with his belly jiggling
Ky got hard again, the jiggling belly was the best scene he had ever seen, he didn't want any of that night to stop, but then they fell into another food coma. Ky woke up with a bigger belly, turns out all that eating doesnt just go away. His shirt was tighter his jeans wouldn't button, and his chizzled jaw turned into a double chin. He wasn't mad, he was happy, he thought he had too much of a fast metabolism to gain weight like this, but the couch was going to be furious, so he decided to quit the football team over the phone, his jersey didn't even fit anymore, but he didnt mind, he was happt to leave the football team, now he could focus more on fattening himself amd Julian up, Julian had a pretty big belly, and apetite for only being 19, but Ky never seemed to mind, he likes that part about Julian. Julian, though was loving how small Ky was, but he didnt mind he was getting more of a tum, he liked when Ky would use his belly as a pillow, and he would get constantly fed with Ky around, mostly cause his belly wasnt a good pillow empty and Ky loved that his stomach made gurgling noises in his ear, Julian always noticed a huge bulge in Ky's pants when he walked by, and Julian finally got up enough courage to finally ask if Ky could be his boyfriend.
"Hey uh, Ky, we've been going out on dates, and we even live together, so I am just gonna ask, would you be my boyfriend?"
"Duh, I fucking love you, your belly always gets me hard, and I would love to own your tum, and feed it, and rub it, I would just love to."
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