#maybe I'm a little stressed

[bunnygirllover45]

got a nosebleed after leaving home today and I didn't notice till my classes finished and my classmates told me lol

#chrona... rambles abt shit #I thought the lady was looking weird at me bc I'm a foreigner #but no lmao #sorry for judging old lady #maybe I'm a little stressed

[moonchild-in-blue]

Australian Rituals / Teeth of God Tour Bingo

Alroighte gwois, let's hear your predictions for the upcoming rituals. I *might* make another bingo (like on Wembley) - even if I don't, let's get them all in one place cus I think it's funny.

If you have something specifically for the Teeth of God Tour (because they are headliners and can do Cooler™ Fancier™ stuff) do specify. Same for strictly Australian Rituals. Some stuff may happen earlier (like when they debuted TMBTE and the new Espera masks), others may only happen on the Tour, so let's just put them all here and see what happens 😗✌️

Please reblog/put on the replies your predictions!! Whether serious or silly, please share!

Mine are:

One of the Vessels (Vessel or ivy OR Espera!!!!) singing onstage with Oli

Kangaroo/koala headbands / Aussie Explorer hat

EUCLID (more for Teeth of God but wouldn't be surprised if earlier)

The Apparition (PLEASE)

The Summoning pushups will return

Older song throwback (please please Sugar or Jaws. TNDNBTG for ToG)

Outfit change for the Vessels (only cus i think Australia is quite hot now innit? poor iv will MELT in that jacket)

NEW VESSEL JEWELLERY

This one I'm not super confident/keen on BUT new Vessel mask with Antlers (more likely on ToG but who knows)

#I AM SO EXCITED FOR THE RITUALS AAAAAAA IT'S RIDICULOUS #i kinda hate that because of timezones they will be playing during the day (for me) rather than later at night but!! #it means we can at least gather round in the evening and react together #cus lord knows how many full nights of sleep i sacrificed during the US rituals #actually yeah now that i think about it it *IS* better this way #ignore my earlier tag then i am thinking out loud #i need at least one picture of the crew with koalas. Just one #i know the girlies are there already so i'm assuming they are ALL there #(one of the Esperas posted on her stories. calm down guys i am not doxing anyone) #do you think they are doing fun Aussie stuff 🥺 trying vegemite and milo and petting koalas and fighting roos 🥺🥺 #wait but Adam is not there yet. maybe her photo is from last year. or maybe they're all arriving at different times idk #i just hope they are not stressing too much and are having fun and healthy 👍 #i will get SO emotional hearing Vessel fully recovered on stage again 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 #ANYWAYS I RAMBLED TOO MUCH OMG SORREH #if you reached this have a little snack for your troubles 🤲 🍊🧃🍬 #sleep token #sleep token teeth of god tour

[averlym]

no one would notice if i ever vanished // if bodies could sustain // this never-ending army // like blood pumping through a vein

(click for better resolution!)

:OOO hello. anyway since these are all posters i'd have in an ideal world or smth and i'd like to store the high res versions somewhere,,, here's the google drive folder for them? hehe ''

close up!

#adamandi #vincent aurelius lin #i'm back with the posters! or smth! idk!! #i'm maybe just a bit obsessed with vincent. such a Character. #where can i run is sustaining me single-handedly through this exam season (<- has cried thrice in the last two days; alas; but moving on) #my stress response was that in a fit of apathy i shut myself down from academia and stopped to paint this #six hours total? on this funky little thing! had to push myself to finish the magnifying glass but!! looks so cool. i'm impressed with my e #fun fact: all the shades are hand-coloured. aka everything is digitally hand painted hooray!! i havent painted for a long time (ish) #smth about this musical makes me want to paint. it's very lovely that way #it's also a miracle i haven't gotten carpal tunnel or any wrist injuries so far... i'm a lucky person! hooray #i had so many thoughts to ramble about and now i don't recall any of them. #-! about this piece: inspired specifically by that one line that i doodled in the margins of a math practice last night #the diagonal slant was very. thinky. the rendering and angle were kinda contradictory to do but it's fineeee (draft was diff. pov) #i liked the red abstraction. and the way that people (misc) gave same vibes as red blood cells. #green for vincent because contrasting colour!! considered a spotlight that was more obv bc. again theatre lighting is so cool. but that was #a bit too literal? i think. so just fun little highlights. no one look at the accuracy of anything here though.. shadows do Not do this #also like hehehe lin. forest. forest of people. i really liked thinking about that. hehehe #i didn't know the font to use!! or quote!! so i slapped on the name of the musical and called it a day... the blank one is in the google- #-folder if you want to add your own stuff :') also also i wasn't sure about cropping at all. so again high res in google drive link #which is under the keep-reading sign! kind of a choose your own adventure because i'm lazy :3 #ajhshdhfhfhfhf i think i've been fuelled by the tags under each post so far. so intensely. so very nice. #also when the cast or creators drop fun facts... serotonin right there.. they're all so nice waaagh it's so cool that they like my stuff >< #<laughs> really grateful that the whole fandom's so sweet <3 thank you for your support TvT #alright!! off to mess about with chemistry. jiayou me. #oh yes. a post script about the cropping crisis: i wasn't sure how small i wanted to make him. in proportion to the crowd. so if you see it #on mobile ig it's tiny and on laptop it kind of makes sense ...

[bookrat]

Pretty sure my little man has a case of abundism affecting the marble tabby coat under all those white splotches

#random pet post #it really is a weird coat pattern #I'm never sure if I should describe him accurately as a white marked tabby or as the first impression people get of a black and white cat #love his little backward C's #I got all my other pets around the same time and they've been dying off one by one this last year or so #I'm down to just this 4yo kit and Bruiser #actually I'm not done whispering in the tags #pretty soon it's just gonna be me and this terrible little man against the world #and he gives me such weird problems you cannot even begin to imagine #took to the leash and harness without a bit of difficulty but I can't take him anywhere cuz he freaks out about people 500ft away #really difficult to find sitters for him cuz he gets so stressed about changes and waits until 3am to SCREAM #he's 17 lbs and wants to sleep on my chest 14 hours a day #took him on a work trip a week or 2 ago cuz of aforementioned petsitting troubles and some kind of wire got crossed #so instead of stress peeing in my laundry basket he now humps the nearest blanket covered limb to alert me of problems #he got scared of his water dish recently and is only now starting to get over it after 3 weeks of drama #he knocked it over last night and humped my leg while I tried to sleep to try and convey to me that he was thirsty #I'm thinking of getting a second cat and just fucking hoping that it'll be normal and maybe Prompto can target it for some of his weirdness

[shu-bullshit]

Made it look serious but it's the claymash scene from Parks & Rec.

#I decided I wanted to draw adam scott here's a little tempt I guess #but I'm still a bit stressed about doing Severance art. maybe when I rewatch it #or if second season turns out bad I just won't want it anymore #adam scott #parks and rec #sketches #color pencil

[icewindandboringhorror]

... why he sit like this

#in this position his face is extremely 'cartoon cat' shaped.. like the perfectly round cheeks and little #rounded bump of a snout.. big round eyes. etc. stretched over the arm of a chair like a weirdo #cats #It's still Hot Evil Summer time and I have so much to do so am just aimlessly hopping between various projects but not actually #getting anything done. as usual. Also so so so so tired. I almost fell asleep in the middle of the floor like 3 times today lol #Trying to finish some costume photos and also another poll adventure thing. plus I do really want to do a sculpture sometime #I haven't finished one in a while. Hopefully my tiredness is nothing bad. #Maybe I'm anemic again so that's making me tired. Or maybe it's just a Listless phase. not that I'm ever really THAT productive considering #all of the health problems and etc. always holding me back. but still. I'm not usually 'sleep or just stare at a wall literally all day' ty #e unproductive.. at least not for multiple days in a row so. hmm... Sometimes especially in the summer though I will have periods of time #that are listless like that. I am under low level phyiscal stress for months at a time due to summer heat so I guess it makes sense #that would eventually take a toll. I just have SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO!!!!! AAUUGhhh #I also came up with a new idea for a game that is so so cool and I wish I could make it but I have to finish the other one first lol #which I will NEVER do. if I spend all day just sleepy unfocused barely able to do anything #I also really need to sell some clothes and sculptures because I'll probably have to buy a new computer soon so I need money. (plus still #recovering the costs of having to euthanize my other cat.. wehh) There's nothing clearly wrong with it right now but it's getting gradually #slower and there's more weird glitches happening randomly and idk.. just weird things that make me think 'hmm... bad.. possibly.' #ANYWAY... I just have so much to do that I both REALLY want or need to do - so it's perpetually frustrating that I just can't for whatever #reason like. Time is always mving forward. every day I waste is a wasted day. The year is already almost half over. I havent finished #any of the projects I wanted to .. and there's only more and more things to do each day. It's overwhelming and stinky #and thats not even considering having to do all of my tasks also with the background noise of economic inequality. everything increasingly #going into an even scarier political direction. active climate change crisis. pandemic that still exists and is insane to act otherwise. et #etc. HOW am I supposed to solo make two whole games . write 3 book series. finish sculptures. do costumes. make outfits. game videos. make #stable network of social connections. do my little side crafts. take care of myself and cats. pay rent. manage health issues. keep a routin #.try to make some sort of money. go to doctors appointments. handle regular maintenance like cleaning and cooking and self care #and buying new plates when old ones break or etc. make sure to do other things like backup my computer data regularly. do shopping lists. #take care of plants. pursue like 6 different academic interests. do the other side side projects I have for fun (like music or carving avoc #ado pits). eat in a healthy way thats okay for my Special Health Issue diet. exercise so i don't die early. etc. etc. etc. AND all while it #82F in my apartment all the time and I have tiny income and also need to move to another country/climate somehow??? lol...... #ANYWAY.. ..very frustrated today over my chronic Tired Sleepy.. time for Cat Photos - which cure all of life's ailments lol

[ef-1]

girlhood

#i have to fly out to capetown to see mother and im literally debating if i could land in the morning and leave at night on the same day #like. anything longer than that is going to ruin my year. #when she called and did her “katherine. you have to be here on the 10th” i literally sobbed in my bed for the rest of the day 😍😍😍 #not dyeing my hair black for a year and its getting lighter and lighter everyday and i look like her again #and my therapist telling me “you need to do things for yourself.” but like can i? sorry that woman traumatised me and i actually cant :) #like everything i do is informed by her #I'm going to go and just like everytime the only way to keep my sanity is to mirror her. talk and sit and speak and read and eat like her #and its such a terrifying experience bc i remember that im capable of emulating her viciousness and maybe i am my mother's daugher 🤢🤢🤢 #and im going to come back and its going to take fucking months for me to feel like myself again #“oh you look so beautiful just like your mother” i hope you DIE lol !!! the fact that my conception of beauty was shaped by her #growing up with this cruel beautiful detached woman and realising that at the intersection of beauty and wickness is a lifetime of pain #and still being so desperate for her approval- for any metaphysical proximity to her that i felt elated when #people would tell me i look like her. that it meant i was also beautiful like her and maybe she'll love me a little for it #but now i know for a fact that i do look like her and it makes saliva swell under my tongue - that moment right before you throw up- #when people mention it 😍 #last time i was in capetown my optic neuritis flared up (and i know for a fact it was that it was ms-stress related from having to see her) #and i thought i hid it so well even though i had near constant headaches & lethargy until she said “katherine give me the red notebook” #and i knew that she knew all along. it was so acutely humiliating standing there and knowing she knows i cant see which one is the red one #and she tilted her head and said “whats the matter? do you not know what red looks like?” #im never going to have kids. my mother and i read eachother so well it can only mean im never too far removed from becoming her #lol!!!!!!!!!

[paradoxgavel]

just have to get through tonight and tomorrow morning and then my dad's gonna be back and this horrible awful week from hell will be over

#just gotta hang in there a little bit longer #i'm. thinking of taking a sick day over the weekend maybe. do some self care. #this whole week i've been so stressed that it's felt like my body is in a vice grip #the only way for me not to be stressed about the situation is to not think about it lmao #and all y'all on here reaching out have been such a big help too. ;v;

[zebratimw]

#svsss #scum villains self saving system #shang qinghua #how I be feeling these days ahdnfjgkg #I keep stressing about life in general and its seriously bumming me out hajdjg #how nice it would be to not exist #everyday I wake up and do the same things I hate #time hasn't felt real in years and it goes way before covid times #I haven't felt real in most of those years either #Look I'm lucky I'm not like depressed or whatever but frankly this derealization shit is seriously startin to get a little worrying at times #tbf I only really notice it recently so maybe its just a bias #I've been chugging along this way for years all thats changed is my perception of it #but at the same time I really want to do more too #I get I'm a very boring and unreliable person #and I know I just said its my perception of it but like I do genuinely think my social skills my general living just like me mentally ig #I'm kinda deteriorating in my stagnation ig? artistically too but more worrying in my life idbfjg #priorities sorry anyways I also think I do have adhd or something and that rejection thing dhfjgjg I really can't start things anymore #idk I really just feel so clueless in most things now and I'm too scared or too confused or both to start fixing things #like how do I even fix things? what do I even search for in this kind of thing? #Idk I'm just gonna go sleep ig god I'm so tired of everything #I haven't been able to draw I've really lost passion for a lot of things again and everything irritates me #I can't stand my phone sometimes but it's kinda the only thing getting me through it all ha #ngl I wish I were depressed sometimes if only so I'd actually have the balls to do smth but Ik that's just the Metnally Ail part speaking so #chug chug going along #I also have to make wushi before I die. haha #god my life is so empty #what am I even doing #I'm really so tired why can't my life end here already? modern lifespans are too long how am I supposed to keep going on like this? #so pointless and vapid and its just me ? why did it have to be me that was born? couldn't someone else have been here I hate it here so much #I strive for nothing but I have such a long life and so many people to disappoint haha maybe I should go outside more

[floydsteeth]

Hi this is the licht drawing I made while super overwhelmed an hour ago

Its licht as a scene kid cause why not

I think the idea came from a conversation I had with @drewadoodle a while ago

Regardless I doubt he'd dress like this willingly but it made my very overwhelmed self happy

#It's a really bad drawing #It feels rushed #I just #I'm happy to be drawing licht #I love him #But the drawing itself is not so good #But I wanna post it #Cause today's been stressful and I'm about to pass out #I've been awake for like 17 hours and that's to much #Ikepri licht #licht klein #ikepri fanart #I wish I had highlighters to colour it in #I have a stickynote in Mt skwtchbook with little art ideas and one of them was “scene kid licht” #So yakown #Had to draw it #But maybe I'll do better then I'm not panicking #Arsons art :P

[fruitysoupy]

Navi!

I was home for the weekend and did some doodles :]

This is what I imagine fairies look like!

#i love Navi so much you dont even know #my art #loz #oot #ocarina of time #navi #triangles #that's a blog tag! #this was a lot of fun to make #my version of navi is really fun to draw for me! #this really helped bring down my stress level a little bit #I'm not sure about the colours! I always struggle with that! Maybe I can get my tablet calibrated or something so they show up properly #she's based on rats hummingbirds dragonflies and kingfishers by the way! her feathers glow but I didn't draw that because I ran out of time #tloz #forgot that one I think #the legend of zelda #tloz art

[lunarharp]

uh.. just a doodly collection LOL

#witch hat tag #orufrey #and some earrings. #the rest is mostly me remembering this tipsy scene in my fic and wanting to illustrate it a bit. had to include excerpts so it'd make sense #i dont actually think qifrey is as foolish as in the last image but maybe if he's stressed out &tipsy. happy drunk x melancholy drama drunk #my fic is so serious and then my drawings are like. I'm a silly little man #^ someone forgetting they draw very serious and depressing narrative fanart fairly regularly and this is just to let off steam #qifrey muttering quietly under his breath while staring into his wine: I could be transfem if i had to be. easily. oru: what? qif: nothing. #abt those ladies saying oru looks gay. no he doesnt if he doesnt have his facial hair. #he has the facial hair japanese people see as a gay stereotype. especially on a slight-built man in that style and not like a full beard. #for some reason that screams gay to japanese people. the fact that he was designed with that is good to me.

[serafilms]

(tbosas movie spoilers!!!) i think the worst part of tbosas for me was that coriolanus was right??? all those offhanded little comments he made 'on a whim' to try and 'help the tributes' and in turn save himself were right and it's horrifying to realise that he didn't need to try to think of them and try to be like his father bc he already was. from an audience perspective, i sat through the whole arena part of the movie disgusted by everything happening in it and begging for it to be over (it didn't really get better after all that but oh well). the deaths were more gruesome, the arena more terrifying and everything felt too real (i also watched it in imax idk if that helped). not that the deaths in thg and catching fire games weren't horrific, but in an offhanded movie fan way, i used to look forward to the arena. because it became exactly what dr gaul wanted it to be and what coriolanus realised it was and what lucy gray made it: a performance. in the 65 years after, they made the arenas interesting and real and natural and beautiful, with weapons and mutts and gifts and places to hide and places for open bloodshed, they interfered with the games to help and then kill their tributes (sound familiar? yeah thanks a lot coriolanus u bitch) and it was literally the most harrowing thing to sit there and watch the movie as i realised that it was entertaining to me to watch the first two movies because of that. we are no better than the citizens of the capitol and i just think that sucks.

#the hunger games #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #tbosas #ballad of songbirds and snakes #overall fantastic movie!!! horrible experience #I was so distraught and stressed and horrified #also didn't help that coronalius is a psychotic bitch ://// #heart him a little bit though #I stand by that if lucy gray hadn't left him he might have been salvageable bc yes he was a compulsive murderer #but I think his grief for sejanus was genuine #but maybe not bc I also stand by that lucy gray and snow are wrong person wrong time #she couldn't trust him #but I could please one chance #coryo pick me choose me #I'd never run away from u #justice for my boy sejanus though #when he stormed out of the broadcasting room I felt that #im roughly 30% through the book so I will strive to keep going #but seriously best movie I've seen this year excluding maybe atsv but I've seen that 4 times and I'm biased #ashley speaks !

[averlym]

Im sorry but can you do 45 angst for parrlyn? U don't have to tho!

45- "leave" (very quick doodle for you!)

#hi anon akshdjdhd thank you for asking so politely i guess #here's this .. 'm not sure what exactly but it's exam project season rn #and like!!! screwed up stress responses all over the place!! #anyways. #six the musical #six the musical fanart #anne boleyn #catherine parr #parrlyn #... the angst of being in an awkward situation #quick run down: been reading fic (not helping my revision any but nevertheless) and looking back at old characterisations of cathy #and like one thing was the coffee/ lack of sleep/ stress response thing that seems like part of widely accepted hc #and. well. um my stress response is avoidance! including of people #so yeahhhh maybe pushing people away is bad but also people can be so overwhelming even in the same room yknow #aka why i haven't been studying with friends (sad haha) and like maybe i'm projecting a little bit . shh #also also anne! bestie! me too! logically it's the 'ily but i really Cannot rn' and yeah it checks out but #on the other side of it the rsd / anxiety hits hard it's like oh i'm a terrible person #then you spend the next hour coaxing yourself out of that piece of sh- mindset #so. that's the idea of angst but also apparently most people don't know the insides of my head so what's angst for me #which is usually strongest with Implications instead of proper whump or whatnot #isn't probably angst for the. general populace .. #maybe it's the anxiety? *fingerguns* #alright! gn! #<side story: there was once this guy who kept trying to get me to go out with him to study (?still actually but now he's resigned to reject #-​ion) and i couldn't say to his face ' i would want you to stop breathing tbh because your physical presence in the same room would set me #absolutely off and into a nervous breakdown' and that's how i ended up saying 'people are distracting' and implied i was interested in him> #<lowkey. very yikes>

[timemachineyeah]

this book is gonna be so fucking good if I ever get around to writing it

#I did recently discover I may have been operating for YEARS maybe my WHOLE LIFE with near death low levels of cortisol lmao #so until I can get to an endo and hopefully get on some hormones I'm gonna be extra nice to myself re: productivity and stress #because it turns out my 'overexertion goes REALLY hard on me :(' may have been repeatedly nearly dying lolololol #I mean it's probably not that bad it's probably just a little funky #but my morning cortisol was 0.5 which I guess is like STUPID low #anyway I can't wait to write my whole book I'm gonna go write more of it now maybe

[neutral-emerald]

hi guys i still remember the swap au exists. heroes comic isn’t going anywhere but take a look at amy. also an idea for iblis the light, and also, a bit of sonic.

#my art #amy rose #sonic the hedgehog #iblis the light #swap au #sonamy #every time i redo amy's design she gets a little more naked #i think i'm finally satisfied with this one tho #also sonic 06 is a Whole mess which i don't really want to fully untangle for this au #but i really like the ideas i have around amy in silver's role #she's like some sort of an oracle in the future. which is clouded over with eternal darkness bc mephiles #she's got clairvoyance/mild foresight which helps her survive. even when it's too dark to see she can still 'see' #maybe she's some kind of beacon of hope for other survivors or maybe she's a loner. haven't decided #either way she's just about the only one keeping mephiles slightly in check #and it Sure Is Stressful #then this glowy fuck Iblis shows up and tells her she can fix all of this for the low low price of killing this one dude #turns out foresight is an excellent counter to shadow's teleportation bc she can just attack where he's Going to be #also some real confusing emotions when she develops a crush on the guy whose face iblis stole