#mikotoposting

[blitz0hno]

More under the cut thanks to my bestie lmaooooo

Alternative versions below

This is how they talk (Fuuta noooo ur gonna get cancelled!!)

(internalized homophobia SMHSMH)

#milgram #mikoto milgram #john milgram #fuuta milgram #kotoko milgram #milgram memes #f word #lmfao #we silly today bois! #mikotoposting #kotoko loves slurs #/lh /j #my favorite joke tag srry

[skeledough]

mikotoposting hours bc hes my goofy goober (im normal btw)

#milgram #kayano mikoto #milgram project #guys i cant bring myself to draw anything not milgram rn its BAD #mikoto kayano #milgram fuuta #milgram mikoto

[mayoiayasep]

wait hold on a second i know it’s mikotoposting time BUT WHAT ARE THE SOLO NAMES

👍🏾

#lav 💐 #inbox mail #undescribed #enstars tag #literally going fucking insane over mayois. if its not good im killing happyele

[edelkoto]

sorry i havent been mikotoposting guys i have been busy (sleeping)

[blitz0hno]

They got That Dog in themmmmmm

Sillies!! Also my take on John reveal

#milgram #mikoto milgram #john milgram #mikoto kayano #mikotoposting #milgram project #milgram fanart #john kayano #what’s w this dog motif?? #ITS 1:30?? am?.???

[blitz0hno]

Plsplsplspls I want as many thoughts as possible on how this could go I am manifesting Wholesome John Interactions so hard personally

I think Haruka would not understand at first but come around, Yuno would be chill right off the bat, Fuuta won't get it at first but definitely see the differences and maybe even befriend John, Muu won't care, Shidou knows what DID is bc he's a doctor (these are high hopes ik), Mahiru will b so nice to him, Kazui won't quite understand but he's chill too, Amane either totally gets it but is mistrusting at first or has some "spiritual" explanation, and Kotoko is ableist and mistrusting but hates John for different reasons than she hates Mikoto so diversity win???? This is all total conjecture but hey a theory is a theory

RB for bigger sample size!

#milgram theory #milgram #milgram mikoto #john milgram #mikoto milgram #milgram project #mikotoposting #johnposting

[blitz0hno]

Mikoto's amnesia, denial, and the order of events in MeMe

So my theory about the memories detailed in MeMe, as per Milgram's record of Mikoto being the "guilty one," is pretty simple. The events in the outerworld are completely jumbled, and I believe the bulk of them take place right after Mikoto's "first" murder if there were indeed multiple victims. This is gonna be a very basic look at the "flashback"/"real-life" sequences in MeMe. I feel like this may have been done before but I mostly just see analysis on the headspace/symbolism in the video and not the implications of the real-world bits, but this video has been discussed to death so I can't be the only one who's thought about it lol

In the first part of our timeline, we see lots of static and Mikoto swinging a bat at someone as the train goes by. I imagine the tracks were where the body itself was disposed of. Mikoto's "dream" shows faraway 3rd-person angle and it's almost as if he's watching "himself" commit the crime. However, the face of the victim, his own expression, and the injuries inflicted are obscured from his view the whole scene.

It abruptly cuts to him entering his house after this, which is where I believe Mikoto's memory starts to get patchier. The moments after a trauma are when the brain is still reeling from shock, after all. After his first dream sequence where he expresses confusion, I believe the second verse is filling in the gaps of what happened between finishing the crime and changing his clothes. You can't lie in Milgram though, and sharing a brain means sharing memories, no matter how deeply they are buried. The memory gets more detail as he is examined more, and it's already common for brains to remember things out of order. Mikoto is shown to be in-and-out of his headspace in MeMe; the memories of how "he" saved "him" (the other alter, likely a big part of who John would become) are not all his own, even if the choice to kill was.

I believe that chronologically, this is the next scene.

Presumably John, processing what they've done, recognizing himself as "not Mikoto" for the first time. Mikoto, then, is seeing "himself" from yet another angle, completely upside-down.

It abruptly cuts again, his jacket having been taken off. His face is once again obscured, like Mikoto remembers doing it but not as "himself."

The angle here is more first-person, implying that Mikoto clearly remembers "dreaming" this part.

This is right before he goes home. He's disposed of the beanie, and presumably the jacket and bat.

Mikoto walking in his door immediately after the confrontation is likely exactly how he felt at the time. I believe this next line of dialogue is an alter, likely John or pre-John, speaking to him. "You don't have to keep it in and hide it away, 'I' will save 'me."" (Worth mentioning that "Boku" is used both times here.) It's the first time in the song he refers to himself as "you," which I feel like is pretty common for alters to do to each other even before they realize that they're completely separate ego states. This cut from the first verse, where it jumped right after the murder, shows him in the same pants and shirt he took the trash out in. This implies that Mikoto blacked out most of the way home, which tracks for an event as traumatic as killing a guy.

This part abruptly cuts to him on the couch, in new clothes and no longer covered in blood. As I said earlier, I believe Mikoto's memory begins to come back in bits and pieces as Milgram scans it, which is why the second part is where we actually see him getting cleaned up.

Just as he realizes he's fading in and out, and there seems to be someone on the other side who "doesn't care" that they've killed someone, he gets kicked back into headspace. Since he's in Milgram, that space could be defined as the present moment, while the memories themselves are reflecting more like flashbacks than a linear story.

That's why we see this next part so early, even though it happened after his clean-up work.

Here we see Mikoto's alter, either John or "Midokoto" (plausible 3rd alter show urself challenge impossible likely literally impossible look at that trauma-holding sonofabitch) banishing Mikoto to the shadow realm /j. No blood, new clothes, numb to the world and very clearly trying to forget. "That had to have been a dream" type shit.

Ironically, alters who the host doesn't notice know when they're controlling the body better than the host, who takes it for granted like they're supposed to. If you don't know what DID is, it's easy to be aware that you are technically "working together" with yourself but not understand why it feels that way.

We're also shown this scene where he comes home from work, in the instrumental between Mikoto's Denial choruses. This is the answer to his question of "why?". He was running himself ragged and literally watching himself fall apart from the stress. Assuming he threw out that jacket, this could be interpreted as the days leading up to the murder.

Given that he doesn't have his beanie despite retaining the rest of the outfit, it could also be him continuing to go through the motions and act like the event didn't happen in the days after. I sure wouldn't throw out that shirt, it's a cool shirt. (Actually, it's such a cool shirt that I personally think it further proves the lack of pre-meditation, but like he still did it lol)

I think that in Mikoto's case, the farther away the camera is, the farther "our" Mikoto is from the front. It all happened so fast that his decisions were carried out for him, despite Milgram and his own sense of guilt determining that he himself was the one to take that path.

I don't think he's just talking to Es when he becomes more intense/angry about "why am I here?". I think he's speaking to his alter(s) as well. But I'm only allowed 10 images so I'll post about that later. The line "You don't have to keep it in and hide it away" from when he walks in his door contrasts directly with "Hurting it, holding it down, it doesn't change a thing does it?" Says a lot about how he dismissed his own stress and desire for change, unwittingly dismissing the pain of the people trying to help him.

He literally knows not what he does grrrrrr how dare this project be so fucking cool and good

#milgram #mikoto milgram #john milgram #mikotoposting #haha #again!! #meme milgram #milgram theory #possibly plate-of-corn type post #but like #the out-of-order memories about what could conceivably take up all of 1-5 hours of time #is so real #bitch got Unstuck in Time #me when slaughterhouse v changed my brain chemistry regarding how memory works

[blitz0hno]

Mikoto likely doesn't have a problem with traditional politeness because he just.... Loves being kind to ppl. He treats everyone like a friend not just because he's fawning and reciting pleasantries, but because that's what he really wants to believe.

His mom's looking out for him; he just needs to keep working hard.

His boss his looking out for him; he just wants things done "right."

The people around him want what's best for him; he wants what best for them after all.

That's just how he's been taught to be kind to people, no matter what he's feeling inside. He's stubborn in his own certain kind of way and it hurts him, but he wants to keep working. He wants to Do It All. He can't accept that he can't but he'll give others all the slack in the world.

Mikoto wants to "earn" acceptance and kind treatment, on top of an easier life for his family and himself. But him and his nicknames and concern for them shows that he even cares about the others, and will extend those things that he wants either way. If he doesn't receive that kindness, he can only assume that he didn't "earn" that kindness. It's all in his control that way.

In my personal view of him I don't think Mikoto is Just A Kiss-ass. He's a genuinely kind guy and he prides himself on working hard to a fault; of course he'll offer that to whoever he can. It's still fawning, it's still a trauma response. But he wants a better world for other people than what he got and I think that's why I voted HIM innocent. HIM, not John.

Mikoto is the one on trial, and even though his memory misleads him he is a kind, deserving guy. Giving him the benefit of the doubt until everything we see in trial 3 is just the right thing to do, whether or not he's been "lying." He's nice from a genuine place I think. He wouldn't kill for no reason. Especially not "just anyone walking around."

(meanwhile John is a bitchass cunt lmao he earned it tho he tried to warn our boy Mikoto 😭 it was gonna happen he took too much shit he literally said "you're going to break")

#mikoto milgram #milgram #i love Thinking about him!!!! #underrated character in a strange way i Think #everyone is like “oh yeah he's host.of course he's polite and masking etc.” but IT'S MORE #he's just a guy #milgramblr my beloveds #everyone who discusses and analyzes these silly characters warms my heart #mikoto inno t3 on god on god #mikotoposting #john milgram #working class hero mikoto milgram

[blitz0hno]

some bullshit that everyone basically probably knows but imma write it anyway

In Double it's shown that MIKOTO is primarily the one who pulls on his hair when he's breaking from stress. (fun fact "apparently normal" alters don't completely pass the emotions to Someone Else, but exclusively express stress internally so they don't remember it; that's how mine works anyway but I've heard a lot of similar testimony from other ANP alters)

That means JOHN is the one who would conceivably touch their hair or face in a softer way (like in Undercover) if Mikoto starts to do that. Self-soothing, quite literally.

Just things I'm normal about

#mikotoposting #mikoto milgram #john milgram #milgram #mikoto kayano #FUCK I MEANT TO Q THAT MY DARK HUMOR IS GONNA GET BURIED

[blitz0hno]

Why I'm Voting Inno Mikoto even tho He Definitely Did It

or should I say DID i-*🏏smacked*

TL;DR like many I do not believe a word John says, but I also don't think he has the entire truth. Meanwhile Mikoto's amnesia is near undoubtable. With two unreliable narrators and solid evidence of self-defense, I think we need more before declaring him guilty.

I'm here to be Mikoto's lawyer cuz John ily but you suck at it 😭

Now onto why I'm voting Inno:

Mikoto isn't lying when he says he doesn't remember murdering those people, at least not entirely. The memory is in his subconscious, but he can't even remember the faces of his victims because they were both so out of it.

I believe what we see in MeMe is safe to assume to be his first. The first mannequin smashed onscreen is this one:

That looks like a damn FNAF jumpscare lmao this tells me that his baseball hobby probably saved him from getting jumped at that train station, but it came at a heavy price.

That's where John comes in. To handle the feelings that undoubtedly came with taking a life and having to hide the evidence.

Generally in DID alter's memories fall into one of 3 categories (my observations of myself and other systems):

That event happened. These are all the details. I feel nothing about it.

That event happened and I remember everything I felt like it was seconds ago, but I couldn't tell you specifics

That event happened??

The latter two can safely be assigned to John and Bokukoto. The first one is what we're missing.

I saw someone point out how the train could symbolize that he can never go back (credit urself in the tags if u see this it was a good one) to before he killed.

That brings me to our final scene.

Remember how John split to handle the feelings of that stressor? The feeling of unsafety, pure adrenaline, and righteous anger at the attacker is a horrific thing, but once you experience it you change. In order for an alter to handle the reality of something, it must be accepted somehow. John's way of accepting it is not remembering their faces, only his expressions and actions. That's probably why he's so aggressive; constant fight-or-flight mode.

Mikoto (Bokukoto), like with whatever happened to him in early childhood to cause DID, is unable to accept these realities because doing so would shatter his world (it turns out constant fight-or-flight isn't great for your social life).

So about John's statement that he didn't know any of the victims even though he totally did, at least a little;

John is reading the room and there it is: unsafety, pure adrenaline, and righteous anger at the attacker. That's all he needs to feel to know that it's time to protect Mikoto.

That's not the face and mannerisms of a man who bashes skulls in for kicks. This shit was personal.

I can't tell if it's one or two victims in the second clip here, but I strongly believe they had something to do with his work. His subconscious is really harping on how much his boss got on him and how stressed it made him. Something happened that pushed them over the edge. You don't call your mom after you kill for fun (or maybe you do idk). You call your mom when you know you're fucked.

John initiated the second killing but I don't think he was the only one making a conscious decision. That said, I don't have enough details to condemn Mikoto to another unforgiven verdict.

So, where will we find that info? Well remember RGB Mikoto/Trikoto theory (kudos to whoever coined those too)? Well when I broke down the compartmentalization earlier I hinted that there's a strong chance that SOMEONE remembers every detail, but feels nothing and lays dormant.

Good old green Mikoto, the only one we haven't seen speak yet the one who's given us the most detail so far (via MeMe).

Even if not and Bokukoto remembers more than he's letting on/gets in contact with John, the crime itself isn't unforgivable beyond a shadow of a doubt yet even with multiple victims. His reasons are still cloudy.

Also I like him

#milgram #mikoto milgram #mikoto kayano #mikotoposting #john milgram #TW Flashing #tw blo0d

[blitz0hno]

Mikoto RedBull discussion he needs a discussion all right-

#milgram #mikoto milgram #mikotoposting #he has SUCH a lroblem man the minigram confirmed it lmaoooo

[blitz0hno]

I wonder if mikoto tried to b an artist but would dissociate and forget his skill set and maybe shake from stress/anxiety/caffeine and another alter would front to handle it cuz dissociation is stressful but that alter is For That so usually he just “can’t draw” and that’s why he says he’s not that good (cuz he isn’t always there little does he know lol)

Anyway here’s a johncore WIP

#mikoto milgram #milgram project #john milgram #mikotoposting #nah for real tho the silence and focus it takes to draw brings up dissociation for us #I imagine mikoto is similar bc he doesn’t seem to like being alone #milgram #it’s a wip we can clean it up don’t cry

[blitz0hno]

Not to Project Further but Mikoto was a total scapegoat growing up wasn't he

#“don't lie about me” #cmon now #mikoto milgram #mikotoposting #me when it's one of the most confusing and hurtful things you can do to a kid #me when amane parallels also

[blitz0hno]

Mikotosys going from "who would win if y'all fight" to "I will literally have a panic attack if y'all fight" is the realest thing ever

#why do i feel like mikoto is the first and john the second response #either way so true #mikotoposting #mikoto milgram #john milgram #idk if/what pronouns r used in the og tho i'm only guessing by how he's drawn

[blitz0hno]

The serotonin is endless but so are the horrors 🔥

#0909 milgram #0909 #john milgram #mikotoposting #milgram

[blitz0hno]

Oml too lazy to screenshot but when John crushed the cig in Double when I just rewatched it I finally realized I WAS RIGHT ABT JOHN PREFERRING CIGARETTES LIKE BITCH WHAT ABOUT THE BODYYYYY AT LEAST MIKOTO'S JUST VAPIN

#milgram #mikoto milgram #mikotoposting #john milgram #smoking #thinkin about a pack of cigs that SOMEONE made us keep when we fled the previous house lmao #it's definitely a no but like thats ok