#like yeah babey I've been like this my whole life and I've just never grown up

[foolishnpd]

I wonder when I started suspecting I was a narcissist? I found a post in my journal that suggested I was considering it at the time, all the way in December 2022... I thought it was more recent but I guess not? wow, a whole year of suspecting a self diagnosis and I'm still completely unsure 😍

#lilyroaring #self diagnosis #npd #actually narcissistic #narcissistic personality disorder #and of course #that journal also had entries wayyyyy before it with. very obvious symptoms 😭 #like yeah babey I've been like this my whole life and I've just never grown up #they don't diagnose it in kids because kids are just Like That sometimes #but uh #if I still act and feel exactly like that #as an adult #then it's indicative of something right? #at this point I might as well just embrace the self diagnosis #literally fit the bill for 90% of the symptoms #(though some much more mildly than others. I'd say 50% of them are actually very strong symptoms) #it's always hard to tell for me too #because I experience every disorder very mildly... or I suppress it well enough I can't tell what I experience #even the things I 100% definitely have and am diagnosed with #I doubt I'm even autistic at times because I don't feel the effects of it. but I undeniably am #if I've been consistently disordered by npd symptoms for over a year now #I may as well just accept I probably have it #this shit can't be coincidental