#last thing i posted made me sad

[justanotherignot]

More Model Swap Shenanigans, Part 2

#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #aylin x isobel #dame aylin #aylin #bg3 aylin #isobel thorm #isobel #bg3 isobel #justanotherignot #iggy's model swap shenanigans #last thing i posted made me sad #so i'm posting something that makes me happy #fourth gif is my favorite #love the way isobel is looking at aylin #these two are making me play other romances just to get these gifs #i only knew karlach's romance before i started doing this

[mugentakeda]

better safe than sorry

#katara is so shifty eyed and protective of all her friends i think its really cute......... #i was thinking about the way zukos face shifted when iroh yoinked him and made myself sad #also PLEASE PLEASE PLEASEE dont tag as zu///tara ... #i mean i guess you could interpret this as that but anytime i post katara zuko things assume zuko is a gayboy. Idk #but yeah!!!! quick little comic of an idea i had hahaha.... #she reminds me of luffy in the way that as soon as she sees you as a friend she would kill and die for you #beyond limits comprehensible by the feeble human mind. #katara #zuko #iroh #avatar the last airbender #atla #alicias art

[sluckythewizard]

had this thought rotating in my mind since arthur had to wear that Anti-Sun disguise. and well. now u see it too

#OH might aswell put this here too #this time CROPPED CORREECFTLLYYYYYYY #ANYWAy i have a whole doodlepage made up of just stupid fuckin arthur comics like this. i just really love him so so so much #HES SO TRAGIC AND SAD AND ROMANTIC but also hes ridiculous. hes so funny. ouh my god. #will today be a 'ramble abt arthur bennet' day. im not sure yet. if it is ill come back to these tags and gut myself #ALSO MY LAST POST STIll stands if u wander into my askbox w a jrwi series n a dream i may share w u a WIP ill never fucken poast #ooouuhooohhh i also take Gentle Requests w a firm NO PROMISES promise. u may influence my actions vaguely #and that is a DIVINE POWER IN YOUR HANDS BOOYYYYYY. TO CHANGE THE WORLD IN SUCH GRAND WAYS. #HAHA HEY IM BACK TO RAMBLE. just a little. anwyay remember when arthur was looking for a hat to wear and chose a cowboy hat #for some reason. hey remember when they were sayin somethin abt how a blood bond makes u think abt the bonder alot. #i had a point here but then my brain went 'the bonderrrrr' and now ive lost my trrain of thought. anyway i hope deacon and arthur f #ight again i hope they fight eachother again. and then mack on eachother crazy style. hey what was that thing deacon was hiding in th cabin #remember that guy he had locked up in there. the guy that said 'help me'. what was that about

[densitywell]

Marisha's comment about how Relvin is one of those parents who ended up with a child they didn't know what to do with really gets to the heart of it, i think, and is such a good way to tie the fantasy element of Imogen's powers into things more tangible. because there are really a lot of parents like Relvin in real life, who have a child with the person they're happily married to and never expect to be left alone with the kid. or who expect a ""normal"" (read: cisgender and heterosexual, able-bodied, relatively neurotypical and obedient, etc.) child and end up with one who's ""difficult"", who demands more or different of them than what they believe they signed up for. and that's not entirely entitlement on a parent's part- many cultures' common frameworks of parenthood and child-rearing do not include space for these children. it makes sense that Relvin was unprepared. raising any child is difficult, and raising a child whose needs you were never taught how to accommodate, who the world is so cruel to, is even more challenging.

and yet. and yet, the person who bears the brunt of the harm in these situations will always be the child. they're the ones who have to live every moment of how the world treats them, without the support that their parent is supposed to provide them. and when asked to care for his child even when she turned out to be ""difficult"", Relvin couldn't. for entirely sympathetic reasons, of course. he tried, in his own way. i don't think he's a bad guy. but he's let his own broken heart bleed onto his daughter. he hasn't been able to give her much else.

#imogen temult #critical role #cr #cr3 #like it's really sad what happened to relvin we all know this. but seeing how dani scrambled over herself last night #to clarify that she DOESN'T think relvin is an awful person just bc she thinks he's a shitty dad made me feel for her so much bc like. #sometimes the Posts. about him. feel a little “why do bash dead beat dads but never question if the kid has bad vibes.” so. #especially in comparison to liliana who is 1. worse than relvin 2. still sympathetic 3. more interesting to a nearly comical degree #and while he gets so much sympathy On Here ppl mostly post abt her to wish for her death or call her a bitch. so! #parenting talk is a minefield bc some ppl resent the idea that a child deserves anything more from a parent than basic needs being met #and refuse to include emotional needs among them. so like idk if that's your thing i don't rlly give a shit man #crposting

[doumekiss]

To any readers out there that might be wondering if an author would like to know of your disgust and disappointment that they made a character you headcanon as a top a bottom in a sex scene I can answer for sure that they do not 🙂

#I know this sounds bitchy but the amount of comments from joongdok fans I got since I posted the sex chapter on inside your head #about this particular topic is insane #the one I just got of some dipshit telling me that they only didn't quit the fic after that because they already read 40+ chapters #and that they didn't mean to offend me but they just needed to let me know how sad I made them #and the thing is I was actually planning on writing a sex scene for the last chapter with top!joonghyuk but now #I don't feel like doing it anymore #fandom #orv #thoughts #joongdok #dokjoong

[srtruth]

I still don't know how to improve the quality of my illustrations ksksksks

#my last days off #I'm sad because I had a lot of frustration with my illustrations recently #and I recently saw a post about an amazing artist that they won't make art anymore because they feel the same way #that person made art #me not yet #I'm just starting out motivated by this character #it is normal to feel frustration #I would like more people to be motivated by these things #You don't need to be an artist or writer to make fic or fanart #I do it and I'm not an artist #mayuri kurotsuchi #my illustration #THE ARTIST LIVED AHHHH #I am so happy

[stop-breaking-my-heart-dragonage]

This. This. This entire conversation with Morrigan actually makes me want to sob. She and my Tabris always becomes close friends over the course of DAO; that, paired with the fact that my Tabris always romances Alistair, makes everything about this hurt so much more when you take DAO's ending into account.

Her confusion over why my Tabris didn't send her away. Why she didn't abandon her after they learned of Flemeth's plans. Why Tabris went out of her way to slay Flemeth and bring her the true grimoire. She asks Tabris why, and is baffled when the answer is, "I did it because I'm your friend," as if it's that simple.

The way Morrigan looks at the warden, the way her voice cracks when she says, "I want you to know that while I may not always prove... worthy... of your friendship, I will always value it."

She knows how this will end; Flemeth sent her with the wardens with the end goal of stopping the blight and obtaining the old god soul through the dark ritual. Morrigan knows that Alistair and Tabris are the only Grey Wardens here, and assuming they don't find more, one of them will have to die defeating the archdemon unless they agree to do the dark ritual.

With that context, her asking Alistair, "And what if a Grey Warden has forced to choose between the Warden he loved and ending the Blight? What should his choice be?" suddenly has so much subtext weaved through the words that I'm gonna start foaming at the mouth. She's practically telling Alistair that a warden has to die. She's scrutinizing his reaction to find any hint that suggests he would agree to the dark ritual in order to save himself and the woman he loves. And when he doesn't choose, she has her answer.

Morrigan made comments to Tabris about him, almost hopeful that their relationship was just a physical thing between them and not actually riddled with feelings... and then gives disapproval when Tabris says she loves him.

She doesn't want the warden to die; hell, she doesn't want Alistair to die, either; whether because she does actually care about him or because she knows it'll break her friend's heart if she loses him, or both!

Things would be so much easier if the only two Grey Wardens left to defeat the blight didn't fall in love, wouldn't they, Morrigan?

She knows that in the end, no matter the outcome, she will lose the woman she called sister and it's devastating.

Morrigan, who has never known true friendship. Who grew up isolated in the woods with an abusive mother and terrible implications for her future. Who discovered said mother planned to take over her body just as she did with her other daughters. Who doesn't understand kindness as it was rarely given to her without a catch. Who isolates herself from the others in camp. Who finally has a companion she cares about... and in the end, if her plan works and the dark ritual is completed, she'll end up pregnant and alone and wearing Tabris' resentment like a tender wound on her heart.

Or Tabris will reject the ritual, and will die to the archdemon.

Or her lover will.

I just- the dynamic between the warden, romanced Alistair, and Morrigan is so good and painful and rich that I'm gnawing on furniture as we speak.

#dragon age origins #dao #alistair theirin #dao alistair #dao morrigan #dao tabris #warden tabris #i'm replaying dao right now in case my recent written posts haven't made that obvious #the relationship dynamics the warden has with each of the companions is so so soooo good like there isn't a companion i dislike #i play into the slow burn with alistair's romance but it's not even just the romance aspect it's also their friendship too #playing dao and not romancing alistair would feel wrong at this point for me it's so crucial to the entire story and its development #and i love morrigan's friendship with the warden and how gutted tabris is when she comes clean about everything and offers the ritual #and then bails once everything is over and tabris is torn between hating her and feeling hurt and not wanting morrigan to be alone again #i talked more in depth about morrigan and the ritual in a previous post but it's a lot... especially when it comes to the witch hunt dlc #oh and then there's the friendship between tabris and zevran like don't even get me started on that sksksks i won't be able to stop #even a character like oghren who is the last person you'd think tabris would ever become friends with since he's y'know *oghren* #but i'll go on the record and say there's more to oghren that gets overlooked and overshadowed by his glaring flaws #and i don't wanna talk about leliana... she makes me too sad like ever since my last playthrough where i accidentally triggered her romance #while i was deep in alistair's romance i have a really hard time not reading into the things she says to tabris #in my last playthrough i dunno what i did but she confessed to tabris even though she was fully aware that tabris and alistair were togethe #and it was a *mess* okay like it really felt like we killed marjolaine and leliana was in a vulnerable position yet was hardened enough #to be like 'i know she and alistair are together but i'll take my shot anyway and attempt to break them up' like.... noooooo leliana D: #and the rest of the game it felt like she was bitter and still in love with tabris and i felt *horrible* #i just said i don't wanna talk about it but hhhnnngggg i'm taking extra precautions to not have a repeat of that this time #excuse my tag ramblings i'm just very passionate about dao and the companions okay #also want to note that this is my interpretation of morrigan's motivations based on how i play the game and my warden #so others might view this reaction and the warden/romanced alistair/morrigan dynamic differently and in that case #i would be interested to hear that different interpretations because those are always fun to read

[robotsafari]

i havent even watched legacy yet but that fucking kh world did some.. unexpected things to me

#beep boop you want fries with that #kingdom hearts #re:kh #re:ddd #sora #quorra #tron #riku #was trying to redesign rinzler’s helmet bc god. its. kinda fucking boring. leaning into the beast more #also teh helmets eyes are supposed to look angry when its down and sad when its up. bwaaa #i heard rinzler acts like a cat. thats soemthing to look forward to when i watch the movie. grins. #the three dots are supposed to be the classic t. btw. #theres four you just cant see the last one. #made sora look more liek his space paranoids look because he needs to retain the 80s swag. #this reads like a change log. #and my good friend quorra. idk if i’ve even posted that redesign b4. #yes im making her quote the ur my pockets eddie post #i think she needs to chew on things. maybe she should maul clu with her fucking teeth. #shes so unorthadox girl to me. do you see my vision. #also dw about riku falling or paralelling tron or anything hes fiiine. #speaking of the falling art. its old. so its inaccurate to how i draw riku now #before my brain was huge basically. #its so funny how i drew this much art for legacy like. i love tron 1982. i havent watched legacy yet but i feel like im gonna hate it. #the kh world was okay but it had a lot of potential and. uh. made me a BIT insane at the last part in sora’s story (EXPLODES) #also this post is tagged re:ddd for. reasons. dw about it. #ANYWAY GN ITS 1 AM. RUNS AT MACH SPEED.

[emberglowfox]

i need a hug man

#sorry there’s no quirky relatable joke to this one i just. yeah #sparks speaks #vent #i guess #this isn’t like in the “ohh i’m sad i need comfort :(“ way btw it’s just like. i need a hug or a pat on the back or anything rlly #whatever higher power made me incredibly tactile extrovert should be shot. this sucks #whatever. i have math hw to do #edit i forgot my last post on this blog was also about this exact thing. truly i am pathetic

[eonars]

um. tfw your life is about to change massively very very soon and it still doesn't even feel real yet and still feels like somethings gonna pop up and it won't actually happen and also you're scared as fuck that you're too stupid to actually do it and it'll all be for nothing

#like what do you mean full time salaried w benefits and paid vacation just to do. school. #what made you so enthusiastically think i was the perfect one to do this #when the last approx 20something other guys were like ummmm no you cannot do it #tbf like all that other shit up there aside #this did actually come at the perfect time #i look back on who i was during my masters and i legit do not recognize that person #i barely even remember it i have to look at pictures to think back on who i was #in a strange roundabout way being forced home to stay for a while #kind of re centered me and gave me time to come back to myself in a big way. i was really lost before #and chaining something like this directly after my masters would have been disasters #even like this time last year i did not have this level of mental clarity #and i think thats why i didn't get any of the other positions i was just in a fog and i think people could tell #so as much as like im super scared and nervous about this big change and big exit from my comfort zone #and a little sad and mournful that im leaving my family and wont hear my native language all day every day anymore #im the most ready ive ever been #2019 me was NOT ready im scared of her tbh!! idk what wave i was on but it was weirdo shit! #im also proud that i essentially rawdogged and brute forced a lot of introspection and improvement #entirely on my own #like i really can only just describe it as clarity i feel like i matured 10 years in 4 and cleared all the fog #i feel so good about the way i handle things and react to things now vs then #im like 500x more unbothered and actually know how to put myself first now #anyway uh this prob could have been its own post in and of itself #but woteva innit im proud of how much internal repairs i did on myself over the last few years #became a stable genius as it were #whos a lot more clearly defined and present #but fuck man! i am still scared of being 2stupid

[spaceratprodigy]

#fresh coat of paint on memes I had posted to priv last year based on tumblr posts that made me laugh #just because I'm sad and my head hurts and this house has me at my fucking limit #decided to post something silly for myself in preparation for their anniversary bc it's the only thing getting me thru this week idk #faith and max

[noisytenant]

box of all of the figures i've made since i was like 12

#indexed post #i didn't get to take them home with me which really sucks but i will get them up here when i have money to spare #some are broken especially at the bottom which is sad but the nature of things #I was very bad at making structurally sound figures when i was young i only learned it in the last like 2 years #theres also a bag of doll accessories under amethyst that i forgot to remove #My dad has two figures that i made as fanart of my friend fragment2030's art in like 2015 #but i think besides that this is the complete collection

[raayllum]

also - bc i can't believe i have to say this - if you link someone's meta/posts when they've 1) blocked you and you know it and/or 2) just to rebuttal them and disagree with them over something it's already clear - and okay!! - that you have fundamentally different interptretations on, you're being kinda rude at best and an asshole at worst

#like don't get me wrong different interpretations is not a bad thing #making a new post and linking back to an old convo is not bad #but if it's something that's already been made clear that you Fundamentally Disagree on #if you have beef #just leave each other alone #don't link my posts just bc you don't think you can adequately summarize what im saying #and again: if all u have time for is disagreeing with ppl and clowning on them #it's a pretty sad meta existence #i'm off to write about ez and rayla bc i was lying awake last night like 'huh' #fandom nonsense #me explaining why i don't think callum omitted stuff from the spell on purpose #is not a personal attack #and me exploring how i would interpret if i was looking at it from that angle is also not an attack #it's all chill

[channnel]

I was searching some creepypasta fics on quotev, when I suddenly remembered some fanfics I read before about a reader getting turned into a proxy but with some other characters too. I tried to find it but I couldn't- and I was so confused then I remembered their other fanfic about homicidal liu becoming a patient to the reader and i vividly remembered that cause the reader died! so I tried to search for it and it work... but the link isnt there anymore- and I'm sad.

#creepypasta #creepypasta fandom #homicidal liu #text post #like i know the reader died in the end (thanks jeff) but its still a good story #i havent even finished the cody x reader they made- #the harem fic that i said holds a special place in my heart cause that is the very first creepypasta fanfic i read on quotev #and i only joined last year! im not a creepypasta fan but now i am #like bro- those endings on the harem fic make me feel things #i dont know if the author deleted it or not but it was good while it lasted #i only read it once but the memory is still there #ahh i still remember hurting my back cause of me reading those chapters... #i should probably draw them... #i mean- i dont actually know why it disappeared but im a bit sad #its not the first time my favorite fanfic got deleted

[throttlegainwell]

Btw this is a first for me, pretty sure, but when I go into the As You Are tag (and I normally don't go into tags to begin with but still), it is wall-to-wall me freaking out over this movie. This is both hilarious and embarrassing. I am so, so very late to the party and so very, very emotionally horny over it.

#until this past year i actually didn't tend to post meta or really my thoughts on anything anyway tbh #and i've always had my blog set to be unsearchable so i never showed up in tags anyway before #look i'm not a terrifically social person online perhaps i've mentioned this before once twice a couple dozen times #this movie is occupying a space in my mind i didn't know existed #not that i don't love my share of obscure things i just don't talk about them like this #(i mean fuck i have a doc with myra breckinridge fic because i'm still fucked up over what she did to rusty and mary-ann #even though that's a fucking satirical novel not at all meant to be taken seriously) #anyway yes i will continue to be weird about this movie #btw i watched it again and you know what the soft gentle pretty happy music made me unbearably sad #because i know it won't last #watching them be happy and safe is actually incredibly painful knowing how it ends #as you are

[sally-mun]

Since I've been settling back into Tumblr I keep thinking about the fact that this is where I did most of my writing. About all kinds of things.

I haven't really written anything in a couple of years. It started as a bit of burnout but got exponentially worse due to a very bad thing that happened. My therapist has been trying to help me find that piece of myself again. It's been lost for a really long time, and is probably a big part of why I have so much trouble being 'me' anymore, or even knowing what 'me' is. It's really difficult to like 'me' now. On the off-chance I actually do, I feel guilty for having done so, because I still haven't quite shaken the instinct that shouldn't like 'me.' I should be ashamed of 'me.' Maybe that's a big part of why my writing disappeared. I always really liked that about me. Writing would threaten my the paradigm where I can't and shouldn't like myself.

But I mean... I do really miss it.

I hope it comes back.

Maybe being here again will help with that.

#this wasn't intended to be a sad post but ended up being a very sad post #i miss being able to like myself #i miss being able to be proud of myself #i miss being able to feel like i deserve happiness or nice things #writing always made me so happy #and it's like i'm not allowed to have it anymore #it's off-limits now #it's not for a lack of things to write #there's so much i've wanted to do in the last two years #it's just #been gated off #i want it to come back #should i even put this in the 'writer things' tag? #because i'm sure as hell not a writer anymore #no matter how badly i want to be #all i have now are memories of writing #memories of being 'allowed' to write #but if i did that i'd like something about myself again #and if i'm not a good person i shouldn't like anything about me #and knowing all of this doesn't make a difference #it just makes it more frustrating #because i'm very aware of how stupid and self-destructive it is #but i don't know how to stop