#ive had plenty of posts and fics flop and it sucks. we regroup and move on

[abluescarfonwaston]

I would like to be sad a little more.

#Hey im not looking for advice right now and its very much rubbing me the wrong way #i just. i worked on that fic for months. and i get that you cant write for others and i like it so whats it matter #but 23k. 23k and the only person who thought it was worth a comment was my friend #and i get that im being a whiner and and ass and snapping at someone who's offering advice in good faith is rude #but i just want to be saf about it #thats probably more than 40 hours of my life #if you spent fourty hours on a cake and you and a friend were the only one who enjoyed it you'd probably think you should have been doing #literally anything else with your time #and i dont want advice on what i should have done or what i should do next or how i need to not write for others- #I KNOW OKAY #i just want to be sad about it #ive had plenty of posts and fics flop and it sucks. we regroup and move on #but God Damnit cant i be upset and mourn the time spent (spent not wasted) when its more than six months of work #thats not even worth a fucking <3 #yada you dont owe writers your comments or time Look i get it. #... its not even porn. at least then you know why no one says a word. it just sucked. #i just wanted to commiserate with my friends for a few minutes and now i cant even do that because i snapped at well meaning advice #instead of just saying right off the bat #*big inhale* okay. times up time to go do something productive #because i cant change it and laying here wont change where im at #back to it. #i got my clothes ironed ill make my bed and lie in it i think