#ive been pretty good at sticking to the department late policy protocol but the emails are embarrassing to send tbh

[lowestechelonabomination]

was freaking out about how I was going to fail this one stupid seminar class that's for SOME REASON a graduation requirement and thinking there's no way I'm getting above a 60 in it because there are only 10 assignments for the whole semester and all of them are weighted equally and all of them SUCK and are exactly the stuff I hate doing and I've been super behind in the class for the past 3 months so basically I'm screwed and then uh. my four missing assignments got put in as zeroes and my grade only dropped to a 58. WHICH IS BAD. but if I turn them in and get 50s on all of them and then get a 90 on the culminating paper (WHICH IS WEIGHTED THE SAME AS THE OTHER ASSIGNMENTS FOR SOME REASON BUT WHATEVERRRRR) I'll have a solid 76. WHICH IS NOT GREAT. BUT IT'S NOT FAILING. GUYS I'M NOT GOING TO FAIL

#the only time ive ever failed a class was in 8th grade and my lowest grade since then was a brief 79 in 10th grade #physics c senior year humbled me so much with my raw test scores being in the 40s but like even then i had an 87 overall #because the ap curve was so insane #so basically. im not used to getting bad grades #i dont LIKE the idea of having a c in this class but its better than a d or f #and theres really nothing more i can do except turn my stuff in and hope for the best #ive been pretty good at sticking to the department late policy protocol but the emails are embarrassing to send tbh #im supposed to give advance notice of late assignments (ie send an email before the due date) and give a reason for it being late #but what reason can i possibly give #'hello proffie ^_^ the paper due at 11:59 today will be late for...reasons. ill turn it in eventually i prommy ^_^ btw i hate your class' #jokes aside i thought this woman was awful for the first 2 months or so and was terrified of approaching her #but after hanging out in her office hours a couple times ive realized shes actually pretty chill and knows what shes doing #i was so scared shed hate me somehow but apparently she likes me enough to make the department late penalty a little less harsh on me #so thats kind of her #and i did give a reason for the late work #unmedicated adhd + inexplicable burnout + general inability to do anything when overwhelmed #and now she seems sorta worried about me even though she still doesnt remember my name or face #but anywaayyyyyyy i have TWO DAYS to turn all my missing work in DEAR GOD #WHAT DO I DO #HELP #I CANT DO THIS #BUT I CANT JUST HAVE A 58 IN THIS CLASS EITHER #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #ech.txt