#lmfao i was rushin

[caycanteven]

himb, Balsam, Bal if you will.

#my art #sans #sans au #caycantdoodle #balsam sans #horrorfell sans #okay now that im home heres all the tags again #i was out and about when i did the tags #lmfao i was rushin #love this skeleton sm #husbone yes yes yes #god let him look at me like that #PLEASE #the mans #where his dog tags #dont ask #i forgot lmfao #it was a warmup teehee #wanna smooch him

[baumanisms]

❝NOW-- if all else fails, go for the four most sensitive parts of the body.. but don't forget to SING !! ❞

introducing ALINOSHKA ❝ ALINA ❞ BAUMAN, nineteen years old, barback/unofficial bouncer @ the hideout&self defense coach ( & the estranged niece of murray bauman )   

an independent&selective stranger things oc blog written by fiorella. carrd here.

#(:: 𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐨 ! ::) #sadflkjsdklfj SHE'S HEEEEERE #still working on her carrd so i'm just gonna plop & ignore lmfao #her bio & personality & stuff are all on there #i know she's all barebones rn so i'm rushin to finish it up #kjdsklfjasl #and yes #100% quoting miss congeniality :')

[damerondala]

i went to disney last week and forgot to post about it lmao

but it was super fun, rode rise of the resistance for the first time and literally cried bc it was so cool lmfao BUT that wasn’t even the best part besties

i ran into jon favreau. the jon fucking favreau 🤯 we didn’t stop him bc my boy was RUSHIN and that’s just rude to stop celebs imo but my fam and i were just like oh my god hi!!!!! and he was like “oh hey” 💀 so not very eventful but you best believe for the rest of the day we would just turn to each other and say “we saw jon favreau just now” lol so yeah good times! i’m still confused why he was just walking straight through the park idk i guess i thought celebrities would just get like teleported to wherever they wanted to go in disney lol but whatever

i also bought jedi robes because HELLO WHY NOT they’re huge and this was just a pic of me exhausted but still trying them on but i really hope to go to a con this fall and have fun dressing them up! 🫶🏻

#look it's me #rambling

[todayisafridaynight]

I'm being weird about this! I'm pretty sure bills did in fact math right and once the other check clears tonight I'll know for sure, but we're at like 88.9% def getting that comm from you. If I can work up the nerve lmfao. I even figured out what I want. Finally. (not me considering sending my gf along with the info so I can remain under my rock lol)

whatever has you comfortable, do what you gotta do my guy ! i'm not goin' anywhere anytime soon, so don't worry bout rushin with anythin; if you need more time to prepare then that's ok! (❁´◡`❁)

#snap chats

[notwhoiwanttobeyet]

my mbti and how i’ve changed.

t/w: trauma, mental abuse, suicidal thoughts, mentions of suicide, etc. 

(this just turned into a vent oops lmfao) 

i took the mbti test last year and i got intp, though i took it on my phone so idk how accurate my answers were - i remember getting ki n d a bored and rushin it a l i t t l e at the end, but it seemed REALLY accurate so i went by it. i only did the test in the first place cause my friend was like heY dO tHiS 

keep in mind last year at this time i was suicidal, i had been mentally abused for the past year+, had no friends, attempted suicide, was dealing with heavy dissociation (derealisation aNd depersonalisation) for the first time, literally blocked everything out, was an exTrEme people pleaser and had literally no self confidence or fate. i also literally didn’t sleep, i was so angry and depressed and my anxiety levels were peaK, we had the pandemic going on blah blah- i was just- well, when i say i was an entirely different person back then, i definitely was.

i retook the test last night TWICE - i took a whole hour the second time so i could really ~process~ it and i got intj-t

i was hesitant at first because i didn’t really expect anything to change, i mean, but like now i’ve accepted i really HAVE changed 

it’s pretty much the same except i judge more than i do perceive oof

it’s also the rarest personality type in the world for females so that’s pretty spicy

i know it’s really dumb but i feel like the above ^^^ says a lot about how i’ve changed 

i used to be the most selfless person - hence what let to so much mental abuse - i did people’s homework, i always put others before me to unhealthy extent. i literally never looked after myself and had no hobbies or anything. i shaped myself to please people i didn’t even know, my family, my teachers, my peers, my “friends”, my abusers up until the point where i was struggling so much on my own that i almost wouldn’t be here today. i tried so hard to be what i thought everyone wanted and everyone needed that i completely lost myself and had no idea who i was when other people weren’t around. i was sooo harsh on myself, i still am, but if i couldn’t please one person i thought i deserved to die. 

now when i walk through crowded hallways i say excuse me and shove dumbasses to the side, i don’t take anyone’s shit and i’m blunt. i’m like i was before but a lot less nice and a lot more selfish, that’s what i always say. cause i’m the same person but all that i’ve been through changes and shapes you into a different person. my whole life i went trying to make it easy for everyone else that i forgot that this is supposed to be my life. i stopped giving a shit and started being myself properly. and sure, it meant that things changed but i took my life back from the people that stole it from me. i’m so glad i did. i’m confident but insecure and my anxiety is still crippling by the second and my depression caves in around me but i know who i am and at the end of the day, that’s what matters. i get enough sleep, i exercise daily, i eat well, i study, i now have hobbies that i do for myself. i quit things that didn’t make me happy and walked away from the people that broke me. and for the first time in a really long time, i was happy. 

jesus i didn’t think i’d go so existential today. well yeah. that’s what i was trying to say basically i mean it turned into some long tragic vent but oh well. basically i am sooo different, but i’m glad i am. i took ownership of my own life back and now i’m happy and i want to live, and i’m never going back to that place again. 

(ᵖᵉʳⁱᵒᵈ qᵘᵉᵉⁿ)

[weirdlanders]

Anon that asked about Voteil here. Ewwouch ! I didn't know he was killed that way, I just thought he had his head cut or bitten off. Which would still had been bad but y'know, a little faster and less painful. Also just to make sure, I didn't say that to rush you, eh ? The whole ''heart pinch'' thing was mostly meant as a pitiful joke.

Hey hon! Oh no worries, I didn’t feel like you were! But I get new followers who are unaware of my situation so I mention it from time to time, and I genuinely do feel bad for not being so active here as I used to be. I still have the gusto to keep going on everything, and there’s so many plots, comics, and lore I want to delve into. It’s a guilt I can’t help but feel and bring up, had nothin’ to do with you ‘rushin’ me :)

But yep! I had a mini comic planned of Voteil’s escape but we all know how long I take to do comics lmfao. Bad Seed is like what, a year old now? xD So much I wanna do, so little time! 

~Weird Hyenas