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#like since late 2022 it's been kind of like. bad vibes consistently
eggmeralda
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4 months
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I may have lost all hope
#it's a weird feeling?
#like since late 2022 it's been kind of like. bad vibes consistently
#and i tried to stay somewhat positive throughout it
#but idk there's this very distinct feeling now of like. i can't describe it but it's completely gone
#like I've actually got nothing to live for
#nothing I've done or wanted to do since i was 14 has ever really like amounted to anything
#all the friends i made i never feel like i can talk to
#once again in that state of 'only alive so my family don't get sad'
#like even when i wanted to just stop existing when i was 21 there was this tiny bit of hope still there a little bit
#like i remember for that whole summer i kept getting quick thoughts about suicide but I'd always push them out of my mind instantly
#but there was one day where i let the thought stay in my mind for a little bit and like properly considered how i would do it
#and then after a bit i was like FUCK and then went and walked like an hour away from my house to try and forget it
#and then after that day i slowly got better. and it was annoying bc it meant now i had to walk a whole hour back to my house
#but even if those 2 months there was still this feeling of this isn't gonna last
#bc i knew i was back at uni in a few months and at least i had music to listen to
#and all the other times I've been in that state there was still this sort of feeling that it'll get better bc I've got things to get me
#through it
#but it doesn't feel like that now. like no job no friends no hyperfixation and now i can't even enjoy any music
#anything i create is pointless bc only i care about it
#all my friends are busy doing other stuff I'm like not even second best I'm the most forgettable person anyone might know
#the only thing that would fix me is getting a random train to like some place I've never been
#just to see a new thing i guess
#but anyway
#ramble
#suicide mention
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