#like a drivers' license and a steady income i earn are freedoms i genuinely long for there is nothing like being able to live a life on your

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#i know jobs suck and capitalism bad whatever but i kind of... #can't wait to make my own money... #like i can buy myself the little cheap candy treats anytime and not have #to give an account to my mom and be made to feel ashamed about it... when i #run out of stickers i can just buy more instead of begging my dad for spare change #and facing his three-day long severe disapproval #i can send a letter through post to my best friend so she feels im with her through her grandpa's death i/o like a voice note and an email #she may not even see till much later #i dont think im fiscally irresponsible #like i know i may struggle to even have necessities like food and rent depending on where i am and what my job is #but it's nice to think i'll be able to control my own life and decisions even if its making mistakes #i/o feeling disgusting about the things i do use my parents money for because im made to feel idiotic for spending tiny quantities once in a #while on things THEY see as frivolous and entirely unimportant... who cares if it brings me joy... #like a drivers' license and a steady income i earn are freedoms i genuinely long for there is nothing like being able to live a life on your #own terms... #idk #s.text #diary