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i've been watching a lot of are you afraid of the dark recently since it's all free and youtube and man this show is still so fun. kiki is my favorite

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[maddiemuu]

insurance approved me!!!!

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sometimes when i reload a page on this site i get a brief glimpse of what the dashboard actually looks like now. like a jumpscare

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[maddiemuu]

was complaining abt realself (evil) to my best friend today and she was just casually like "oh the plastic surgeon i saw does breast reductions" and sent me the gallery and they r like the most perfect beautiful photos imaginable. all this is teaching me is that i get rewards when i complain

#maddie meows #i found two where the ppl were both almost my size #one was a little larger and the other was a little smaller but it's like. in my range. and REALLY GOOD RESULTS AND PHOTOS #like EXACTLY what i want

[maddiemuu]

dear god is grammar correction software these days stupid lmfao. just had word try to correct "other" to "another" in the phrase "other mediums". Another Mediums, a good and normal phrase that is correct and something real people say.

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[maddiemuu]

just finished watching the peak of the partial eclipse here. hell yea

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looking at reference images for breast reductions on that awful plastic surgery site and they have what is possibly the worst tag system i have ever seen. u can add any tag u want when u upload photos from what i can tell. but there is no way to view other posts tagged the same way UNLESS it is one of like six tags the site will let u search by. who designed this. am i in hell

#maddie meows #also: this site sucks shit for finding reference images of fat people #i would like to see. good photos. of fat patients. PLEASE. #like sorry but i really don't think my surgeon will be able to do much with a photo of someone half my weight lol #but it is the ONLY site i have seen recommended for these photos. maybe i really AM in hell #i am in a rly sucky situation as someone who is not only fat #but also just has proportions much more extreme than most people who get reductions #so it sucks not rly being able to see what is reasonable to expect out of a reduction bc everyone i see starts out with half what i am :[

[maddiemuu]

chocolate being a gerd trigger is one of the most evil things about the human body methinks

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[maddiemuu]

if nobody online ever wrote another shitty scary story about a bastardized version of some figure from indigenous american cultures again there would still be too many. my ideal number? zero. i hate them so much lmfao

#maddie meows #one of my least favorite tropes in internet horror stories #it especially sucks bc i DO think monsters w/ mimicry powers can be really scary #i've even heard some with that premise that DID scare me!! it can be good!!! #but the way these ppl write. is not scary #it is always so boring and the whole time i'm just kind of miffed at the thoughtless appropriation going on lol #on top of that i also think that sometimes labeling the monster enables the writers to put WAYYY too much detail abt them in the story #imo subtlety and restraint are often some of the most vital qualities in a horror story... #if everything is 100% described it's less of a monster and more of just like. a weird animal to me lol #it's only going to be scary in the sense something like a bear can be. not the same tone as a supernatural story...

[maddiemuu]

cut my hair earlier tonight. i was thinking about growing it out a little more but now i know i definitely made the right choice. short hair just makes me so happy

#maddie meows #i never rly lost that initial sense of euphoria from Baby's First Really Short Haircut so i get all the good brain chemicals EVERY TIME

[maddiemuu]

this is not an issue where anyone is in the wrong but man i wish it was easier for me to find posts abt being aromantic on here that weren't from ppl who were also asexual or like. very young teenagers lol. i just cannot rly relate to a lot of them :,)

#maddie meows #i do sometimes see ppl kind of. conceptualizing aromanticism as inherently tied to asexuality. which bugs me #but that's a separate issue #anyways aroace ppl i love you dearly. and i'm very glad all these teenagers are so proud of being themselves. big thumbs up from me #but it can feel a bit lonely to scroll through that tag and see like. nothing that i feel personally applies to me lol #these r not like. serious issues or things that profoundly affect me i just love to complain <3

[maddiemuu]

surgery consultation tomorrow morning

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[maddiemuu]

thought half of my face had just broken out super suddenly but false alarm! pretty sure it's hives 👍

#i did pet a cat today so it makes sense. i washed my hands but hey. sometimes these things just happened #kind of wish i had guessed “hives” BEFORE the dermatillomania lizard in my brain took over and i started clawing at my face #but i can't win em all i guess #i'm just gonna cortisone cream/antihistamine combo myself into oblivion #maddie meows

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sitting at an airport gate rn and saw a man playing with his baby (very cute) and then his partner came up and i think they're in matching sweatsuits?? obsessed

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i'd rly love to try hotpot one day but my dilemma is that the broth i really want is the spicy kind... and i've never found a hotpot place in my area that has a vegetarian version of it :(((((((((((((((((

#maddie meows #spicy broth??? :(( spicy broth for mads???? please?? #IT MAKES ME SO SAD... i love spicy food and every video i see of it looks soooooo good #i'm sure there's recipes i could just make vegetarian... but that's not the same... it would probably still be delicious though

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:3 (<- had pancakes for dinner)

#the mix was a little sweeter than i like but still tasty... i love pancakes #maddie meows #AND i have a few leftover for breakfast tomorrow (i made silver dollar ones)